HaddocksEyes

it's been forever since I posted but wanted to throw out an update to everyone. My name is Lamonica and I was sleeved on February 5/2014. My highest weight was a year and a half ago when I weighed in at 298 lbs. during the course of a year I was able to drop 20 lbs, starting weight of 278 lbs right before surgery. I am now happy to announce that I am coming up on my 6 month mark and weighing in at 176 lbs. I feel great and I have so much more confidence and energy. I love my sleeve!

Wow - you look great! Congratulations!

Hey guys, I joined this site to tell my story. Ever since I was a little girl I've been overweight. I've always been the "she's fat but has a pretty face" kind of girl. It has always hurt me but I never let it show. I've gotten made fun of but never to the point where I was depressed.

I've always avoided going to the doctors, but one day my mother forced me and insisted that I go. I knew I wasn't going to hear anything nice. Unfortunately I found out that I got high blood pressure in the high 100's and diabetes. Although my diabetes wasn't that bad he told me I should still start eating healthy.

Being from a Hispanic family it's VERY HARD to just stop eating healthy especially when your moms food tastes so amazing!!! He finally insisted that I get weight loss surgery. I've been thinking about it for a long time but didn't know how to go about that. So when he told me that I was so excited!!

He told me about this wonderful surgeon named Dr. Fielding, people actually travel from across the country to get operated by this man! So of course I had to go check him out. After what seemed like the 4 LONGEST months of my life I finally got approved for the vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery! I was on a liquid diet for 2 LOOOONG weeks losing a total of 25 pounds and finally got operated on July 26,2014. Overall my surgery went great I was extremely nervous who wouldn't be!? I've never been put under anesthesia before let alone surgery before! During my recovery they constantly check your vitals and my blood pressure is excellent and my diabetes will also go to! It's only been 2 days since my surgery and my health is already improved! I can just imagine what other great benefits this surgery will bring to me!

Thanks for reading guys! Before and after pics will be posted up soon! Xoxo!

Congratulations! Your post is oozing with happiness!! YAY!!!

My first husband of 23 years was not a d**k to start with, but he turned into one. We got married too young - I was 19, he was 20. As we grew into mature adults, our interests became miles apart. he was not a smoker, but he became a prolific cheater. My church upbringing had trained me to "pray and stay", but when Aids became a serious topic, I could not continue because of risks to my own health. I left with my clothes and my dignity and our daughters (ages 15 and 17). Guess what? He helped us pack. Then he asked me to make him a sandwich before I left. My last words to him were "Make your own damn sandwich!" I filed for divorce (pro se - no lawyer) from another state and got the divorce without any trouble.

My second husband of 10 years was a d**k from the start but he hid it very well. He quickly become controlling and soon we built a new house ten miles out in the country down a gravel road in between the corn and the Beans, 1/4 mile from a paved road. He even isolated me from my family for that time. I believed that because he did not hit me, I should just "pray and stay". But the psychological abuse became worse. The verbal abuse went from privately at home to publicly everywhere we went. I began to think I deserved being treated badly because that is the way that two husbands perceived me. Then it got to where he was throwing things at me and eventually threatened my life - big concern as we had five loaded guns in the house because of his paranoia. I slept with my clothes on, never knowing when I might have to flee. I even thought that maybe I should just walk into the swamp that was on the property lne and drown myself because when he kills me that is where he would ditch my body anyway.

Even though my name was on the mortgage, it was HIS house and HIS furnishings. He was a smoker, too and was not about to quit because of anything I said. With the help of my employer, I left from work early and went to a womens' shelter. They helped me get a professional's perspective and file for divorce and the county paid for it, since it involved life-threatening abuse. The sheriff arranged for me to get my stuff while he was absent from the house. Once again, I left with my clothes and my dignity and my life, and never looked back. I moved 250 miles away.

After that, I took a two year break from relationships to get my head together and decide who I am when no one else is deciding when to eat and where to go and what to watch on TV. I did not know who I was after going from Daddy's good girl, to first hubbys door mat to second hubby's slave (that's a sad story not to be told here - I escaped from a psycho-savage and lived to tell about it),

I went back to college and finished my degree at the age of 54. I reconnected with my daughters and have them and a sister nearby to give me that family closeness that I missed out on for ten years. Eight years ago I met an amazing gentleman who treats me like the queen of the universe. He is a gift and treats me so well. My family includes him in their lives and my grandchildren crawl over him and love him like a grandpa.

