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This one is very touching. happy for you.

Hahahahahah!!! My guy was too!! Ugh ugh blecgggg

This is very true. And I'm open to it. But I identify red flags so quickly I haven't even found someone I want to get to know on any level!

I met a guy that has all those sweet characteristics but .... I don't know. Nothing there physically. He's short but that's not a deal breaker for me.... He's not funny. He's too nice? He's not complex.... More specifically he's been married twice and walked from the kids both times. Is that a valid red flag? He's so nice and polite! Gosh I just don't know! I need that animal magnetism combined with a good person. I want both. I want my bolts of lightening and that rainbow after the storm. I want my cake and to eat it too!! So NO. still saying no.

So here is how it goes for me this week. I was super busy Sunday running around and came out 1200, 600 calories short of my total. I got a really really bad cold mon and tues and wed. Spent those days laying on the couch eating fast food and drinking soda because that's all I could do. I hate being sick. At about 1500 calories over my 1800 budget! Got better today. Ran around crazy busy with work and a date night... Skipped Breakfast (running late) had a sandwich and fruit lunch, clam chowder and bread for dinner...Came in at 600 calories total for the day. 1200 calories short of my goal. So I'm basically at square 1. This is how it goes for me. I can get my calories up if I have nothing to do but sit and eat... But as soon as I'm busy everything goes out the window. I'm frustrated. I saw this article online about what people all over the world eat every day. It varies wildly by culture. A woman in Africa lived off 900 calories a day. She didn't look so good though. Most ate around 2000-2400. I need to put Snacks in my car.

Sometimes I do have pain although not as often. I have very heavy restriction as well as severe dumping. Mainly I find it difficult and unappealing to eat, I get full very easily and stay satisfied for a very long time. I have little to no appetite and have to force food. My body requires a lot of calories and the size of my sleeve is really small. I also have some fear about eating high calorie items such as nuts but I'm working on getting over that fear. I've done okay the past couple of days. I'm working on it! I also have a doctors appt next week. Relying on Iv nutrition is unwise. That calories and nutrients can't make up for what you need to eat by mouth. Pic lines are AWEFUL, I've had two already. Tpn sucks and I won't go down that road. @@foodfighter your weight is really low. I am not sure if giving yourself three months is a great idea. Have you checked for malnutrition?

Awesome! You're both gorgeous!!

Still on a NO streak.

I'm so sorry. I know what you are going through! Thank you for your post. I really hope things turn around for you.

Thank you for posting this.

These are my favorite pictures. I'm struggling still with maintaining but I'm trying to remember how far I've come and feel happy that at least the weight is off and I'm never going to feel the way I used to feel again.

I'm not having issues with the stricture any more

This morning my weight dropped again, to 114. At 5'6 that basically makes me DISCUSTING. It seems to be dropping faster now than I am eating!!!!!! I don't get this. I have to find a dietician here asap.

It's pretty crazy

I'm doing really terrible. This morning my weight dropped again to 116. Boost makes me dump crazy bad. Yesterday I ate a banana, sushi, salad, steak taco, cheese, fried calamari, and a second steak taco. But my calories only came to 1600 at the end of the day. And I lost more weight. My insurance changed and I lost my eating disorder therapist. She wasn't helping me anyway. And I'm not TRYING to lose weight. Clearly I'm eating! Anorexics don't eat like this. I need a dietician and I'm looking for one that can work with me. The main problems are the restriction I have in my sleeve, lack of appetite, and a very fast metabolism. It may have something to do with me being overweight for only 5 years. Before I gained weight during pregnancy I was extremely fit and muscular. I still am even without exercise. What could be going on is some hyper metabolism. I guess when weight gets very low after a period of starvation, the metabolism actually speeds up super fast when eating begins again. This is why it's so difficult for anorexics to gain weight even in treatment. I'm not sure if I'm having that or not but I am getting night sweats which is a symptom. I didn't think my weight low enough to have this going on. Maybe I'm wrong. Anorexics in treatment are fed about 3000-4000 a day. There's no way I can do that. Things aren't good right now. I'm just not sure what to do next. I just want this to be okay and my weight to maintain. My energy level is very good and I feel good... But I'm looking a bit scary

You're eating a thousand calories a day. Could you double that if you wanted to? Do you think you could physically do it without resorting to eating junk food?

