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wee, ya know, I grew up LDS and have some background too. You can get help with inner peace, and you know how (hint hint) You need to talk to someone, off line, that you can really trust and that may have experience but not judgmental. I had issues as a teenager and my parnets took me to my bishop. talk about humilating- I saw him every week, and that didnt sit well with me. excommunication is not the solution, you can figure this out without that extreme measure. good luck with your thought gathering weekend, I'll be thinking of you, ok cursing you as I run on the treadmill, but thinking about you- good luck!

Puddin, your sooo funny, guess what??? I am a mom who read my daughters my space and thought" wholly crap she's going wild there is salt lake." honestly, cause I'm another who says it how it is before thinking my mother could read this, We mom's kinda know, and we forget the stuff we dont want to remember. My daughter is 20 tho, big difference. I just told her I read it and bam!, just like you did, the scarry stuff was gone. isnt that funny, I could be your mom!!! ok now my achin back is hurtin cause of arthritis..lol. dont worry, shell forget the stuff she doesnt want to remember, TRUST ME< BEEN THERE,DONE THAT!wow, never thought my kids could have walked in, boy theyd be in therapy for sure.. what I dont know doesnt hurt me in either case! we do not have a bedroom door tho, we own the entire upstairs so no door, eeks!!! that just goes to show there are some paybacks for kids from their parents. haha. Not to pry, but if you dont believe in pre maritial sex, and other references, and the fact you live in salt lake, I maybe jumping but are you LDS?? More on that later...... So worked my butt off with trainer today. tried the run 2, walk 3 incline 5 walk at 3.8-4.0 and run at 5.0-5.3- all i can say is "oh my holy" then the regular stregnth training for an hour. so I am tired, but feeling like I'm on the road again. Have a great day,

WHAT THE HELL IS A SIZE 6, AND WHERE DO YOU FIND THEM!!!!!!! so today my butt, legs, calves, ok hip to toe hurts, that damn trainer!! My goal for the next 2 months (we set new ones every 3 months or as achieved) is to run, so my legs and butt better cowgirl up to the new pain. Maybe pushing myself will get me back sooner so that is my mindset today. Sounds like you have a keeper in this new guy. Just dont get sooo attached just yet, lets see can we find more hoops to jump thru??? Does he have money, yes cash, moola, dough??? some will day that is not impoirtant, but lets be real, if no money lots of arguing forseen in future over lack of it. I'm not saying its #uno, just important. and if I'm living thru you, I want money, looks, and personality, I WANT IT ALL. heck, I have it all now so I want it for you too. (now that sounded stuck up!) Maybe show him a terrible 2's pic and see if he thinks you were cute then. Boobs are now a "c" at VS if any smaller I may consider implants but if they stay a c I am good. I really am considering the inner leg lipo, I will talk to doc at picture time appt. This stuff is addiction expecially as I sit here with my legs achin' trip to SL may be in works, daughter wants my kitchen table and Iam ready for new so... If it works it will be first week in April, maybe then you could explain this size "6". baby clothes???

yep, still melting... gotta love those days. I did increase my workouts to 3 days per week and 1.5 hrs a day starting today, in hopes that would get me back. It just sucks 6 months to get power, 8 weeks to loose it. This is the 3rd true workout since being ok'd as I was at real estate school for the past 8 days. I did cardio but evidentially not enough. anyway, it sucked, I sucked wind, and now am exhaused from crying and working harder than my body is used to. Glad you brought up the top swelling, whats the deal with that? I thought maybe I didnt get stretched tight enough cuz of the boobs and tummy being done. doc did tell me 6-8 months before true results showed. so, until then I will do what I can to tighten it up faster. Your legs look great! I am now thinking of a lipo in the inner thighs. did the belt tighten the legs too? from the pics looks like your legs are 1/2 of the before shots. you really look great, you should be very proud, your hot! I have to tell you Puddin, I felt alittle of that change of attention you have mentioned in the past. I was at real estate school for over a week last week. Met alot of nice people, went to bar with a few guys, some younger some way old, anyway, they compared me to other girls at the bar and said compliments to me, not knowing I once was a "fat girl" or didnt have "nice boobs" NO, I didnt fessup, I cowarded out, took the compl;iments, and free drinks and let it ride. I feel guilty for not standing up for the "fat girl" syndrom but I honestly was liking being the cute girl for once. They had no idea of my past and I wont see any of them again, Just wondering how the table would have been 2 years ago, I would have been the "fat girl" People need to be nice, it is a big lesson for me that you never know what the person is like if you let physical stand in the way. remember the fat suit stories we've all heard? this was it in reverse. maybe some sleep will get me out of my pitty party, at the trainer 8:30 am tomarrow for some more hell! Brenda