He smokes and I don't like it, but he has not asked me to change and I have not asked him to change. We have accepted each other as we are and it makes life so much easier.

Now, I have said all of that to say this: You have to pick your battles. Cheating is a good reason to leave. Abuse is a good reason to live. You have to decide if the smoking itself is the reason you want to leave, or are their other legitimate deal-breakers building up? Have you outgrown each other? Do you argue constantly? You have already said that you guys do not communicate for days. It sounds to me like their is a volcano of hurt and emotion boiling under the surface.

Does he still love you or are you just used to each other? Do you still love him? If not, then you have to quit thinking "I live him, so why does he treat me this way?" and start thinking "Why would I live someone who treats me this way?" When I was at the doctor to have an injury treated, I told him the truth about where my injuries were coming from and he asked me "Then why are you still there?"

So I am asking you to consider this: Chill out and make up until after your surgery. You wouldn't be the first couple to search back and find that common ground that brought you together, then build a compromise you can live with. Maybe he can smoke outside on nice days. Get Hepa filters for your furnace. Get those smoke grabber machines (some are small - hubby #2 and a couple of them that were attached to ash trays, and if he was using that ash tray, he would turn it on) There are smoke killer air fresheners. There are any number of ways to reduce your exposure. I even put a small fan by my side of the bed so that when my dear sweet boyfriend lights up, it will blow the smoke right back to him.

Then when you have your surgery, you will know exactly how he feels about you. Let him take you to the hospital. Will he stay while you are prepared for surgery? Will he hold your hand when the nurse puts in your IV? Will he be in the recovery room when you come to? Will he come to your bedside as often possible to be your voice when you are weak from the anesthetic and stress of surgery?

When you get home will he do the laundry, make Soup for you, go shopping to get things that you need for proper recovery? Will he be sensiitive about what he eats in front of you while you are adjusting to your new tummy boss? (and your tummy WILL be your new boss). Will he pick flowers from the garden (or the flower case at the store) and bring them to your bedside?

By the way he treats you, will know what you need to do when you are strong enough to do it. But, in order for him to properly express how he feels, you need to remove the frustration factor. You have to know where you stand when you are not in his face about the smoking. You have to clear the air, so to speak. So, go back to your wedding day and look for clues that will help you find your balance and then decide if your marriage can be saved or if you have to step out and do your own thing. You can catch more flies with honey than with vinegar. I wish you good health and good luck.

I am so glad for you that you found a happy place. And you are right about comparing smoking to being abused, either verbally or physically. Abuse is far and away a more severe problem to face. I'm so happy that you don't have to deal with it anymore.

He's really a great guy and I need to remember that this is a stressful time for everyone involved and more TLC and understanding than usual should be given and extended to everyone in the family.

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I really appreciate it.

Summary: try sugar not vinegar

Sorry to hear things are so rough between the two of you.

I do not smoke, but as I am on this Board I do have some familiarity with unhealthy habits. Let me throw something out there. I could not be told to lose weight. I knew I had a problem. I knew it was unhealthy. I knew my wife wanted me to lose weight because she loved me and that she wasn't just trying to annoy me. However, "harping" just pissed me off. It was counterproductive. I finally found this path on my own and am appreciative that my wife supports me.

Your husband apologized and you told him he needed a psychiatrist. Maybe he does, but that was not a productive response on your part. You may feel hurt that he gave in to his addiction, but I bet he is also very hurt by your behavior.

A more productive path may be to express concern and offer that, when he is ready, you will help him in whatever way he wants. Now, he may never get there on his own, but pushing and harping on him hasn't worked very well either.

We did finally talk and what it came down to was exactly what you said - he was very hurt by the way I have been acting and was very concerned that it would get worse as time went on and as I lost weight I would become increasingly difficult to live with. I have been making him feel really bad and for that I apologized profusely. I had no idea how I was making him feel because I was so preoccupied with what I was feeling. Not a bad thing but when you don't consider others too, not so good.

