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well, well, well.... Puddin, you know I luv ya, but the trip to SL not in the near future, but maybe a half way or some fun trip what about Las Vegas? somewhere for girls trip? things crazy for me. down another 8 lbs so now at about 154 or so. feels great although still cant buy a size 8 or 6 cuz my mind wont let me so I have to try on everything then sit in amazement. especially the shirts. size M or L if run real small./ the boobs are great!! especially during the summer no bra first time ever! tank tops and halters are great too never done that before. I am loving the new clothes styles and find I dress much sexier than before therefor much more attention. not that I cheat, cuz one man is enough! not to mention I just about got mine trained! haha he'd smack me if he heard me say that as he "thinks" he is the man of the house! yep, what ever keep dreamin' I have to find time to post better pics maybe a different thread as this is getting really long. I may be needing your help puddin, I'll pm when I get brave and ready or time/ realestate is keeping me busy as well as graduating kids and getting ready for college. I'll try to keep up on things though. goodluck 1

welp, not coming to SL anytime soon. things did not go well with oldest daughter at youngsts graduation. she is so negative and in a down spiral of self distruction that only she can get herself out of.. she was soo drama, at the after party, I finally got pissed and told her off, in front of alot of people. my husband got in the middle of us or she'd be black and blue. dont know where this negative focus she is in came from but I cannot let that negative suck the life out of you environment into my space. so, she is on her own. she needs to grow up and this is one fight mamma cant fight for her, I dont even want to fight it for her, she sucked my energy out more than the 100+ guests and twin 3year olds. being a mom sucks sometimes!!! ok pitty party for me... it over now! things will be happening in my life the next weeks so I wont post much but good luck puddin and keep positive, just remember the only things we control in life is our reaction to situations, we are accountable for that reaction and the consequesnces that follow. take care!

what the heck! gone for a few weeks and... Puddin, you know WE think your great, and have such respect for what you have done to get to the weight you are at. we all talk about lapband being a tool, and that is what it is. you had to have inner stregnth and will power to get to this point, I KNOW that! so you do have the inner power to overcome this addiction as well. we both know about change, but what about the inner acceptance of ourselves once this weight comes off. the protective layer that kept us safe from these decisions all these past years. now that layer is gone and we have to learn about ourselves and our new place in the world as if we were young teenagers again. just dont learn without actually learning a lesson. there is consiquences for all actions, and lessons to be learned from each lesson. Mine is not sex, (hubby wishes) it is the putting up with less crap from people. I live in a small town, so word travels quick! bitch out one person and your a bitch even those others dont know the situation or conversation. I put up with disbelief and lies because I didnt want to cause a seen, well, seen it is! cuz look at me know as I put you in your place I am willing to be seen and heard more so than before. ok. fun note, am coming to SL first week in June. daughter graduates May 27th from high school. my youngest, so we are coming to SL to shop for school clothes as she starts cosmotology school July 8th and needs all black stylish clothes. look out, momma has the credit card!!! We will stay at the Mariiot with the starbucks in it, downtown. other daughter works there. so I will let you know what days and PM you with my cell so we can hook up! propabaly Tues or Wed for about 5 days. Got plans? Got time? Talk to you soon, I will also bring you the materials we talked about too!!

so, youve not been to Lewitown MT!! millions of $$, NOT this listing was 95,000 and thats pretty average unless I sell a ranch or something but then you have to know something about cows other than "steak" I sent Jennifers email to you, I really appreaciate anything you can do, I will send her one and let her know what I did. she is a great girl, she just needs some goals and focus on achieving more than victoria secrets and Marriott. and guys who leach on girls dang that makes me sick!!! me skinny, NO still in 10s although their loose and should be 8s but, not shopping till 6's. the fill made me realize I was eating too much to get to the 6-8 range. i started shoping at the gap. they have a clothing line 1969 which is the year I was born (oops aged myself) so I feel compelled to wear that brand. thats the 10's by end of day toooo loose. loving the boobs, wish I had lipo done on top under boobs. sick of working out soo much. I wish wish wish I was one of those skinny chicks who dont work out ! since not, I will keep working out! UGH will know more about cancer areas after last set of removal resutls are in. they may need to remove more but then it will be gone. thats all I know about that now. it hurt like crap getting skin removed but I lov;e my doc, she numbed the area before the needle on the other areas so I felt nothing until yesterday now I just have little holes on my arms and back! oh well! size 6 did you ever think youd be there? do you look at your legs and think," damn my calves were bigger than my thighs are now!" I sometimes cant believe Ive lost almost half of my body and my senior daughter wieghs less than what ive lost! PIC on its way maybe I can scam one tomarrow he wont pose so I have to be sneaky! not buff, but not fat or skinny. he is super super nice guy - another new guy in town, fitness center owner dark skin, muscles mmmmm, WIFE, BABY. yep, not this one! no goal, just day by day. want to feel good and I do, and I look good too (most days) so just hanging, thanks again for challenge keep me posted of what you think. Thank you!!

