mickeylumbo

I am in my pre-op liquid diet (surgery 4/11)... last week I dined with friends at Steakhouse 55 at the Disneyland Hotel. I asked if I could speak to the Chef. He came to me three times during the evening and was very discreet and accommodating. He was willing to help in any way and served me a wonderful chicken stock Soup, a small salad with the exact ingredients that I had requested, and rounded out the meal with a lovely raspberry yogurt. All served with class and discretion. You can partner with the manager and/or chef at any of the Resort restaurants and they will do thier best to accommodate your dietary needs. I love Disney. Full disclosure I am a Cast Member... but Chef did not know that. The service he provided would have been excellent for anyone. So impressed. Have a great time.

I used to be able to track every molecule that crossed my lips. Ok maybe not "every" but I know you get my drift. I'd take out my little Moleskine notebook and look through it and make notes and stroke my own ego and basically just love on it. I could do it SO easily, didn't eat anything til I'd written down the calories, gFat, gCarb, gFiber in parenthesis, gProtein, and had run the updated tally for the day so far. If I came in under my goals I had different color stickers I would award myself, and of course my goal was to get one of each color every day.... (Extra blue stickers for Water I drank too!!)
And then I got a different job where I didn't have so much spare brain-power. I did PRETTY well but I'd sometimes have a sticky note and tally at the end of the day.
Then I went back to school. And had NO spare brain cells. And ENJOYED THAT MORE.
And then.... The real blow.... I got pregnant. My baby, already a budding zombie, ATE MY BRAIN. And then I gave birth, and nursed her, and began parenting by the school of "don't sweat the small stuff".
Calories? Who the f* knows. Grams of things? Crap. Things have grams? Huh. What's a calorie again? I cannot possibly think about these things because my boobs are leaking calories DIRECTLY OUT OF MY BODY.
Hand over the f*cking cherry pie and nobody gets hurt.
Well for pregnancy and now 18 months of breastfeeding, I couldn't take Adderall. And I lost every desire to micromanage my nutrition. It's one reason I wanted surgery - there is a level of thought I don't have to put into it.
Asking my doc tomorrow to start back on adderall (very low dose).... But I can barely keep an eye on Protein and water.... I just try to keep my carbs equal to my Protein and let fat take care of itself.

How are you sleeping? I have severe insomnia now and cant keep my mind off of going to the hospital.

Oh thank you so much for your reply. Im lying here in bed trying to read each and every post as if its the last taco on earth. I cant sleep. So knowing there are others out there, right now, that understand makes all the difference.

I am in my pre-op liquid diet (surgery 4/11)... last week I dined with friends at Steakhouse 55 at the Disneyland Hotel. I asked if I could speak to the Chef. He came to me three times during the evening and was very discreet and accommodating. He was willing to help in any way and served me a wonderful chicken stock Soup, a small salad with the exact ingredients that I had requested, and rounded out the meal with a lovely raspberry yogurt. All served with class and discretion. You can partner with the manager and/or chef at any of the Resort restaurants and they will do thier best to accommodate your dietary needs. I love Disney. Full disclosure I am a Cast Member... but Chef did not know that. The service he provided would have been excellent for anyone. So impressed. Have a great time.

I am in my pre-op liquid diet (surgery 4/11)... last week I dined with friends at Steakhouse 55 at the Disneyland Hotel. I asked if I could speak to the Chef. He came to me three times during the evening and was very discreet and accommodating. He was willing to help in any way and served me a wonderful chicken stock Soup, a small salad with the exact ingredients that I had requested, and rounded out the meal with a lovely raspberry yogurt. All served with class and discretion. You can partner with the manager and/or chef at any of the Resort restaurants and they will do thier best to accommodate your dietary needs. I love Disney. Full disclosure I am a Cast Member... but Chef did not know that. The service he provided would have been excellent for anyone. So impressed. Have a great time.

My date is 4/8 and I can't wait, I tossed all of my clothes this weekend because I close on my new house 3/21 and why bother lugging all the big clothes when I will only have to do it again, I kept tee shirts, long sleeve tees and leggings and exercise shorts and 2 pairs of stretch denim.... Yup, I don't plan on needing them EVER again!

This app is new to me and I am very confused on how to post, reply or direct message. I will try my best to lesrn cuz I think I will need it over the next fee dsys before my surgery. I had no idea that this many people are having this procedure done-- all over the country.

I dont know how to "in box"

I still haven't slept since my original post several hours ago...its been like this for several nights now.
So I got busy and did chores in the middle of the night. I did laundry, cleaned out a closet, and did the dishes. I thought it would keep my mind off food but it didnt. I ate some mixed veggies and diced potatoes. I feel guilty about it. But I also tried to practice eating slowly. I saw on another threaf about an app called "eating slowly" ... I think it will be a useful tool.
Thanks for the support. Is this the same place I post my updates or should I go to a different forum?

Im on the same boat. Mine is April 10th and last night I couldn't sleep thinking. And I know if it wasn't for the pre-op diet I would be eating like crazy. We will be fine. Keep us updated. Good luck.