Thank you for taking the time to post a response - you were right!

I'm young and have been married for less than two years, but here it goes...

My husband and I met online 13 years ago (I was 13 years old), we've been together for almost 8 years now, and half of that time was long-distance. We've been through a lot. There were years of what we now call "the dark time". Various forms of betrayal, and I know that pain well. We both have had to overcome demons. His neglect growing up and subsequent low self-esteem led to lying. He lied and hid just about anything that could upset or disappoint me. This included his off and on smoking habit. For all the lies I'd either play detective to find the truth or he'd admit to it long after the fact. The betrayal would tear me to pieces, so much more out of proportion than the actual offense would have. It was a self-perpetuating cycle. The more upset I'd get, the more he'd feel he needed to hide unhappy truths, and the more he lied, the more damaged and scarred I became.

Anyway... Counselling counselling counselling. That's the only way we've recovered. We have a better understanding of our own and each others weaknesses. I know he'll lie again under stress, and we're both better prepared to overcome that.

Also, I've read this book like 8 times. http://www.shaunti.com/book/for-women-only-2/

There's a For Men Only too.. I gave a copy to my husband as a gift with my own notes and scratched out parts that didn't hold true to me personally.

P.S. He uses a vaporizer now with the rare cigarette.

Thank you so much for sharing. You may be young, but you are wise. I really appreciate the suggestions and I did look up the link you sent - I am going to order her book. Thank you again!

Obviously, can't know everything from a single post, but I think finding a way to build a good life (and that is a continous process for married people) together is far better than starting over by divorcing. It's a rough world out there for single people - well at least were I live where women outnumber men by a great deal. Anyway, I personally would not have been angry about someone smoking because we all have our own "crosses to bear". I don't like smoking but i recognize that I am terribly flawed myself and that asking for perfection from somebody else is not realistic. I completely agree with the idea that the only person you can change is yourself...

Since I am single and hoping to find someone for a relationship, I would not rule out a smoker (as long as they were very good in their habits) as I dated a smoker who hid it so well I had been seeing him a few months before I even found out. So, it didn't really bother me since his hygene was so perfect. I personally would rule out an unfit/over eater person because i am working so hard to maintain a massive weight loss and I don't want to be around excess food and sedentary lifestyle influence. I wouldn't divorce someone over it, but it is a showstopper for me as I seek a relationship.

Smoking is a huge health issue but so is obesity. My 40 year old, non smoking but very obese niece passed just this week from "natural causes" attributable to her super morbid obesity status.

Thank you so much for the reply - everything you said is so true.

Miss Fisheyes,

You were venting here, and that's your right. Good to get it off your chest.

But if you're open to some advice, here's mine: You're in the middle of a lot of things right now. You need the backup and support of a counselor / psychologist / psychiatrist to start processing all this stuff. And it needs to be processed. It doesn't need to be ACTED ON IMMEDIATELY just because you've got big feelings roiling around...... I will nit-pick with only one thing you said: "I am wondering if he will want a divorce and if I will have to move out of the house." Maybe the "acreage" is a family farm he inherited. But if it's not, chances are if he's the one who wants a divorce, please know that you are not AUTOMATICALLY elected as the one who has to find new digs.

In other words, my dear, if you're thinking like this you're not thinking clearly. That's why it's not a good time to be making big decisions.

There are feelings. And then there are decisions. That's what counsel (of all kinds) is good for -- helping you process all your options.

Very, very best wishes for you.

I'm not sure I want to live out there anymore. I'm tired of the constant work to keep it up and the money it costs to keep it up at just a minimum level.

My favorite professor told our sociology class: "Let me save you $10,000 in therapy. The only person you can change is you." Sounds like there is more to this than the smoking issue.

After I read your post I thought a bit about what you said. Yes, there is a lot more going on here than I can really share in good conscience because they are too private and sharing them would be a betrayal to him, even in a forum that is relatively anonymous. There's no drug use, cheating, he doesn't drink or beat me or anything like that. I just had the revelation that having this surgery is opening up a whole can of worms for me. It's bringing to the surface things I have suppressed over the past 20 years, things I didn't want to deal with or think about that I pushed to the subconscious level. And I think that is what is happening to him too. And it's not very pretty.

