moi1234

Thank you all so much!
I have just been feeling so defeated!
I have been using the myfitnesspal app since last May.
I started seeing a psychiatrist last May as well, not because of my weight issues, but because my father passed away.
I do have a very stressful life....I have 5 kids, 3 dogs and I have been taking care of my husband’s ex-wife’s newborn baby part time to help her out.
My stepdaughter who lives with us full time is 8 years old and she is autistic....so that’s a challenge in itself.
I also work full time. I just need to find some "ME" time and get myself back into the swing of things.
I go to the doctor tomorrow about my blood pressure. Today it is 165/115! Its been like this all week. But its probably due to the stress and anxiety. I just need to BREATHE!!!!!!!
Thank you for your encouraging comments!

Welcome to the forum Michele. This is a special place with a lot of special people.
When I read "I'm so lost and afraid" it brought to mind a quote that I've fallen back on for more years than I can count. It has taken me through, and out of, some tough situations. And I have experienced the truth of it many, many times. That's saying a lot for three little words.
Action quells fear. So the message is do something. And do it now. Don't spend too much time stressing over doing exactly the right something - you can always make adjustments and even changes later. The very act of doing something, taking a step in the right direction, is empowering. It gives you hope. It opens your mind to discovering new possibilities. Perhaps most importantly, it calms your fears.
My suggestion is that you reconsider your surgeon's recommendation. Start maintaining a food log. I highly recommend My Fitness Pal. Yes, it is easier said than done. Logging can be tedious. And it can be frustrating. Consider the flip side.
After your surgery, logging is the most powerful tool you can have in your arsenal for taking control. Logging can "break the downward spiral". Logging can renew the spirit you had when you lost 155 lbs. The spirit you still have or you wouldn't be seeking help. Logging can boost your confidence like nothing else I know of. Logging reinforces your success and your commitment every day with every entry. Logging can calm your fears. You'll never again "think" you did well today - you'll know. Logging makes you accountable to the most important person - you. It's quick, it's easy, it doesn't cost a dime and if you commit to it for 90 days, you'll be amazed at the results.
If you're interested, if you're ready to take action and quell the fear, PM me and I'll be more than happy to share some ideas with you. I've logged every bite for more than two years and I'm confident I can give you some great suggestions on how to get started and how to realize the almost unlimited potential logging offers.
You're gonna love the new you!!

Michele, your post made me so sad, you seem to be kicked down every time you got up. I really, really hope you get a referral for a therapist. So much of this is out of your control and I know how hard that is. I've just started my journey, my surgery was 2-4 and I'm 64 so I already have issues that I'm dealing with that get me very frustrated. Please know that everyone is pulling for you and hope you can find the help and strength you need to get back on track. Sally

As far as exercise.. What about a bike where you can just strap your foot onto the pedal and let your other leg do the moving.
you can try doing more upper body exercise or asking a PT about what you can do for the rest of your body. maybe even try googling for "exercise for single leg amputees" until you get some strength back in your foot.
Don't loose hope. start from the beginning with your diet. we are all here for you. and
DROP THE DIET SODA.. that stuff will kill ya,

I am so sorry for all the issues you are having to deal with. You've taken a great first step by letting it out and talking about it. It's good news that your pouch hasn't stretched. My suggestion would be to address the depression with your doctor. Water aerobics may be a good exercise and less impact to your injuries. I will be sending prayers for you.