sweethot143, as I read this thread, I go back to my siminary teacher telling me he would not argue religion with me, as LDS believe that each has their own opinions and arguing raises doubt in your beliefs. I never understood what he ment or why he wouldnt argue with me, but I see now! I no longer participate in or agree with all of the teaching of the church, not for any reasons listed on this thread, and laugh at most of the absurd comments made. If the dumb stuff said on TV wouldnt cause debate they wouldnt show it. But I do commend you on your stregnth and convictions of your religious beliefs. The true LDS religion is so family and member strong that is the one great thing the religion has given me. the importance of family and community.

I work with a personal trainer, she was a the fitness center then went on her own. advertised in local paper. I pay $120 month for 2 days per week 1 hr a day. she has her own facility and its just me and her so I go to her. she would come to my house for the same cost but I dont have all the stuff, plus I like "going" I do live in a small community so the cost is less than larger cities. but it is great and I have seen so much mmore results than at the gym on my own. the gym instuctor might know someone too> good luck!

well, as you know my daughter is in SL, she is having life issues like ones you dont tell your mom everything. she was/is living with this guy and I have been helping w/rent $ and he was to pay other half so she wouldnt have to work 2 jobs and live in trash. the quick of the matter is that I have been paying rent and she has been paying other half and other bills so he could get new quitars and playstation stuff. she is finally fed up as he lost his job 4 weeks ago and she has paid everything because he spent his money on "toys" and $150 cable. she wasnt ablt to go to california (on her $75 she saved) because he spent the electicity money he was to pay on more crap and waited until 5am when she was leaving to tell her. so neither girl got to go, other girls family flew her there and Jennifer stayed home. WHEW!!! she is fed up and their mutual lease is up June 30th so she is looking for her own place- so she tells me! I think she needs a big sister to help or advise her and since she IS the big sis, I just wondered if you wanted a 21 year old challenge? I can give you her email and you can intro yourself however you want. Just a thought, I TOTALLY understand if you have too much going on. let me know... other front, how are you??? I havnt been on much. as you know I got my realestate lisc,. and am in the process of closing my first sale. not sure if this is for me time will tell. also youngests graduation is May 27 so busy planning that. I did get a fill my band now up to 3.2 cc and I lost 4 lbs in the last two weeks. so now 164. feeling better, except found some skin cancer so no more tanning for me. am i reading you ticker right your down to 150? holy you must be soooo thin. send updated pics of your skinny self. later, good luck and hope all is going well. PS found a great guy for you here in MT my hubbys cousin but he is nice and cute and $$$$ he works with dead people. hes the county corenor and funeral home guy. hahah just lookin out for you!

hey, georgia are you around?? hows it going? want a new challenge in Salt Lake??

Well, it has been a long time! I was re-reading some posts and think I am the longest out on this thread. I want to let you know that your body will stall. you shouldnt get dissappointed, this is not like a "diet" we are all used to being on. there were several months I lost nothing. one month I lost zero pounds but I do body measurments and that was 20+ inches tbl. the band is a life change not a quick loose weight. your body HAS to adjust to the new size. your heart has to beat different, blood flw different.. ect. please do not get discouraged. I have learned a few things the past 2 years that no doc call tell you or understand. I like Dr. Rohrer but it is not the same as my original doc. the band surgery was his "baby" and he researched everything, and even did the preop and post op diet cuz patients said how hard it was. I miss him! that being said.. I requested a small .3 fill wanted alittle more but not too much again. Dr. thought it was .3-.5 closr to.5 I am not eating well-quanitiy or quality- and my personal plan was to be healthy not so skinny I was sick, I am giving it this week till wed. then if still uncomfortable back to GT and andother $100 for an unfill. then I am done with fills. I guess my body is happy where it is and the excersize I do will keep me fit. so, as I look back today over the last 2 years, 115lbs, and from a 22 to a 10. this being puky, not eating or eating and not holding it down, having the pb issues or feeling like pbing- is not where I need to be. it is simply not worth it. I did this to have a life, not a life waiting to throw up or not eat at all with get togethers. dont stress about weight loss, it will happen with the band. the most weight I lost was when I had our foster baby. he was very sick, 3.3lbs, and never slpet. my priority was him and I lost like 65 lbs in 10 months and never went to the doc or got a fill or exercised. I just lived my life like a "skinny" chick. great book- why french women dont get fat. have you read it, what did you think? Best of luck all, sorry for rambling need to call a friend to blabber, wrists are killing me! lol Brenda