I quit smoking 18 years ago and my wife still has not. I have tried everything from guilt have our Doctor get on her case and getting mad. So have our adult children. My employeer also offer many quit smoking programs at no cost. Todate nothing has worked. Like you I was or should I say still addicted to food , but have gotten sleeved and like when I quit smoking am getting very stuborn taking this seriuosly and will get to my goal weight and stay there. One thing I have learned over the years is your cant change other people. They have to want to change. Its a battle you cant win. One of the interesting statistics is that you have an 85% chance of getting divorsed after you lose the weight. Thats one way to avoid the spouses smoking.

It's very nice to have a male ex-smoker's opinion. Thank you very much for chiming in. I am so sorry that she continues to smoke - I hope she quits sometime in the future. Best of luck to you too in every challenge you face.

I think this is a tough situation. The fact is that you can't control his life to that degree. It's not fair and it doesn't work anyway.

You have to accept him being a smoker until he is ready to quit. That's really it. You don't have to like it, and you have made him aware of your feelings on the matter.

Unless this is just a symptom of something else wrong with the relationship, I think you need to apologize to him and move on. I also wonder how you would feel if he "went off" on you about your eating in a similar manner. Probably not good.

I am married to a smoker too (I am a former smoker) and it's hard to watch but when you love someone you love the whole person as they are, for who they are and not how you would want them to be. I am sure you know this.

Is there any chance that this is really about something between you two other than smoking?

You are totally right - I have to either accept it or move on. I can't force him to do what he really doesn't want to do.

And if he had treated me like this before I was ready to make the decision to take control of my weight, yeah, it would not have gone well. I would have been angry at him for trying to tell me what to do and sad that maybe he doesn't find me attractive anymore.

I am so sorry you are going through this. I can relate, as my partner smokes too, and when he gets into bed just after smoking, I have to tell/ask him to please wash his hands and brush his teeth. I feel guilty about asking him, but more than that I feel entitled to not want to snuggle with someone who smells bad to me.

Do you want a divorce if he continues to smoke? I know you're worried about what he might do, but I'm wondering what you really want. Is this a dealbreaker for you, or does your relationship have enough good things to outweigh this? None of us are perfect, we all have our flaws. The kicker is whether we can accept the other's flaws or not.

If you don't want a divorce... if it was me, I would apologize for letting things getting so out of hand, and try to work together towards a solution. Counseling? More defined guidelines about where and when you can tolerate his smoking?

Wouldn't it be great if there WERE a surgery for helping them to stop smoking? I have decided that my relationship is worth accepting his smoking. You have to make that decision for yourself, and then reopen the lines of communication with him. The longer you don't speak to each other, the worse it gets, in my opinion. You will feel better clearing this stressor off your chest as you prepare for your own life-changing event.

Congratulations on doing what you need to do to take care of you! And good luck working things out.

I have been feeling like I can't stand his habit anymore to the point that I can't live with him anymore if he doesn't quit. I just have to live apart from him so I don't have to be around what he is doing to himself. Not necessarily a divorce, but just be separated. I know I can't be any fun to be with, so to me, moving out solves that part of the issue, but then causes others in its wake.

In the very beginning, I told him I couldn't marry him unless he stopped smoking so he made the decision that he wanted to be married more than he wanted to smoke, so he quit. He has promised me over and over again within the past 6 months that he will quit...maybe I bullied him into doing that and he feels resentful.

I have not been talking to my husband for five days now and he refuses to talk to me too.

It started over his smoking, which I just cannot stand anymore. He smoked before and while we were dating but quit before we were married but then started again about 3 years into the marriage. I let it go because I loved him and because we had a small child. I had nowhere to go and couldn't support myself and I don't believe in divorce. Over the past 17 years things got better and I obtained two degrees and we had another child. Now, my children are both teenagers and one is getting ready to head to college. I work full time now and make a pretty decent salary.

