Rebeccaabrooks86

I've fought with BED for most of my life, beginning when I was a young child who would often go long periods without food because we were extremely poor for a few years after my mother got sick with MS and kidney disease. So when we had food (from food cupboard type situation) or when my mother was able to get us food (which was mostly Pasta, one of the absolute worst foods for you) I would stuff myself and then some, knowing it would be a while before I had another chance. Fortunately, we only stayed in this degree of poverty for a couple years. However, it was right during the time that I began going through puberty and developing PCOS. The hormone disorder, which flared in a huge way based on the absolute crap that I was eating and the sporadic eating, coupled with the previously mentioned issues, launched me headfirst into obesity. By the time we were able to start eating healthy again, my disorder was out of control and was not even diagnosed for many years later. I was in two sports, and was a very active, happy kid. My pediatrician, for whatever reason, never made the connection between my ballooning weight and my first period. Fast forward a through a decade of relative poverty and the crappy food that comes along with it, severe suicidal depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, and a pretty bad case of BED, and I had reached 400 pounds.
Now, I'm pretty much at the opposite end of the spectrum. I don't think I would go so far as to call myself anorexic or seek treatment for it, but I have a lot of anxiety based on food. I feel guilty when I eat anything, or even drink anything beside Water. When I gain a couple pounds or stall, instead of telling myself it's because of my period or whatever other reason that is actually true, I feel like I must have eaten way too much. I follow my nut's plan to the letter, though I still struggle to get all the calories I'm supposed to be getting. It's like the food that once numbed me is now a live wire that could hurt me if it gets too close. I definitely think that this is my own form of transfer addiction. And control, of course... eating disorders are all about feeling out of control.

I had a great gym week 4x there. But scale is 203

6.5 hrs last week

Congrats!!!

Monday 12/21 weigh in: 213 yes hit my goal! Happy Holidays!

Hi Steph!
My weight today is 274.6! Woo Hoo! I went under my goal! YAY!
2 weeks post op today.

196.6 Made it to onederland this week!!

173.0 - only a half a pound lose this week. Not stressing though after the constant holiday parties all week last week.

154.2. Merry Christmas everyone!

Ahhhh so close. This week's weigh-in is 202.2.

YAY I hit my goal!!! I am down to 319.8 this week.

200.2 lbs this morning......so close to Onederland I can feel it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Merry Christmas everyone ????????????

Found out the pain in my hip is advanced arthritis and pool exercise is the best thing for it so my doing the challenge turned out to be the right thing. I am averaging an hour a day (a little over my goal) and lost 4 lbs so far. I think I will definitely hit my goal. Good luck to everyone.

214.8

3hrs

2 hours for me this week weight 202

217.8 on Monday...I've been in the hospital on Clear Liquids for the past 3 days for a bad colitis. So I'm SURE I've lost some more in the past few days.

6.25 hrs

Rebecca, I got in 2.5 hours this week.

Hey guys celebrating my one month anniversary since I had my vgs ???? wanted to know how soon u all started with weights and workouts. I've been walking everyday but now I feel like shifting to elliptical and cycling. Any suggestions??? Oh n one more thing lifting 2 kg weight while working out is ok???

I wish I had seen this sooner, I would have signed up for this one to go along with the holiday challenge that I always join. I hope you do this again.

Anyone who doesn't want to put a WLS goal certainly doesn't have to! I will definitely be joining Steph's next challenge too!

Okay everyone- So I'm having some trouble getting motivated to exercise so I thought I would start up an exercise challenge so we can do it together. Here's the outline:
1) Let everyone know what your weekly exercise goal is
2) Let us know what your goal weight loss is for the challenge period (till 12/24)
3) Report back each week with if you made your exercise goal and what your weight is!
I know we can do this together!!
My goal is to exercise 3 hours per week and my CW 225.6 goal weight 214.6 (by 12/24)

This week went over three...did about 4:10. Was going to go to Yoga today but am having a bad bout of gastritis so I didn't go. Hopefully by Wednesday it'll feel better so I can go to my middle eastern Dance class which is almost 2 hours!

Surpassed my 3 hour goal for the week already (3 Hours and 20 Mins) Lets see how much I can get...I'm going to shoot for 5 Hours.