It means you are PERFECTLY NORMAL!! I am having the same issues, i have my surgery on April 9

I hear ya! Its 5:14am on my side of town lol
This app is awesome, very helpful and everyone is great!

Hi Mickey, welcome!
Trust me we all have mixed emotions with the best decision we have ever made by doing wls.
Nervous
Excited
Anxious
Afraid
Doubts
Happy
Just to name a few lol
Its only normal to have all these feelings. You are making the right decision for a healthier new YOU!
I wish you the best with your wls journey!

Good luck, I'm going through all those too, everyone does.

Hi Mickey and welcome to the site. We all understand all those feelings and emotions you are going through right now. We did the same thing. I can't speak for all the surgical groups but mine and those of my friends were all wonderful. These surgical groups specialize in the WLS and they understand what the patients are going through so they make the experience as stress free and as calming as they can make it. They can give you something that morning to calm your nerves if you need it but to tell you the truth, the process moves along so quickly there isn't too much time to let the nerves get to you. The pre-op stuff is pretty smooth and once they put in that IV, your start to relax and you're asleep before you know it. It really relaxed me. I was out before I even made it to the operating room. The nursing staff will take excellent care of you and you will be fine. I won't lie, the first 2 weeks post surgery are the pits but its only 2 weeks and we can all deal with that. I'm less than 2 months post surgery but I'm doing great, losing weight, feeling good, exercising, and loving life. You will do great and then think back and wonder why you stressed so much over this. I wish you happiness, healthiness and lots of weight loss. You are a welcome addition to our community where we don't judge, we just offer support and love. I'll be thinking about you on Friday.

First post -took me an hour to get here (lol)
So I have truly been excited about my upcoming surgery (6 days away April 11). It was a long time coming, but suddenly everything fell into place and the countdown is spinning fast. I put on a brave face for everyone and stay posive... especially around anyone that would love to sabotage my decision. However, I'm, I guess anxious. ..maybe a bit afraid. Not sure if its about the few hours before surgery that im scared of (fear of fear...if thats possible) or a fear of all of the life changes ahead. Like eating slowly. Hah! Ive never done that becore. Anyhow... im hoping that this app will help me through this

Hi Chad- thank you for posting and sharing your story. I want you to know that you have inspired me so much. I think your honesty is courageous. I think that in many cases our loved ones are so fearful (of change) that they consciously or unconsciously try to sabotage our efforts to take control of managing our own health. Your boyfriends threat of leaving you made my blood boil, but he was likely striking out from fear. That being said - you deserve love, happiness and good health. If he stands in the way of that, you should re-evaluate your relationship and what your needs are not only now, but also in the future. I wish you all the best in your journey, both in life and in love! Keep posting. OH!! I almost forgot... my surgery is in 6 days so I will be on this blog alot... im a little nervous. Take care ~ Scott

Oh thank you so much for your reply. Im lying here in bed trying to read each and every post as if its the last taco on earth. I cant sleep. So knowing there are others out there, right now, that understand makes all the difference.

Your boyfriend doesn't sound very mature. I would think he would learn what It's all about then chime in. That's also controlling as someone previously stated. You have to make your own life decisions. My boyfriend doesn't care for the idea, but he is supportive of my decision. Yesterday I told him I'd lost 16lbs since working with the nut and this (awful) liquid diet. He said well you don't need surgery. I said are you saying I should have liquids the rest of my life? So, no, he's not happy about it, but my mind is made up. I have to live in this body. Me! Perhaps your boyfriend IS Mr. right now. It makes me wonder how supportive he'd be of any other choices you make. Do you think if you were married he'd have said the same thing? FLAGS, girlfriend! Watch for the flags.

oh my. Chad honey, you have been given some awesome advice from the posters above. I share the same sentiments as they so I won't repeat. You deserve a healthier and happier life and with the support of your friends and family you will be successful. If your boyfriend can't get on board with your decision, he isn't the right one for you. Don't settle on a partner and don't settle on an unhealthy life style....because you don't have to!! Surgery is available for you at 100% cost free, why would you let anybody deny that to you? PdxMan has the perfect script for you to use. I wish you luck. Hugs!!

Okay, I am going to be blunt. (Primarily because I feel angry on your behalf)
Is he Mr Right? Or Mr. Right now?
Its YOUR life, your body, your health.
Anyone who truly loved you, wouldn't make threats. They'd listen, they'd read about things themselves, they would try to see it from both sides. Even if at the end of it, they weren't comfortable. If they'd made efforts to be fully informed, discussed the risks/rewards/statistics and THEN said they weren't happy - I could kinda empathise with that.
However, anyone who makes threats, directly or indirectly, is a d-ick. Fact. I know you may love him and this may indeed come a place of insecurity, worry and love. But who loves someone then threatens to leave them - because of a surgery?!
Scrap the should I, shouldn't I element in all this.
I'd be focussing on how your partner threatened to leave you. That, is a very telling and negative thing indeed....