Puddin where are you?? Mental breakdown, ok cried alot, at work out today!! How long did iut take for you to get back to where you were before surgery? I suck at this re-working out and want to quit!!! yes, I am having a pitty party. I worked so hard to be strong, and now feel like a whimp. did you experience having to work twice as hard to regain the stregnth and if so how long must I endure???

dont even try a bra for awhile, but when you do, remember the victoria secrets one without wires. I find that a spandex built in bra tank shirt is great. it is comfortable and supportive. the sports bras I wore at first got too big and I was sick of them by about week 6. doc said, support, support, support. I asked and showed him the ones I like and he approved, thank goodness I needed the change. when your ready try one of them. I also got them at victoria secrets. I wear a 36c and the tank size in M and does well just for comparrison sake. Oh the drains, didnt that removal just make such a difference. I couldnt believe it. I still have pretty tender scars where they came out. I still wear the binder at night sometimes. and when I work out every time, I still need the ""binding" I do notice the swelling is gone in morning after I sleep in the binder. doc said wear whenever I felt I needed to. what thread has pics, I wanna see????

It has been 11 days and I feel great! biggest problem is I cannot lift more than 3 lbs and no higher that armpits. Hard to limit self when I feel so good. Actually pain level not near as bad as I expected, not a ride on the Harley, but not hell either! The girls look great purky and where they belong and the tummy is getting there can see my hip bones. Actually found where my "old" belly button was. I had bb pierced and closed then pierced again so a small dark spot above top of old belly button is now in the stitches at the pubic area, and scar from left upper hip/ bakini line is in stitches. about 3 inches down and 2 up- BYE BYE SKIN!! Will maybe post before & after pics when find brave sole to take them HAHA

Poodles: I feel your pain and in a some what different way, understand. I will tell you my story Jerry Springer it is, then expalin how I feel they are similiar because the facts are different but the connection to the child the same. I have a sister to whom I have had no realtionship with for the last 15 years due to drugs, bi-polar, drugs drugs and more drugs, and all the ugly details of drugs. She had her first son, then came herroin she let her dealer sexualy molest him for drugs so she lost her rights and he lived with my parents and his birth father. she was gone for 8 years. then bam! back "dying of hep c" she has bi-polar and because of all the drugs she acts like a 13 year old, she is 30. so she is one day stable the next freakin out. on her meds all is well, off, she is what she is. 4 years ago she was back living with parents as mom had strokes and she "was living the right life, she was staying clean and wanted a normal life" she talked the talk and did well. I thought she had finally figured it out, life that is and helping others. she still did not see her child as he lived with father full time. then one day, "haha I am pregnant!" she went thru the pregnancy off her meds and I thought fine. we talked about adoption and she wanted to give the child a "loving home, because she had no maternal instinct or desires" 7 months later I get a phone call from an attorney. My sister had the baby, 11 weeks early, on the toilet, she was totally druged out! meth & pcp. state had taken child and he needed a home. He weighed 3.3lbs, addicted, premature, very very sick. in nic u and needed the loving contact to live. so... I quit my job that day, started the 2 hr drive and stayed at hospital with this baby, 2 days old and sick. Took him home on a heart monitor, cath, feed tube and took care of him for 11 months. Today he is healthy, on track for he adjusted age and such a cutie, I love him more that I ever thought possible. maybe because I fought so hard medically, and emotionally and legally for him more than any of my children ever needed medically. He is living with birth mom, she is a teriible care giver, we have him 2-3 days per week, he goes to day care 2 days a week. she cant handle the pressure, I take him. thats my role to always protect him. My husband and I agreed to adopt him, birth dad reliquished rights 2 days after birth, and she wanted to place him for adoption up until he was born. We had invested so much and he was already part of our family, and for all purposes I was and still to him am his mom. he changes when he gets here. she even notices it and has told me it would be better for him to be with us, he is happier. BUT... as she tells me, SHE is the mom, she even told me up until she went to the hospital when they thought he wouldnt make it, she didnt want to be a mom. she says giving him up is harder than keeping him, even though she doesnt want to be a mom. So I am the aunt, I take him all the time and clean him up and love him enough to get thru the next couple days till I get him again. state says thats OK Brandon is safe and that is all they have to prove- dont even get me started on DFS. long story, point being, giving up a child even if you dont think you'll have "maternial insticts" must be very difficult and your sister wont know until the moment happens. the pain is so great I dont wish the loss I feel on anyone. not quite sure how family moments will be in the future, he has a baby book with my family, our memories, and everyone tells me he will know me forever, but...what pain will he endur knowing his mom bailed on him for drugs, dad bailed for lack of being a man, and his aunt bailed out because...state said so. I hope you are able to fill your need for another child, maybe a different serrogate, or what about the dfs for foster adopt? out of our foster parent classes, 4 families were there to foster adopt and 2 of them have a child and there are other children here that need adoptive parents. you could call your local family services agency and see. I wish my Brandon could be with a family like yours that wants a baby so bad, and will love him unconditionally. It will happen for your family have faith, God has a plan for us all, or so I pray. Best of luck to you

