I'm frustrated, at 310 lbs. I can lose a little, maybe up to 20-30 lbs, but it always comes back. I'm a healthcare provider and know what I and my patients should be doing to eat healthier and exercise. I feel like a terrible role model.
I have had two previous times in the last 8 years that I really considered gastric surgery, but backed out because I thought, if only I try harder, I can do this on my own. So at the beginning of 2014 I set up with a personal trainer who has helped people in my church lose 150 lbs. I only went to him a few times and lost about ten lbs but then I had to leave town for school reasons. I've been living with family and trying to make low carb work, but I stalled after 10 lbs then fell off the wagon, regaining those ten quickly.
I wasn't very happy with the restrictions the personal trainer placed on my diet ( I like cheese, ok?) and so I don't see myself being able to do their diet long term. I feel embarrassed that the people I started the training with have lost 60 -80 lbs in the last seven months and I'm at square one, having lost twenty, gained thirty, lost ten, gained ten.
I'm ready to look at the sleeve and make a date. But I found my insurance excludes all bariatric surgeries. I'm back and forth over going to Mexico....I think there are good surgeons and centers there.... But I have had blood clots before and am afraid of complications of surgery not being covered by ins. I have considered finding a self pay surgeon in US, with BLIS, but the cost is easily $13 k.
I graduate in a few months and the next job I get may have better coverage of bariatric surgery. But then it will be at least six months of working and getting approved, then having to ask time off....Should I wait and hope for a good insurance policy, and do it a year or so from now, or pray for the best in Mexico and recover before finding my new job? I have recently been diagnosed with lymphedema and have fibromyalgia, a clotting disorder, mild hypertension, fatigue. The pain in my back and legs is bothersome for working long hours. Thanks for your input!