Nykee

anwyn) Nykee, I think you should read the whole thing over again from start to finish. girl) I have been. anwyn) Do you realize that your main complaint in your first post is that your current diet is making you gain weight. girl) It was that I am not losing. well I was wrong.. I lost 30 pounds in two months. anwyn) What's the worst thing that can happen here? You get an unfill and try it out for a few weeks and you gain a couple pounds because everyone here was wrong. According to you, you're gaining weight anyways. girl) true and I DID think of that.. but the cost is prohibitive. But I WAS thinkig about it anyway. anwyn) Maybe you're one of those people who will only do things for others but not themselves... girl) MY M.O. anway) If so, get an unfill for me because I'm going to have to go on blood pressure medicine if I keep reading this thread... girl) Me too.. lol Sorry

kathy, The one question that I haven't seen asked is...What has your doctor said about it? girl) I am on my own. kathy) If your doctor is not helping you then maybe you need to seek help or get a 2nd opinion from another doctor. girl) My band doctors and the entire place is AMAZING! THEY ARE THE BEST> This is all on me! kathy) I hope everything works out for you but don't give up, especially if you have children...they need you more than you need the Cheetos or bowl of Pasta. girl) THANK YOU FOR SAYING THAT!!!!!!!!!!!! Number one: its always good to see it said by another Number two: They are my life and I havent done right by them and THATS impossible becasue I have done right by them in every other way of their lives cept this one thing and well.. thats proof to me its a disease. thank you!!!

mousecrazy) It is also very sad to see that Nykee has asked for help, but didn't really want help at all. girl) Not true..... mousecrazy) Nykee, to realize that you are on the pitty pot and don't seem to want to get off. girl) Honesty I call it.. I feel pitiful and I post it.. sue me. mouse) It reminds me of students I have who take a step toward success, then sabotage themselves so they won't succeed. girl) ohhhhhh.. I done that ALOT in the last 20 yrs! wow, your insightfull..or is that what so many of us do?? I still do it (NOT AS MUCH) So, I didnt get all mentally well and perfect before I got banded (NEVER WOULD HAVE GOT BANDED) lololol I am trying to find ways around it.. cuz getting mentally well and getting all nutritionally and diet right... just wasnt happening and well, I gotta do what I gotta do NOT to die. Mouse) I've always thought they do it because they are simply afraid of what people might expect from them if they ever show their competence. girl) IF you have NEVER had a problem with Self sabotage.. maybe youd like to share some of your mental problems.. I mean is self sabotage the worst of them all IYOUR oppinion or what? mouse) I'm sure you have a reason/argument against everything. girl) well you sure had that effect on me for the firtst time today.. mouse) Please sit yourself down and discover why you must maintain this victim identity. It could be a life-changing moment. girl) Please dont tell me things I have done every flipping day of my life. Its condesending, rude and assuming. mouse) Much hope is sent your way girl) well thanks.. but I am trying to live in real time.. not hope.

renebean, "I dont know what to do" was a plea to see what I could do to get a more uniform band and not one that only allows a sip of juice at 9am and lots of crap at 9pm. renebean) At this point, it is all up to you. You can either take the advice that has been given to you with love and patience, or you can ignore it and continue on the road you are on. girl) I know.. renebean) One more time, I will point out that Pain is your bodies warning that something is wrong. If you feel pain when you try to eat, then you need an unfill. There is no question in anyone's mind - with the only possible exception being yours. girl) the "pain" is slight discomfort.. any weird feeling at all.. I read alot about peoples problems in this area I am managing it very well.. No real pain.. (CEPT yesterday I slimed up some soup.. one slime ball came out, didnt really hurt.. but I dont allow that stuff!) reneban) ou say that if you get an unfill, you will "only eat more soup & crap". I say, that if you get an unfill, you will be able to eat solid foods in the correct bandster way: hard Proteins first, veggies second, carbs last. girl) Your wrong about me then, I wont do that.. I know I wont,. renebean) Only by eating in this way will you begin to feel full or satisfied. Only by eating in this way will you have energy to face your days. Only by eating in this way will you be able to lose weight without torment & pain. girl) I KNOW... I think I am in for torment and pain. renebean) By now, you DO know what to do. The only question is whether or not you will do it. girl) EXACTLY.. I dont deny it. I wont do it. NOT CUZ I REFUSE.. (but cuz I know it from EXPERIENCE AND self awarenes) THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!! loves

