missymaxie

I live in Orange banded on Jan 17 this year and unhappy with it

I have had five fills....and not lost weight but gained...because doctor wasnt sure what size band I had so they had to call the hospital....on the fifth fill..now I go back and get another fill and more money.....

If I say something to him and he gets angry....over fills or does something stupid.....My heart is aching with the desire to lose this weight...I just am at a lost instead of losing I have gained five lbs.....this sets me even into a bigger despression....and when I am depressed I eat lots of sweets....I guess because I feel I have lost a battle...which I will never lose any weight......I hate going to get a fill each time I get sick because I know he is going to be upset with me not losing any weight....after five fills and nothing....I cant seem to figure out why..this is happening to me...before surger I was estactic at the prospect of losing weight and getting off my pills...now I cant even stand to look at myself in a mirror....I am at a lost anymore....my tears of joy are now tears of sorrow...I exercise...I work...I try hard....

first fill was freebie..1.cc second fill 1.2 third fill 1.2 fourth fill 2.cc fifth fill 4.cc that is when he had to find out what size band I had because he didnt know and wasnt on charts...I am not sure what he does......

He had to call the hospital to find out ...he just guesses at the fills...I have a large vanguard...and last fill was 4 cc...but I still can eat anything I want what does this mean???????

I am so depressed and crying because I feel that because of my insurance my doctor is taking advantage of my fills...this could be the reason for all that is going on....he gripes at me in a nice way about not losing weight....its not my fault...In six months I should of lost weight not gained it...I am still eating what I want with 4cc in me....I feel as though I did all this in vain...because I am still fat fat fat.........................................

My Surgery Was In Jan Of This Year Since That Time I Have Not Managed To Lose Weight But Only To Gain....why Because Of My Fills...my First Fill Was 1.2 Cc My Second Was The Same...my Third Was 2.cc And My Fourth Was 4cc The Thing Is The Last Time I Went In My Doctor All Of A Sudden Thinks I Have A Different Size Band...then They Go To The Chart To Find Out What Size Band I Have And No Where In The Chart Does It Say....so They Have To Call The Hospital To Find Out...that I Have A Large Band...now This Really Bothers Me A Lot..shouldnt They At The Beginning No What They Put In You...so They Can Fill Accordingling Instead Of Making Guess's....he Kept Saying Your Not Eating Right...well Its Not My Eating Its The Band...i Was Made To Feel So Guilty And I Feel So Bad Right Now Because At Four I Still Am Eating Anything I Want ....because Of Being Hungry All The Time...i Feel Like I Have Wasted A Lot Of Money For The Last Four Months To Gain Weight Not Lose It....help What Should I Do....please email me at mad_maxie@sbcglobal.net cant seem to get into other email...thanks