tracy: Maybe regret is not the right word for me, as I would do it again in a heart beat, but yes, there are those factors that should be considered when having WLS. sagy loose skin, hanging boobs- I had a tt & bl and the difference made the world, I was honestly at the point I looked in the mirror and it was atleast "full" when I was fat and my back didnt hurt from the weight of the breasts. Now 100% happy but the tt & bl did make such a difference. my port is very noticable, and yes, it is an issue when wearing snugger shirts as it looks like a pouge in an otherwise flat tummy. constintly thinking, i wanna try this - food type but will it get stuck, make me pb ect. yes those thoughts still happen not daily but on ocassion. especially eating new place or at peoples homes that dont know. like chicken doesnt work for me, so at family that had bbq chicken and potatoe salad. neither works for me so I starved instead of risking more explaining and then ordered room service from the hotel at midnight- I was starving!!! so yes, issues, but regrets no! just issue to address but much less of an issue then the heart attach or stroke I was headed for.

yep, splash is the fav but it was closed during our trip.

Hey, just got a great idea??? to get your mind off the 21 days, come to MT Ive got lots of painting - outside and in, yard work, geting ready for last kids graduation, and she wants a princess fluff like a wedding party. we wanted outside keg and roasted pig thing, so put on your party pants or paint pants and I'll buy the airline ticket. GAME??? seriously need a time out away from your current surroundings? look me up, we'll find "something" to do. I do like to shop in SL and have a kid there. need to deliver furniture sometime. help me out Gretchen, ideas ideas, ideas. LETS GO SHOPPING ONLINE TOGETHER??? You can do this, you just put on your superwoman cape and stay focused and positive. Hey, post a thread on the great things that happened to you today. good hair day? butt looked cute in your jeans anything that made you feel good. start a feel good thread. mine.. got a lead on buyer wanting home in Lewistown she is coming from Florida next week and wants me to show her a few houses. oh yea, need that commission!! Took photo with group and my hair looks great! Was told I looked like a movie star! ok by 60+ year old woman havent seen in years but a movie star non the less! your turn Gretchen, what is great in your life today???

Just got back from Disneyland- Great time. I didnt "hurt" from rides like I did when heavy, I guess the tightness of the seat belts and grip bars made it worse. I had a tt & bl about 3 months ago, and did feel alittle "rattled around" but that was at California Days. DO NOT DO THE HOTEL HORROR!!! Major scarry ride drops you like 14 floors then up for more- yikes- I puked alot. not a good ride. good laugh for my family but not fun for me! Have a great trip, enjoy the weather and kiss Mickey!

Great thread, just yesterday I was talking to a friend about how I have switched to drinking and shopping. both equally. shop, drink, drink, shop. luckly havnt gotten myself into too much trouble, but did purchase $3000 in Louis Vuitton purse last week while on vacation in california. I rationalized it with my only trip to "Rodeo DRive" just crap I tell ya one obsession for another. It is in alot of other threads but until you put my finger on the point I just dont get it sometimes. So glad to not be the only one with this issue as it seems alot of us on LBT go thru similiar issues. Thanks for positng>

what a great experience, first trip to Disneyland since WLS and not one snicker, like"hey fat lady your not gonna fit" didnt even realize it until read your post. mmm feelin good now! THANKS

sophie, what time is your fill on the 18th? I have an appt with dr. rohrer on the 18th as well at 4pm. congrats on your entrance to one-der-land!

hey, not needing support is not the same as not listening and you know it! you are listening, you just arent hearing it now. you will, I am sure you have recalled a few things you heard from your past lessons learned and experiences. that is life and that is how we learn. you are a smart woman you know how to do things and succeed. positive attitude and outlook go a long way! trust yourself, others see great potential in you, you just need to see it yourself.