shailin, I post cuz it IS helping.. I have made up my mind.. MY mind is made up that I have to lose the weight and this is the only way I can.. I am wrong I am sure but its all I know and I know what I know. I wont waste TRYING the stuff (everyones great advice) for 20 more years.. period. Thanks for the luck.. i swear i appreciate it the best me) Unbelievable.... Newbies, this is NOT the bandster lifestyle. This is NOT how it's supposed to be. This is NOT how you lose weight. This is NOT how you care for your band. This is NOT how you get your calories. This is NOT healthy. You can see this is NOT working and if this is how you want your banded life to be, I'd suggest you save your money. ME) honesty is unbelievable to you... guarenteed I am not alone in this thinking..and or other kinds of very bad band 'confessions' INFACT.. ban me if I am a detriment to newbies or band people.. I never meant to be that! Bigbellykelly, (thats a hillarious name, I sure hope you gave it to your self!.. thank you for the advice.. I know your right. I bet my belly is bigger than yours.. is sooo big. margo, I loved your post;. you will be a great support to many during this process... and I am glad. I guess all I can say to all your great advice is been there, done that and cant see it happening for myself.. Patty, This is exactly what i wish I could do.. BUT If I could controled myself enough to do the slimfast and lean cuisine thing (did it a hundred times) for any lenght of time and stayed under 1200 calories, I wouldnt have needed the band,, I am really intrerested in how the band has helped you to do this. I mean I know its tight... BUT there IS crap you can eat AND you can eat 5000 calories a day in liquids if you wanted to (or couldnt control your self) I am really really proud of you for doing it this way!!!!!!!!!

alexandrea) Nykee, you're supposed to be getting 60 or so grams of Protein a day, and milk can't be your only source girl) I DO. and no one told me it had to be from any different source.. I even had a nutritional counselor tell me I had to be sure to stay UNDER 80 grams a day.. and to be sure to do THAT.. (I drink alot of milk at night) Alex) You're really heading for nutritional trouble if you continue down this road. (Are you taking Vitamins? I hope I hope? There are lots of chewables out there; even if all you can find are children's vitamins those are fine if you take two.) girl) I take a flinstone chewable like they told me to. And I KNOW I need better nutrition.. I have a long ways to go.. I know this is a "I'll do it later" kinda thing.. but I think I will once I get maybe 100 pounds off, I will be more likely to.. anyway.. I wont have so much stress.. I can have my surgerys.. lots of reasons. Plus I am college educated..and I did alot in that feild.. I KNOW what nutrition is.. (so thats not a problem, like it is for many) alexandrea) If you're determined to stick with this too-tight level of fill, do yourself the immense favor of trying to find better foods to eat. (I AM) alex) Think about high-protein mushy food like cottage cheese, eggs, string cheese, hummus, yogurt, things like that. If you take in more calories in high-quality protein you will be less hungry later in the day, I promise! girl) Well... I got the cheese.. I can eat those slices (A 20$ block a month for the kids) but I avoid them cuz the fat.. but I still have them, And I like eggs but no one will make me any.. lol (and I aint about to) I love the yolk when its kinda mushy and I KNOW THAT would go down (at night) yogart, I cant get into.. or applesauce or pudding.. I dont know why.. I like it.. but I just dont since being banded. (I think cuz it takes up room where I cAn drink milk or juice) BUT aGAIN.. i AM not EATING at night cuz I am hungry.... I am not hungry and hunger doesnt motivate me.. I am a snacker.. The milk and juice and thin soup I get down before night time is enough.. I am not hungry. alex) From the amount of juice you're drinking it seems like you're not having trouble with liquids, so soup shouldn't be an issue unless you're trying to take it in too fast. girl) Well.. it changes throughout the day.. like It was about 12:45 pm, just back from the doctors and shopping and I had to crush pain pills and drink OJ.. and I could only tolerate about 3 ounces.. BEFORE my last fill, I woulda gulped 12 ounces of OJ EASY and be still sipping on it now (or chocolate milk) Around 3pm.. (a kid comes home) and I will get some tomatoe soup and I could try a peice of cheese (even though yesterday I SWORE not to try that again!!! I slimed trying to eat before night and I hated it) alex) Chew everything very, very well and wait a good minute between bites. Girl) I DO!! yeah.. finally something right.. lol I SWEAR.. I AM TAKING care of my band.. IF its true that the slimimng and the PB and the golf ball feelings and all that are what can make your band slip and all that (I know it can anyway) I really really got that under control... I KNOW thats usually very hard and even like completely against the rules.. but thats cuz it leads to so much band abuse and my band is FINE> THANK YOU...... I appreciate your posts cuz your talking my language.. your trying to get through to me in a way I can listen.. (very skillfull you are!) anyway.... I am so glad your here to be someone I can HEAR.. loves