I've felt over the past couple of years that something needed to change and I became increasingly unhappy with myself, both personally and professionally. Health-wise, I've been testing as a borderline diabetic for years now. I've been in denial about that part, thinking the test was just a fluke and so on. When my knee went out last year, so much so I needed surgery, I knew that I had to do something. The doctor told me if I do not lose weight, I am looking at knee replacement surgery sooner rather than later and that the other knee will eventually suffer the same fate. I had been looking into weight loss surgery prior to the knee surgery, but never thought it was really for me. There's the denial again.

I realize that the surgery will change everything. I've expressed to him that I know things will change, but they have to because I can't go on like this anymore. I've told him that he has to change too because how we live our life together has caused both of us to be unhealthy. I've really been harping on the smoking because I don't want to see him die from cancer, stroke or have lung disease. He's about 70 pounds overweight too, so that adds to the issue. I've banned him from smoking anywhere where I can see him and I told him I don't want to smell it or know about it. I did this because it was the only way I could think of to deal with the fact that he continues to smoke and probably will never quit. He got mad at me because he feels like he should be able to do what he wants on his own property. We live on acreage so there are places he can go where I can't see him.

The other night he got into bed and smelled like smoke. It made me so mad because how dare he come into our bed right after he finished smoking. It hurt me so much that he would do that too - it was a big slap in the face to me. I said some things to him that weren't nice. I called him a d**k, and I almost never swear or call names because it's very hurtful to the other person, but I was so mad and hurt it just came out. He tried to apologize to me via email the next day, but when I wrote back that he needed help from a psychologist or psychiatrist trained to help people with addictions in conjunction with a smoking cessation program (with a support group!) and he hasn't been talking to me since and I haven't been talking to him unless I have to. I'm not talking to him because what is there to say that I have not already said so many times? It just seems like a huge waste of time to me to try and hash this out because it is clear to me he doesn't want to quit and believe me, I know I can't make him quit. The times we have talked he looks at me like he can't stand me - this angry glare with contempt mixed in.

Yes, I get it that I have an addiction too. The irony of that is not lost on me. But what I can't stop thinking about is that I am trying to get rid of my addiction..I am actively doing something to quit. I keep thinking that he will never quit and I will have to watch him die while I get healthier. It's so scary. He's tried the pharmaceutical route and none of the pills they normally prescribe are helping him. He's tried the patch and the gum and even e-cigarettes to try and wean off the regular one and those things haven't worked either. I wish there was a surgery for him too that would be the tool he can finally use to quit.

He's not a person to air things and be up front about stuff in a relationship, but I am. You know what I am thinking and I am honest. He's more the passive-aggressive type. But when he really wants something, he will put his foot down and when he does, I know he is serious and I give in. He's really mad right now. I've never seen him act like this before.

I don't know what is going on. I don't know if this is stemming from the fact that I am having surgery and he is scared about it. I don't know if he just is finally done with me and I just now forced him to realize it.

I can say these things here that I could never tell anyone in the "real world" because I tend not to share things with people - I'm the one always trying to lift others up with positive comments and support. I feel so down and terrible - I have bad thoughts running through my head right now and they all say that what is happening is exactly what I deserve. That I should have never said anything and that I have no right to tell him to quit because it has to be his decision. Everything I was so sure about is in doubt.

I am wondering if he will want a divorce and if I will have to move out of the house. I just don't know up from down. He was supposed to take me to the surgery and then take me home again. Now I am not so sure.

I am just wondering how many of you have gone through something similar and what happened? How did you resolve the issues between you and your significant other? Why did something similar happen to you and was there anything you could have done differently to make it better or to stop it from happening? Not having the surgery is not an option, I do know that.

Thank you in advance.

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All I can say is wow - you look really good. I can tell you have spent some quality time in the gym. Congratulations!

Before pic was me at my highest weight 241. The after is not the most recent I have but it's close lol I haven't taken any recent pics. I believe I'm in the 194 range in the photo. But today I am officially down to 181. That's 35 gone since surgery and 50 total!!!!!

Awesome weight loss!. Off topic - you have gorgeous hair.

I have always had very thick hair and have been SHOCKED at how much hair I have lost, and it doesn't seem to be slowing down which worries me even more. I bought some hair extensions (luxy) which have been helpful but if I keep losing at this rate I will not be able to use them and will need a wig, as well. I have been really surprised by how dramatic this had been. I also take my Vitamins religiously and eat 75-80 grams of Protein a day. Hope it will slow down soon and the regrowth will start!!!!!!!