ok, Gretchen, put on your big girl panties and listen up!!@!! quit, QUIT, giv9ng these damn guys your life! we have been around the block with this guy crap, and I am telling you as your friend, 'YOU ARE TOO GOOD FOR THIS SHIT!' it is not about them, it is about you! take time for you. I feel like slapping you! quit giving them the power over you. I know you are strong, go back and read the posts, your power, hell, you are SUPERWOMAN!!! remember?? You can and will take control of this issue, you have to tell yourself over and over again that you are in control of your actions, and your life not someone or anyone else. If you tell your inner self you cannot achieve you wont! did you stop having faith in yourself while loosing weight, what about on that damn treadmill at 6mph, do you say you cant and stop? no you keep running until YOU decide you are now at your goal. Its an analagy, I know but it is the same thing, If you say you are not in control with these men, then your not they are. Yes, I have been date raped, not similiar, cuz I did not willing participate, I did report it and it was the first time, I dont think about it cuz it pisses me off that I let someone have that much power over me for so long, and for this yes, I am a bitch about this stuff cuz I know for a fact, if you give someone else the power to control your being it will! shit happens, thats life, learn from it and move on. now your opportunity to shit or get off the pot is on! so what will you do? You and I have the blunt thing in common, as well as a few other aspects I have discovered over the last months. I know you can do what you set your mind to, and we all on this post want to support you, but we cant love you unitl you love yourself. that is the hardest thing in all of this weight loss. we love our new looks but the baggage stays with us. It is hard, and thank goodness, I do not have to date in this world, but trust me there are other issue to work thru too. I wish I could tell you how to fix this, or that someone else could fix this for you or take the pain, but we cant only you have that power, see you have the power, just find it! Last comment from the peanut gallery.... Maybe remembering this at times of temptation will discourage you. I had relationships prior to marriage, my husband did not. In 21 years of marriage there have been times when he brought up the fact that I did not "wait" for him. not mean, just the fact and the pain that it causes him that I have been with someone else. It is hard to say no or stop now, but it is very hard to live with later when you are married. another mom 101 let me know how you are today!!!

Karey, thanks, the work out schd hasnt been so great as I have been traveling alot. 1 week vegas & AZ now Disney, but then its 4x's a week for the rest of april. that will be the test, either I am strong or dead!!! I have been pretty good at going, that is the only time I work out is with the trainer 3x's a week it is enought for my sched. for now. Puddin, sounds like things are working out, and you are on the path of finding whats right for yourself. thats great. Funny how the advice of someone you trust and that has an established basis for his advice is such an inspiring thing you are able to determine what is right. not always the most fun, but right. I have been in those "meetings" and the tension is great, yet relieving at the same time. good luck on that front. Maybe you need sex aholic or something. better yet, get married have kids the desire is not so strong if you havent slept in days! haha Have a great week,

OK Puddin, where are you!!!!! Had my first stregnth test with the trainer today! holy crow, I did pretty good, 13 min mile, not superwoman but did run most of it. at the same pull ups, situp, knee ups, as before surgery so finally I can feel like I'm not lagging behind. I hope my legs dont kill, as we are going to Disneyland tomorrow and will have to run to keep up with Brian, he is a bigger kid that the kids. when they were little he would carry 2 and run,yes run ppast the crowd to get to the chosen first ride. this time only our daughter and her friend are going and they are 17 so they better be prepared to run, cuz dad is gonna dash thru the crowd for spash mountain. How are you doing? youve been quiet latly and things are crazy here so I havnt kept up on you, so fill in the blanks!

Stepahnee: I am finally starting to see a difference, not in the mirror but in pics. I think we see ourselves in our minds more than our mirror. a friend of mine was so discussted with me she printed a years version of pics and literally threw them at me, I saw a diffreence but i didnt "see" a difference. I will tell you that toning up and working out made such a difference. in my mental state and the toness of my body. the tummy tuck and breast lift helped too! We go thru crazy mind tricks with the weight loss, my advice is to find someone private you can confide in and stick with that person for your pep talks. good luck

what is your position on toys puddin???? oh, I thought she ment bikes, treadmills, you know toys, not "toys" lol thats one topic Puddin hasnt covered, just make sure your mom does not have this site marked before you post your response. haha Life is here to laugh at, how boring it would be without laughter at others and our selves.

