holly m1234

Hang in there sunshine.  Right is right and wrong is wrong.  

I'm going to say something here: I think at least some of the Team Illan people are dangerous. There's bullying. And then there's criminal behavior.
You guys are stepping over the line, and you don't seem to know it.

The attacks from @coexist123 (Jessica C. head administrator of team Illan) and @@babygirl1987 (Whitney F.) are really going to the extreme and must stop immediately. We noticed @babygirl123 was posting under her name and keeps coming back under different names. Now she is posting as @babygirl123 and also sent one of our members a threat through IM that she will go after her in personal life. This is the message she sent the unnamed member.........." Things in this online world can very much effect your personal life the same way you are trying to effect omars. You have no idea what I'm capable of....."
I think this has gotten out of hand.....

Ground beef was the one meat I could tolerate besides fish when I first started on solid foods. I buy 96% lean ground beef and make a tiny taco salad (sans the tortilla bowl of course!) with a couple of tablespoons of the seasoned meat, a little bit of refried Beans,a sprinkling of shredded cheese and about half a teaspoon of sour cream. High Protein, good Fiber and yummy.

Seems to have gone well. Made a small burger in brown gravy. It was very moist and easy to eat.
Thanks for all the responses!

I hear you. I'm two months out and feel much better. It has gotten better.

Yes, I have a few worries and anxieties about this surgery, as I am sure we all do. I thought I would make a top ten list of my post op worries and would love it if you would share yours as well, so that I can see I am not in this alone. These worries are listed in no particular order:
1. Losing my hair. I already have very thin hair and color it because I am 80% grey. I have been told to avoid coloring it for a few months afterwards, so first I will go grey then bald??
2. Lovenox injections. We all have to be on blood thinners for a week post op and it seems that Lovenox injections are the most commonly prescribed type. I'm not a fan of needles, but not afraid of them. I do have a moderate Essential Tremor in both hands and am fairly sure I would end up stabbing myself before being able to inject myself. I do have someone who will give me the shots, but the whole idea makes me anxious.
3. Gas. When you have laporscopic surgery they pump your abdominal cavity full of gas so they can see what they are doing. This gas is very painful after waking up from surgery, that and Ashley Page (from this forum) just informed me that we pass stinky gas after surgery..great!
4. Catheter. I have never had a catheter.. that I remember anyways.. what if I get a urinary tract infection from it, I know I will deal with it if it happens, but it will just be on top of everything else.
5. Complications.
6. Lack of support or understanding from family friends and coworkers.
7. Dehydration. What if I can't get in all the liquid they want me too each day?
8. I have had problems with my stomach since I was a teenager, I am 45 now. What happens if I have problems with it post operatively? How do they look into your stomach after it has been separated and sealed away from the pouch in a RYBP?
9. Dumping Syndrome. Now, if this happens at home, it happens at home. Home is a safe environment for strange,painful, embarrassing body function things to happen at so I am not worried about that..but what if it happens in public??
10. Loose Skin. How can I prevent it? Is it preventable?

I don't feel better at all. I haven't eaten in 2 weeks and even then it was just 2 spoons of yogurt. I never feel good or normal. Its hurting my family bc they feel bad that they can't do anything to help me..EXTREME BUYERS REMORSE! If one more person says hang in there I'm gonna scream. Unless they're the ones going through it they have no idea how truly horrible this is. I'm an incest survivor as well as a domestic abuse survivor and this by far is the worse I've ever felt in my life. Id give anything for a "do-over"