Puddin- You look FABULOUS, SIMPLY FABULOUS!!! Your legs look great. I was gonna ask Dr. Santin at my pic appt in 6 weeks if I could have a set of pics, gonna tell him you got some and I want some too! I didnt think I was game for another surgery but the theighs look great, I will ask dr. about that maybe a good anniversay gift in May!! haha. That of course is a gift to hubby I still want a present! Did the lift do that or where you working on your legs more? I notice I have some change but not that much still cant see daylight all the way up. I sure bet the after pics werent near as bad as the pre-op. that was down right humiliating. now heck I dont care if he takes a pic or not, been naked every time Ive seem him, only other man on earth to see me just the way I am both before and after. Hey, I'm gonna pm you got a situation from my 7 day ventures out of town, nothin big just a "thing" I'll do that later- Still working out like super woman???

wow lots of changes while I was gone. How are "the girls" girls??? lol haha Have you noticed the heavy firmness almost too much? It is finally gone and they feel soft yet firm. wierd. went bra shopping yep, 36c and cute bras from Victoria Secrets. They have 1 no underwire and it is nice. spydr, 7lbs, dang thats great, I cant even remember how I looked before but I do stand and admire the total flat, even hips sticking out. In the morning all is great, but I do swell some by evening. I sleep in the girdle thing some nights as it feels tighter and better for some reason. Are you wearing the girddle? are you drains out now? UPDATE< UPDATE, gotta know how your doing!

Just my two cents, I own a Louis Vuitton, ok I own 4, the cost of the cheapest one was $500, the average cost was $1500. I also have a few coach bags, same thing 500-1000 so if you have a LV or Coach bag, you can certainly afford counseling! Good luck prioritizing your life!

yeah, me and my big mouth, I told you and BAM! my trainer put me on the treadmill at 4 with incline of 8 with 3lb weights! and kept going from there!!! I looked at your ticker and we are pretty close at starting points, it is great that you are moving like you are. and to know you have kids, work, hubby, houshold ect... You are doing GREAT!! now I know when you will love exercsing, in about 18 years, kids grown and the fun parenting stuff is done, oh yeah, their out of high school then. funny how the milestones of school are so exciting when it begins. I am 3 months until my youngest graduates, 2 down 1 to go, and I cant wait!!! Problem is now I need to find a life! OMG your time says 3 AM!!! you walked at 3 this morning then posted? do you ever sleep? How old are you? another youngster gonna put me to shame? lol dang I feel old and sleepy I think I'll take a nap! Have a great day or for you I guess this is late afternoon. (8 AM)

omg Puddin- 3 hours of exercise! I work alittle harder yesterday! the pull ups dont feel so great, it is the stretching down that pulls on the abs, so I only did 2 sets but I'll work up to the 4 I was doing. I did 4.2 on an incline of 8 with some adjusting up and down with 3 lb weights, cant imagine running, funny, my first thought was my boobs giving me black eyes, forgot those girls wont do that now, damn, no mental excuses. thanks for the numbers I will try 5.5 or close to it so I can "feel your pain" it is nice to have a target mph and I am a compitition freak. what will you do for ab work? cant even think of sit ups now or crunches but I suppose that will be when I get back 2nd week of March. Trainer said lunges are next for sure as my butt needs tightened! yeah I know the whole thing (body) has gotten "looser" April 1st I am back to 3 days per week so then the skin will tone, just easing my way back for now! Hey good luck and dont work on the scale goal, look and listen to your body where you feel "optimal" is where you need to be only you knows that.