so, I didnt think I was and I did.. I was 380 two months ago and now I am 349!!!!!! I cant feel it, I cant see it..... so I guess I am one of those freaks. lol I been having issues about my band being too tight and wanting it tighter and all freaked out.... and this has alleiviated some of that stress. I WONT GET A FILL.. (secret was I was going to have one at the end of October and see what happened) But, I aint getting an unfil either.. I went food shopping and the changes I made were, I bought some fish, some 7% lean burger for meatloaf, quiche (I know its high in fat but it has nutrients), diet lean cuisines of lasangue and such.. (THESE are for NIGHT TIme.... ) and I only bought one junky food and that was nacho chips and cheesey sauce but once my kids and I eat some tonight, it'll be gone. I know this wont cure the cheetos and Cookies habit cuz I live right by a 7-11... But I am really gonna try.. AGAIN I feel kinda ashamed.. posting here.. and I thought about it alot last night and cried alot and I feel like a fool.. and although I WONT get an unfill, I can at leaste try to do some of the other things I need to do...like eat more healthier food at night and not that crap. thanks again for your support.. I am reposting this at that other place. I gotta fix my ticker also.. its so emotional.. I just cant beleive I weigh 349.. I cant stop crying over it... I mean I have yo yo dieted and been to that... But this is slow steady (kinda) and its gone for good (ya know, more than yoyo dieting) and This was my history December... got my lapband date Feb.15th #415 (no couseling, no nothing..sure you can tell) January to feb. 14th.....lost 4o pounds on a low carb diet (almost easy but hardest thing i ever did) cuz they told me I HAD TO. #374 Feb. .... banded... only 2-3 weeks restriction till I ate normally April... got a 1.1 fill........it made NO difference in restriciton #375 June.... got a 2.4 fill.....had a 9 hour PB on pills, and vomited my own saliva for 30 more hours until Ortiz forced me to the ER and they took it out. (all) Aug...got a 1.6 fill... Knew it was tight.. for 2-3 weeks ALMOST went for an unfil INSTEAD I adapeted to NOT eating (JUST fine) #380 Oct. 7th... weighed at my doctors #349!!! so thats where I am now.. the fill is tight.. and I NEED IT THAT WAY! I am not starving.. I am not malnurashed, And I DO NOT MISTREAT MY BAND! I dont pb, or choke or get golf balls and I STOP as soon as I get a tad bit of weird feeling in the chest.. ok.. so Thanks for listning I wanna come here more and support you guys but I live in a camper now due to a huge loss.... and its at a kitchen table and I am disabled and one to two hours at the table is all I can handle.. (I used to be at a easy chair at a desk) loves

lAMADAME tHATS GREAT... GOOD JOB..YOUR THE BEST

i am trying very hard to take its name away right now but I cant its like once i thought of it, I cant go back.. i wish i didnt do it but it was a very nice idea I can change it to nykee..might maKE A DIFF...