I do have extreme dumping even after a year. It has not gotten better, in fact it's gotten worse. If I eat too much quality I dump, if I eat to much fat and sugar combined I dump, if I eat a high dairy food with sugar I dump. I am eating all of those high calorie foods but not in high enough quantities. The problem is I am full so easily and have no appetite. 1800 is barely enough to keep my weight on and a lot of days I don't hit that amount. I'm struggling to hit that amount. I find eating tedious and boring. I have very little desire for food. This is a side effect of this surgery that not a lot of people get but some do. Skipping meals is certainly a big issue. Having a lack of appetite is harder than you can guess. It's really difficult to eat when you're simply not hungry. The truth is I've always found eating to be rather tedious. It's amazing I got up to the weight I did. I used to binge eat my feelings and since I broke that connection I find eating to be just another chore I have to do. Say I eat an avocado for Breakfast. That's about 300 calories. I will be so full for hours- I'll barely eat lunch. But day I do eat a hamburger! That's 500 calories. At that point I'm at 800 calories. There is no way I'll have room for a snack. At dinner I have a burrito for 350 calories. That's 1150. I'll add guacamole for another 150 cals. That's 1300. That's really hard as it is for me to do. I'll be so full from this. I might shovel down another snack at about 10pm of a banana with Peanut Butter or something to make 1400-1600. The issue is I think I need about 1900-2200 calories. So little by little I'm still losing weight. And I can't afford to! If I increase the calories in my meals I'm just that much more full and eat less on the next meal. It's really frustrating me. I need to do better with this. I went to my NUT with this thinking that she would encourage me to eat more and that she would say I was on the right track somewhat. She actually did not like my meals at all and wanted me to cut out all sugar and high fat food, and to greatly limit my carbs. I was like "have you taken a look at me?????" She obviously mostly deals with people trying to lose weight still or regaining and doesn't understand my situation. If I ate low carb high Protein low fat, I'd be a walking skeleton in about a month.

Milk makes me dump badly. Can't even do yogurt. I can do cheese and I do. I know!! I have to eat all day. It's so hard. It's dicusting. I find it soooo hard. I'm hoping that this will get better in time. I was doing better when I was eating a lot of Taco Bell but I got so tired of it and I worried that eventually the tide would turn and I would start to gain from it. And it's so bad for you. I eat oatmeal, eggs, waffles, bagels, bacon, ranch dressing, cheeses, pizza, sandwiches, Thai and Chinese, Pasta, steak, hummus, pita, fruit, Beans, sometimes Protein bars, Jerky, avocados....and much more It's not what- it's that the quantity is so low. I've become a one meal wonder. I know it's really my fault but I just had to post about it because although it seems like an easy fix, it's not going easily!!! I only made 800 calories today and I feel repulsed at the idea of eating more because I am so full already. I had steak for dinner and that tipped me over the edge Ugh

Oh my gosh totally. I eat all kinds of carbs. It would be crazy for me not to eat carbs. Today I ate a huge brown rice and bean burrito with quinoa. But it took me all day to eat it and it was my only real meal. So filling!! I eat bread and bagels, even Cookies, Pasta... I eat whatever I want that won't make me sick. I don't try and cut out any foods anymore. What would be the point.

I have become INCREDIBLY picky. It's not even funny how many men I've said no to lately. I just see all the red flags- or there isn't enough spark or attraction ... Even the inkling of something wrong makes me bail. Just waiting for love to hit like a lightning bolt I guess. And not settling for anyone less than awesome.

I, on the other hand, am losing weigh at 1800 calories per day give or take and am at goal weight. I need to raise to at least 2000 but I suspect more like 2200. Everyone is very different. It depends on your muscle mass. Trial and error is the best way to figure it out. I use an app called "lose it" to track my calorie intake and weight. That's how I have figured out my metabolism. I suggest starting higher and decreasing until you see weight loss. Protein requirements depend on your weight and gender.

I miss being able to just eat without thinking about carefully chewing and pacing every bite. I miss ice cream cones and being able to eat without worrying about dumping. I miss my ass when I was in my 20s. I do NOT miss binge eating. I do NOT miss the exhaustion, depression, and guilt I felt. I DO NOT miss hating my body and being afraid of my reflection. I don't miss the way I used to sweat all the time, the foot pain, the huge 42 bras I wore, the plus size stores, the pain after eating too much. I don't miss any of anything being fat enough to turn back!!!!!!!! Thank god I had this surgery.

Just the words crunchy and sweet worry me. I like djs suggestion of the Apple. I highly recommend going for something higher protein if you have been gaining.

Cereal is really a bad food all around. Full of sugar

It depends on your height and weight and bmr. Everyone is different