So he apologized to me last night. He told me not to read into what he said and to totally ignore it. He was hungry and pissed and spoke without using his brain to filter his mouth.
Last night we sat down and discussed finances and he explained what was going on in the world of finances this summer. He told me that if I want this surgery he understands and he's not telling me that I cannot get it done. He did ask me if I could put if off until after August, which is fine with me. I am willing to do that. I don't want to screw us financially, especially during the summer when the we all have time off. Next month my car license fee is due, I have 100$ just in doctor visits, not including the gas to get to them twice. Unfortunately my insurance dictates that I cannot go to the doctor for more than one in thing in a day. So that means that I cannot have a nutrition appointment the same day as a pre-op. I was planning on going down there for my psych eval but decided against it because I would have had to make 3 more trips down there.
My husband is a good man, he helps out a lot with laundry, dishes and the kids. He just gets burned out, like we all do. Some days he snaps, like we all do. He's supportive of my decision though he wishes I could do this without surgery, but so do I. I just needed to vent the other day. I was hurt and he knew it. He didn't say anything else cruel.
I love my husband and my kids, that's why I want this surgery. I want to be around for them. I want to feel healthier and I believe that comes with weightloss, not just a little weightloss but a lot of weightloss.
I'm sorry for everyone dealing with dificult situaltions. I know that we all have financial trouble and we all probably have to deal with unsupportive people. Thank you all for your support and kindness. I really enjoy this forum and the people on it.