Gettingbackontrack

hey everyone, so I was banded in 2010. I actually tried in 2009, ran into some complications, so i went back in 2010 for my official surgery. At my heaviest, i was 370+ lbs, and i never went into this surgery with the mindset I wanted to be skinny. I actually dont mind being a plus size women, but a healthy one was my goal. By the end of 2010, I had reached my goal of 250 lbs. I felt good, looked good, and was doing well. i maintained that wright loss for about 2 1/2 yrs and then desired to get to 225. i didnt want another fill, I think Im at 7cc's (or whatever you call then) because I didnt want to be completely dependant on the band, but just wanted a little push in the right direction. In the middle of 2012 i decided to join WW and lost 10 lbs by the end of the year. I felt great. then 2013 happened. :-( this year alone I have put on the 10 lbs I lost, plus another 19. i weighed in today at 269.4. I cant believe how much weight ive gained. I know it was the movie Snacks, greasy dinners, many visits to cheesecake factory with my friends. as well as my love for cupcakes and cake and pop corn, and my need to always have something sweet after a meal. I turned 30 this yr and around my bday I had got back down to 256ish (was weighing around 261 at the time)...during the summer, but the lbs came right back plus more. Ive also added stressors to my life...i started a master's program this fall, and it just seems to hard to focus on work, school and weight loss. But this is out of control...all I do is stare at my belly and try not to get depressed. Ive thought about getting a fill, but Im afraid my band is somewhere hidden under my stretched out stomach and they wont be able to find it. Plus, it can be a traumatizing experience have a huge needle stuck through your stomach...and lets pray they dont hit scare tissue....its happened before! But Im hoping and praying I can get focused...and the holidays are coming which adds to my anxiety and fear of gaining more weight. if anyone can relate...please reply....

thanks for the support...Im definitely down for a buddy system...I know I need to make better choices...which I do...but Im human and have moments of weakness. I know I will get it together...and I think rejoining this site is the first step.