I'll name it nike to be possitive.... maybe it'll help it has nothing to do with the shoe, its something very precious to me that I am even crying right now At the thought of naming it nike then possibly killing it. -+*

Came here to say I give up trying to eat in the lunchtime.. it hurts too much, its too much stress.. and I KNOW thats hurting my band cuz I can feel it hurting my band. I also slimed up my Soup and that pissed me off..cuz i swore I would never let that happen, so, I give up trying to eat earlier, in oreder to be less tight in the morning. I am trying trying trying to see your point in getting an unfill.. BUT this is all I can think: IF I get an unfil, I will only eat more soup.. more drinks...more cheetos and more Cookies...along with any solids that I can get down.. (I KNOW THIS) I stay away from milkshakes and smoothies and coffee drinks.. (with an unfill I wont) I try to mostly have tomatoe soup or spit out allot in a thicker type soup.. (with an unfill I wont) I am full... I am never hungry.. I dont think I have felt hunder once since I got the band... Being hungry or 'saticefied' isnt going to help me. food restriction is the only thing I can see that will help me.. I GET THE food I need. I mean I get enough. I am not malnourashed or dehydrated or even close.. people CAN live in liquids (even though I am not) I dont seee whats wrong with this diet for a while (NOT FOREVER) 20 ounces?...........milk 1% or non fat 20 ounces.............Lite grape juice.. 20 ounces.............lite orange juice Protein shake (though NOT needed.. 8 ounces of milk has 10 grams!) I need to like keep really good track.. I WILL TOMOARROW.. I almost sure I can put away alot more liquid than that. plus One can tomaote soup Slice of toaste with lite butter plus.. I DUNNO.. A bunch of SHIT for dinner cuz I cant keep my hands off the junk once I open up.. I just want a fill sorry

thanks again! The salt thing makes perfrect sense these are things that can really help I am not getting an unfill (though I understand why you all say so) I am not starving AT ALL today I tried to eat at 3-5 pm... instead of 9pm to midnight and it SUCKED. BUT, I did it.. and NOW.. I will drink one cup of ice Water before I go to bed (I HATE water and its all I can do for now.. I WILL do it) The reason is sucked was... at around 5pm all I had had up till them was some juice.. and then I tried some soup..its got chicken in it and corn (its the signiture soup from safeway called chicken fajita) so 3pm.. the soup hurt but I got about 1/2 cup and one chunk of chicken 4:30.. I got another cup or so and two chunks of chicken (I still spit some out) I dont like eating at this time.. I dont like the way it feels... but i am trying. at about 7pm...we had mcdonalds and I had like three chicken nuggets with all the bread torn off and it hurt and I could feel it in my throat and I got really pissed off at the whole experience. then I tried to have a peach smoothis (low sugar) but couldnt really swallow but a few sips cuz of the chicken.. And here I am tonight..NOT EATING! I have cheetos in the cuppord and milk and I am sure I could pig out on some things..(I did have one cookie and three rolo's candies) but I just wanna see if eating earlier in the day works (even if it hurts) I left the house today for the first time in a long while.. I think I did lose weight, but I dont want to get my hopes up. IF.. I have lost weight.. I will give this up for now.. and go back to trying hard to eat right. I go grocery shopping on friday.. I only have 254$ for me and a 13 and 14 yr old girls and a 17 yr old and an 18 yr old who come over all the time (as they NEED to) They respect my need for food and such, but its hard.. I mean I been buying them peanutbutter and jelly and corndogs (ON PURPOSE) cuz its cheap and I wont be getting into that food.. but I used to do a decent job keeping them healthier (no ones fat) anyway. thanks again.

and about counseling.. I have a rap sheet on it plus a degree

Just a suggestion, get your band checked out. Of course you have lost 48 pounds since february and that is pretty awsome. .............. I lost the weight before I went.. on my own.. and in less than a month and a half..(ja.1 to feb. 15) i LOST 41 POUNDS lol i am gonna weight my self this week.. wonder what it will be Las t I knew it was 364

