moi1234

Thank you all so much! I have just been feeling so defeated! I have been using the myfitnesspal app since last May. I started seeing a psychiatrist last May as well, not because of my weight issues, but because my father passed away. I do have a very stressful life....I have 5 kids, 3 dogs and I have been taking care of my husband’s ex-wife’s newborn baby part time to help her out. My stepdaughter who lives with us full time is 8 years old and she is autistic....so that’s a challenge in itself. I also work full time. I just need to find some "ME" time and get myself back into the swing of things. I go to the doctor tomorrow about my blood pressure. Today it is 165/115! Its been like this all week. But its probably due to the stress and anxiety. I just need to BREATHE!!!!!!! Thank you for your encouraging comments!

This year is my 10 year anniversary from when I had my RNY. I originally lost 155 lbs and had not felt better in my life! I was addicted to running and working out...which isnt a bad addiction! 18 months after my RNY, I had my Gallbladder removed. 5 years into my weight loss I slipped my SI joint and there began a serious of complications with my lower back! I started a serious of steriod injections in 2009, and began to gain weight. Not too much weight, becuase I was still working out despite doctors orders. Then in 2012, I lost feeling in my left leg and had to have emergency back surgery. I ended up with drop foot and a discectomy in my L4, L5 and S1 joints. After that I felt pretty ok, except i had to learn how to walk normally again. A few months after my back surgery, I ended up in the ER with pain in my stomach and violently throwing up. Again, I had emergency surgery....a obstruction in my intestions. When they went in there, they found my intestines were twisted. I woke up 5 hours after surgery to find out that they couldnt do the surgery laprosopically, and they cut me right open and it was more serious than they thought. So after recovering from that, and all the steriods I have been on over the past few years, I had now gained 50-60 lbs back. Last summer I had to return to a pain specialist for my back, and they discovered they my back pain is now coming from the scar tissue from my back surgery. So here we go again....more steriod injections. Over the past few months, I have learned that I have developed sleep apnea, and now high blood pressure! These 2 things I have NEVER had before in my life! As of today, I have gained 90 lbs of my weight back! Im so overwhelmed. I still cant work out like i used to, because of my drop foot, and I am limited in my activities. I have started drinking diet sodas again...although i still drink my required Water throughout the day. But I just cant seem to break this cycle, and stop the downward spiral! I feel so hopeless, my spirit is broken, I feel lost and afraid! This is affecting my health, my marriage and my quality of life! I see my gastric bypass doctor for my monthly B12 shots, and all they tell me is, keep track of your eating and cut back. YES YES...I KNOW!!!! Easier said than done....especially when you are not depressed! Ive tried the 5 day pouch test, and my doctor has done a upper GI to see if my pouch has stretched and it hasnt. I would love feedback! I just dont know what to do anymore!

WOW! i thought i was reading my own story! mine is very similar to yours. Except, i was 305 lbs in 2004 and lost 156 lbs. Was all the way down to 149 lbs and loving my life, my new body, then hurt myself running, and was told to stop running and do other cardio exercises. well, i didn't stop, and that caused major back problems which lead to emergency back surgery, and partial paralysis of my right foot. Now, I weight 235 lbs, and my weight continues to climb. Mostly due to steroid shots, and not being able to exercise. I have become very depressed, and i have realized that i use eating as my escape, and i eat everything and anything that is bad for me! Im at a loss and feel completely out of control. I went from taking no pills at all with all my medical problems going away, to now more medical issues than before, including sleep apnea, insomnia, osteoporosis, diabetes, all which I NEVER had before, and i have now! Very discouraging. Im sorry you are going thru what you are going thru. Im not the best person to give advice, but I wanted you to know that you are not alone and Im here for support! Hang in there!

I would love to hear your story too! I had my RNY December 2004. I was very successful up until 2 years ago. I originally lost 155 lbs, and I have now gained 86 lbs back to date. The last 2 years I have had major back problems. From all the running and exercising I did over the years, i developed degenerative disc and arthritis in my lower back. I had to have emergency back surgery last year due to the disc pressing on a nerve that caused me to have permanent nerve damage and now i have drop foot, and can no longer and will never be able to run again. With all the steroids I was on, the weight just started coming back on! Then last year around this time, i went to the ER because my stomach was so swollen and i couldn’t stop throwing up. I was faced with emergency surgery yet again, for an obstruction. One and a half hour surgery ended up taking 4 1/2 hours. When they went in, they found my intestines were twisted, and after they untwisted them they found a small hole, which they closed up. So now, here i am, a year later, and i went to a doctor to see if there was a revision they could do to help me start losing the weight again, and was told that my pouch was the same size it was back in 2004, and doing a band over bypass was not going to help me lose the weight i wanted to lose. The doctor said that I would lose at the most, 30 lbs. So he wasn’t eager to do it. So now I’m stuck, struggling with my weight, watching the numbers go up on a weekly basis. Changing my eating habits since I can’t work out the way i want to, or enough to help me lose the weight i want to lose. Has anyone else experienced re-gaining weight and trouble losing it?????