My doctor and nutritionist said the hair will grow back. Hope they are right! I may be in the same boat with you-all. Bright side - maybe this will be the time to get a wig and try being blonde! LOL!

Ladies --

I wanted to share a cool solution that someone shared with me for clothes in the meantime, while you are losing weight and nothing fits...It's called Gywnnie Bee. It is like Netflix for clothes. You decide how many pieces of clothing you want at one time. It is $80 a month to have 3 items at a time. You can pick anywhere from 1-8 items at a time. They have sizes from 10-30. You go on their website and fill up your virtual closet and then they ship you your items. They send you return bags to ship back the items. I got my first shipment on Monday. 2 of the items didn't look great, so I sent them back immediately. One of the items, I wore yesterday and got lots of compliments. I already have 2 new dresses on the way.

They have a lot of dresses. I am a consultant and meet with clients often, so I need to look as professional as possible. I was feeling frumpy in my clothes that are getting too big. I know, what a great problem to have! I don't want to buy a new wardrobe in every size. And I wasn't finding lots of cute stuff at the thrift store. So even those this is costing me $80 a month, I think that this is a good solution for me. Plus, I feel pretty and confident wearing clothes that show off my new body

Hopefully some of you find this helpful. Here is the link below to their website. Good luck to all!

Gretchen

http://goo.gl/0bo7mW

An attorney friend of mine uses this site and she always looks great!! I love the outfits she wears and they always look brand new. This is such a good suggestion - I didn't even think of it until i saw your post and went "oh, yeah..that's right!"

I was planning to do the thrift store thing, but it is hard to find nice stuff when you NEED to find them. Always when you just pop in to see what they have is when you get lucky.

Oh, she said you can also purchase an item if you really like it at a reduced price.

Surgery went fine and im at home. My main problem post op is gas. Pain is managed and im able to move around fine.

That's great to hear. Hope you continue to heal and improve.

So I got a date - August 18. If I can get my hemoglobin levels where they need to be, this will be the day. I'm close, but not close enough. If not, we will have to postpone. And that is fine by me because I want to be as healthy as I can be going in.

Not feeling much of anything right now. I can guarantee you that as I get closer, that will change. I will start to get scared, I am sure.

Just thought I would share.

Thanks!

For what it's worth... If you have symptoms that have prompted a referral for a colonoscopy I really hope you find a way to overcome your fears and have it done.

Last year, my 27 year old husband with no family history of bowel cancer was diagnosed Stage 3 after being misdiagnosed as gluten intolerant 2 years prior. We had moved to a new city and we thought the pain he was feeling was just a stomach ulcer. Thank goodness our new GP had enough sense to investigate this, Lord knows I would not have my beautiful man today had he not. After having two thirds of his bowel removed and six long months of chemo, he is now in remission.

If I've learned anything from this... Nothing a doctor could do to you will hurt more than the pain the people you love will feel if you are not around because you didn't take care of your health! This is why I have decided to get sleeved... I want to grow old with my husband.

All the best for your surgery. I hope it all goes well

Your profile pic is hilarious!!! Thank you for the kind words and even though I don't know you, I am so happy for you that he is in remission.

For everyone that asked, I do not have any symptoms at all - no issues whatsoever other than occasional heartburn-I've pretty much got a "cast iron" digestive system. Colon cancer (or any cancer for that matter) is almost non-existant on both sides of the family. Still, I know I can get cancer anyway - might be the first one, who knows?

However, I think overall this has been a good thing because my freak out over this has pointed to a deeper issue that I must resolve because I will eventually need to submit to the test as a regular part of my physical check up sooner rather than later.

Update: I have the nicest and coolest doctor in the world - gosh I feel so lucky right now that he "gets" me. We will be moving forward.

And I know that I need a little more help in the head shrink department to deal with the issue I have so that I can be healthy in the years to come.

For those of you struggling with similar circumstances, you're not alone.