Sharon, while in Lewistown, would you like to meet?? I have a few girls that we might be able to get together, one other for sure. If so when and where as we dont work we can fit it to your schedule?

I learned this trick a while ago and try to do it when on the treadmill to kill 2 birds with one stone. treadmill at incline 10-12 as high as you can go, at a slow pace like 3-4 walk and get stready first trust me, your heart rate will soar and you wont giggle like running. 2-3lb weights do some arm work. lateral pulls, bi-cep curls, tri-ceps anything you can do but do 3 sets of 15 when thats easy do higher weights. I can tell you from experience that when you see results is when you may start to like it. It is boring I know, and cant even imagine doing it at 5AM holy crap, dont think I can potty at 5 AM let alone treadmill!! I am proud of you for even getting up that early and doing it. I go to the trainer at 9 or 10 depending on the day. I've turned into a dinker since I left my job, what will I be like next month when I am working!!! hew, CRABBY!!! I understand the snow and stuff as I live in MT and the ice is not your friend! Do you feel better today? Just tell yourself you love it! ok, if you cant lie to that level, tell others you do and see if that helps. lol

Is a personal trainer in the area? I found that years of hating exercise, not seeing the results I felt I deemed due to the effort so quiting wasnt because I hated exercise it was because I hated what I was doing and not doing enough of the right stuff. Cardio is great, but the results are in the weights. weight training with an expert has given me muscles I never knew were there and if there not noticable in my body. I work out 3 days wkly with her and thats enough I get the social and the workout together. It is a one on one session 1.5hrs mon, tues, thurs. I find that enough for my lifestyle and I see great results without daily workouts.

I found that I lost the most weight when I was NOT focusing on it. I did foster care for my nephew who was 11 wks premature and very ill so my focus changed. at first I was worried I would gain weight being at home with all that time on my hands, I forgot in 17 years what crazyness a baby brings! I didnt weigh in, see doc, nothing for about 8 months then to my surprise, I lost 40lbs, no stress! My advice, relax, enjoy your new body and focus on getting used to your new eating habits. try to exercise, 70lbs is hugh, you will notice how much easier it is to walk on the treadmill concentrate on how good your heart beats! youve done great, your journey is not over, our bodies take time to adjust to loosing soo much weight and hey if 70 is what you loose total, isnt that better than carring that 70 lbs on your hips? positive thoughts equal positive results. I focused on a size 12, now cant get my mind to pick up the 10 I should wear. Picture yourself loosing the 100 mark and youll be there in no time! good luck!!!

I paid for mine, not sure each insurance is different. I do know if you have a hernia which is common in bypass, the tt can be done at same time for very minimal costs. do dont know about insurance. Thank you, it has almost been 2 years, I forget to update that ticker I now am at a loss of 111. My initial goal was a size 12-14 and to be healthy, never got into this for skinny, my mom is a stroke patient and I wanted to get healthy as I was on the same path per my dr. But now I am a size 10-12 and am still very swollen from the tt so hope to be 8 when all is said and done which I never imaged possible. my life has changed so much I cant explain. I have a 10cc band, and have had 6 fills and 1 unfill for a total of 2.7cc in my band today. I was very adament with fills for the first 6 months going slow with .5-1cc fills max each time my doc was great. Very patient and understanding. 11-22-05 was my last fill at 1cc which took me to 2 that is when I lost the majority of my weight. then 5-06 I had a fill by Dr. Rohrer of 1cc which was too much I was very sick I lost 10 lbs in 7 days I was in Minnisota and couldnt get the unfill until I fly home. he took .3 out which made such a difference. any small amount out makes such a difference. I am not sure if i will get another fill or not, I am good for now and my weight has maintained even with recovery I have changed my eating habits and feel this is a good wight for me to maintain. If i get too think, I know my body wont maintain and I want to live not diet! good luck, are you getting more snow? it has snowed since yesterday here in Lewistown.