wow, this thread went crazy for awhile. I';ve been banded for almost 2 years. I too like jubjub did not follow the exact post surgery liquid diet. due to complications with MY body, I was puking blood caused by too much stomach acid and no solid foods to settle it down. Idid not go crazy, mashed potatoes really liquidy, leading up to pinto beans from taco bell mushed up. it saved me. I hav enot had erosion, slippage, no complications and to date have lost well over 100 lbs and 12 clothing sizes. I think the biggest isuue here need to be what we know about our bodies. Yes, your doc know about the band but every person every body with the band is different. Some docs of patients on this site have no pre-surgery diet, mine did, some have 4 weeks post, mine 2 weeks, then adjusted due to the puking blood. every doc is different and they were all "trained" by inamed so whos to say. my doc said at fills 24hrs. liquid, new doc (original moved out of state) said no liquid just be careful, and the later is the most experienced of the two. so.... lets not get so judmental of others, one day, jubjub may be in the 100lb loss club and you wont be who knows??? what I do know is the jumping her crap, is wrong and whoever said she wasnt a good canidate or doing the right things with her band and her body, shame on you , carma is what it is, one day you might regret your bitterness towards her. just my two cents worth, ok not even 2 cents but my opinion. good luck to everyone on this site in the weightloss journey! If we knew it all, we wouldnt need surgery in the first place.

Puddin, sorry you have sooo much to think about. sometimes the thinking just hurts huh??? I have worried and contemplated every outcome of the last 2 days and my daughters lack of what I think is the appropriate response. but then. what is appropriate to one person is not to the other and without being IN their shoes it is hard to understand whats going on. kinda like you! you say whats going on, but I know that only so much can be put into words and especially typed out. Awhile ago I mentioned talking to someone, yes, professionally. do you think this might help? I used to work with women in abused situatioons, and your comment about "date raped" makes me flash back to some of the women I worked with that due to an experience they felt less worthy. subconsiously, in words they talked themselves into making it excuseable. I teach a theory called, Investment In Excellence, it is through the Pacific Institute in Seattle Washington. Their web site is www.thepacificinstitute.com look it up. the theory is teaching you a thinking technique to focus on the positives, set goals, and plan thru future successes not just to that success or you get stagnet in your life. My awahh moment was when I was asked if my days seemed the same. I wasnt setting goals, not in this manner, I wasnt focusing and celebrating the positive in my life- you know what, never mind, look at the site and let me know if you want more info. I am 1 or 2 liscensed trainers here in Montana and have seen the proof in the Puddin- get it Puddin--ok my joke sucks but hey it does work and makes lots of sense if interested PM me.

Hey Puddin- Like I tried to explain to my daughter, that inner voice, the one that says dont do this, listen to it, guide yourself by it. I have learned over the years and lots of times I wish I would have listened, there is a reason it is there. some call it the "still small voice" I just call it my inner self, telling me what is right when I'm headed the wrong way. I listen and when my head and gut are telling me no, I dont do it. sounds like your voice is telling you things and you are not listening. you are headed for a crash if you dont listen. I have to tell ya, my 17 daughter experienced it sat. night. her friends wanted to go to this party out of town. she drove, that voice kept telling her not to but she wanted to be cool, it is hard to stand up and, I understand that, however, the phone call at midnight that she was in a ditch and we needed to come was terrible. she kept telling us something told her not to go, not to drive but she wanted to be with her friends. she rolled her trailblazer 1.5 times in a ditch with no seat belts on 3 kids. all alive. all ok just scared. the new car is totaled. there is no back end and the roof is at the dash board. she kept saying she could hear my voice telling her to come home, but she didnt listed.... moral of the story, listen to the voice... you have a second chance now that the weight is gone and you are self confidence you didnt have before use it to benifit your life. did you think when you were heavy that if you'd only lost weight you could find Mr. RIGHT... do you realize you settled for stuff, let things slide, because your self worth was in your weight??? Now your there, the obsticle you thought was in the way may have been saving you from big decisions like men. am I babbling??? I was LDS until 17 when my life changed. I got married had kids all out of the church, and not been active since then. I can tell you from that, times like these, I go back to the teachings I do believe in. like the small voice, like god has a plan for us, and wonder what did this event mean, and how can I change whats going on from here. If my daughter had made it to the party would they have drank? yes, and drove, yes, and probably be dead, yes./ so I am trying to explain this second chance issue with her. she is really lucky to be alive, we looked at the car and she realizes she was lucky, but it hasnt sunk in yet. kinda like you, your second chance to change the things in the past that put you where you are, and improve your life for yourself, not your friends or your men, just yourself. ok ok babbling... good luck and try to love your inner self cause if you dont, who will???