Ok, folks. For those of you reluctant to follow through with a FOBT or colonoscopy, try having a fecal transplant! That's right, I had to have someone else's s*** t injected into my ileum and cecum in order to get rid of a bad Clostridial infection. It was done via colonoscopy and the worst part, by far, was the prep. Worst tasting stuff ever and not fun trying to chug a gallon of Water in an hour only 3 months postop. But the transplant worked like a charm...no more diarrhea. And now me my doctor's wife and I are BFF's (best feces friends).

Oh, and as for the OB/Gyn thing, gotta say I never had a finger in my butt for that. I have abnormal Paps so I get them 2-3 times/year, along with LEEPS and biopsies. 3 different docs, no finger

I saw your post elsewhere. I am SO glad for you that it worked!

@@beachgurl84 Nope! No need for me to get a different doctor. That's actually a standard procedure done with a Pap smear, unless you're really young (teens, early 20s). If your practitioner is not performing a FOBT at your Pap appointment, you aren't getting a complete physical exam, and perhaps YOU may want to find a different doctor.

@@HaddocksEyes, your explanation is very heart felt and I totally get it. Wishing you nothing but the best in whatever journey you end up taking.

So sad now to know I have to go find a doctor that will stick their finger in my butt. Sorry @@BitterSweet*, I was really hoping it was the other way around.

LOL!!

I empathize with you. But what have you decided to do about your surgery? have you decided not to continue with the process?

I think something you may or may not have not thought of is that people have traumatic experiences in their lives which makes them reluctant or unable to go through certain things. It's not just about "womaning-up", it's about dealing with the psychological affect of going through a procedure that makes you feel vunerable and not in control of your own body. For some, that is incomprehensible.

I'm with Lipstick Lady on this one.

So what?

It could save your life.

Woman-up, Sista. There are worse things in life than having to smear a bit of poop on a piece of cardboard, a finger or camera tube, close to the dimensions of a Ford F-150XLT shoved up your jaxsie if it saves your life.

If it's required, it is the gateway to you getting your surgery. No brainer as far as I'm concerned.

Other women may take issue with the requirement that you get a pelvic exam because that is traumatic to them. I know of a woman in her 20's that flatly refused to have this done and the doctor let it go because at her age, the liklihood of cancer is low.

Obesity is such a complex condition, and we all know that the mental part of it plays such a huge part of why we are obese. This is part of that mental condition. Rationally, we know that there are things we need to do in order to be healthy. Emotionally, we derail the rational part. And as I said, the rational part of me battles with the emotional side of me. Unfortunately, the emotional side of me has won far too many times than the rational when it has come to my weight loss struggle.

So, I appreciate the responses but at the end of the day, this is a complex issue that I will have to continue to deal with and eventually overcome if i want to ensure good health. Many of us are in the same boat with the whole emotional vs. rational struggle (of any type or situation), which is why I posted what I did.

The doctor is deciding whether or not to go forward without it. Thank you so much for asking!

Ok I see, you drink them completely flat.

Are you allowed a straw and gum. My plan says nerer to gum and straws, and eventually flat SF soda. Forget the soda, I can live without that. But more, much more than I miss bread and sugar, I really miss my straws and gum. :-(

We're not allowed to use a straw right after surgery but heck, I can't remember whether or not we can use one after the stomach is completely healed. Not sure about gum either but I would think that would be prohibited as well because that too can put extra gas in your stomach.

Thanks for asking - now I am curious. I will ask the nurse or nutritionist next time I see them.

I had my first colonoscopy 4 months ago. Found some blood in my stool and I stopped having solid stools. Just soft. The week I was to have it done I was feeling better and almost canceled. I'm glad I did not. I had 39 polyps. Doc said I was about 2 years away from some serious crap! I'm only 37. I thought I had an ulcer. And now I am on the 6 month cycle. Two good things came of this. I feel better plus I met my out of pocket max for the year and if I can get bariatric surgery done before jan 1 it's free!

Wow, 39 polyps - I take it that none of them were cancerous? You have a good point that you found this out early and that you will have regular screenings for them. I think the age they start ordering colonoscopies as part of a checkup is mid to late 50's? Had you of waited, who knows what would have happened.

I hope the surgery ends up being free for you. Good luck!