My band date May 2, 05. doesnt seem that long ago! the emotions until then will keep you busy, just keep the goal in mind. great idea going to a support group. I live in a very small town less than 5000 pop. and I started the support group here. It works well with newer bandsters meeting us "old" folks we get inspired and you all get advice! good luck!!

Well, the trainer went soft on me- 30 min cardio on the elipitical, my butt was tingling- only level 7 which oddly enough seemed like level 12. upper body with free weights- could feel the stretching with over head press so did light weights. Only a few knee ups and chin ups and push ups will work back up to the 125 I was doing pre-op. It felt good and I was a little nervous pushing it too far. I can however feel it today in the area where the ab muscles were sewn together. Today I will do cardio only, treadmill for 45-hr. so I'll see then about heavy legs. Dang that swelling!! I start the morning FLAT then bam by late afternoon I have a deformed swollen tummy. I was out of the compression garmet my last appt. lawst Wed. He said if I wanted to wear it I could and I would know when I needed it, and again he is right. It feels like really really swollen feet being stretched, (can anyone realate?) so I wear the garmet and it feels much better. I did wear it working out also. it did help with keeping the swelling together and I felt tight- you understand that feeling dont you puddin? I think my hubby likes the flat tummy better, he's got this new thing teasing me calling me his "tw" trophy wife. the other night we were out of town and he kept saying it and giving me crap, yeah we were drinking too, I told him one more time and he'd have to buy me earings, to my surpirsie, I was given 2 karet (sp) diamond earings- 1 each side. that was the trophy wife link some movie he watched he said. so, yeah, love the flat tummy and love the gifts it brings haha.

Spydr, how did it go? How do you feel? I finally started exercising today, it felt great, ok mentally it did physically it was tough. Your muscles deteriate quickly, but dang the lack of skin looked good while working out! Dianne, Are you ready? doing the count down? I was prepared for sooo much pain and actually it was ok. the first 5-6 days were sucky, but then I felt much better. Best to get off those pain drugs asap. Let me know how you are doing, moral support if you need! good luck, just keep the picture of afterwards in your mind! You can see the difference right away the girls are where they belong! finally Musicalmomma: Yep hubby loves the change! It was a long road and many changes will happen from the banding until I was ready for ps. Enjoy the changes in your body and be prepared for the changes personally that weight loss brings. When are you planning on being banded? Good luck and enjoy the journey!

Would love to meet if someone could arrange location and time. days work for me and i will bring a friend or two also banded. We all live in Lewistown so Great Falls would work. Just for info, if anyone is looking into cosmetic surgery, Dr. Santin in Great Falls is AWSOME! tummny tuck and breast lift 6 weeks ago looks and feels great! anyway FYI...

hey Puddin girl, My time has come!! I am at the gym tomorrow for the first time since surgery. My bod sure needs it! Boy have times changed that I am actually excited to work out. I have to take it easy at first just to make sure any strains or stuff to quit per doc. the workout is pretty intense or it was when I left so we'll see. My trainer is excellent and it is a one on one session but my plan is to push myself but not kill myself,. anyway excited to get the rest of my dobody tones like before. It is amazing what 6 weeks can to in muscle and stregnth deteriation. How are you? kicken butt and taking names I am sure.

Penni I am sooo glad to see you post. I was "gone" for about 10 months so then when I got on last month no one from my beginning was around! Happy to hear your life is soo good, your hubby is a sweetie and you deserve him! Your messages inspired me and kept me focused and smiling in my initial band journey, THANKS!

Yep, done that. even with a small of fill like .5 I am hoping I will get some restiction I need without being too tight. I am recovreing from some cosmetic surgery then about 4 more weeks I plan to get that small fill. The new dr. I have to see as he is the only one within 200miles made a comment about getting my monies worthso he filled 2cc, then unfilled for another $100. so I will go the cheaper route and do a small .5-1cc fill. the smallest amount makes a big difference especially when we are so close or wanting to maintain. Good luck