ERIN R thankyou for the invaluable information. This is something I will try. It is very uncomfortable to eat at around 3 pm (lunch, and when my kids get home)(I am disabled) BUT in the last few days beccause Of some other advice, I have been puching my band in some ohter ways and I think this will work. I am gonna try eating the most at that time so I wont evren want to eat so much at night, evven if its too much.. as long as I am not eating at night.. so we can see if maybe I can go back to at leaste somethgin hot in the morning. THANK YOU see. alexandrea gave me sopme advice.. and what I did with her advice was (LOLOLOL) order KFC (the kids were very happy)... ya know, I told her I was gonna chew some of the chicken and spit it out (I know it would of been better to bake it and all that cuz KFC is fat and carbs and crap.. but I was just experimenting at this point. What I found out was that I could take two bites of eat kind (bbQ and crispy) and chew and spit and I KNOW some of it went down, way more than I thought I could handle.. THEN< I took three bites of biscuit and chewed real well and spit but I KNOW some of it went down,.. THEN I took a couple bites of coleslaw (I was so full and saticfied at this point) .. I spit it out, cut I know a few of the square bits stayeed my point is.............I was affraid... It didnt hurt alot, I didnt PB, or gag or slime or nothing.. nothing happened at all.. In all honesy.. I am not happy wiht this knowledge.. BUT.. I havent tried it since.. (ANY BIG MEAL LIKE THAT) wHAT i DO DO NOW IS EAT my Soup without spitting out all the little peices of chicken and corn and rice and such. AND ITS BEEN FINE. Somewhere in here, someone said I was affraid and it was true. Still doesnt solve my problem I think I have where I cant diet and my band has to do all the work, it in fact made it worse.. MAYBE cuz the fact is, I am not looseing weight.. So.. I have to do it differerently.. what wver that differently is. thanks for all the advice and support.

alexandrea...thanks.. lol, I wish i could have a bite of a chicken snacker...but the pain woulndt be worth it....I could start trying the chew and spit thing more... so the nutrients would get in me mre than the mash tatoes and such. i think i will try taking more bites of my kids foods and as long as i spit before swallowing any thing that would hurt. Its still stupid I know, but its something i know i could do, and is alittle better nutritionally... thanks!! love ya dianeb) .maybe you are bloated in the AM . maybe drink more Water to flush your system in the evening . just hang in there .and try new things and see what works girl) THANK YOU!...... Maybe water pills of some kind would be helpfull?? I think I will try to drink a bunch of water beofre bed to see if that will help.. this is the kind of thing i wanted to try to find out, i dont know much about the band and the tummy and where it is and how it wrks... and just wonder if i can get it alittle evened out.. thanks again

THIS IS BULLSHIT. I'm done talking to you because all you say is "can't", "won't", etc. You don't want to hear tips/etc. You want to bitch. That is just fine. I misunderstood that you wanted help. ------ok.. i am sorry for making you feel crappy..your obviously a really sweet person. Please know that I still try.. everday.... I write "no cheetos" at the tp of my grocery list, i bought all healthy request Soups, my juice is the 'lite' new kinds... I tell my kids not to go to kfc for my masged tatoes no mater how i beg.................i could go on and on and on. please know i only say "i cant" and wont cuz.......I never have yet, and i tried with all my might, for 20 yrs, and i am just nt willing to continue to fail and TRY something else!!!! AND Its not that i dont want to hear tips and stuff.... I seriously know everything about it... i have not heard anything new in many years.... Its been the entire focus of my lifer since I went from a 140 pound 15 yr old to a 350 pound 19 yr old... I appreciate your support and concern, i do. Even though YOU don't think you can do it, I still do. I am unwavering in my support of your ability. >>>>>>>>>>thank you Megan <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

renebean, everything you said was absolutely right. Every pharagraph was the truth. Thank you You are beginning to realize that the Band won't do it for you. What you have to realize is that NOTHING can do it FOR you. YOU have to do it. It sucks - it's hell - but its the truth. ........>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>dead on. But I still beleive in a very tight band, with Protein and Vitamins, and being able t0 stop eating when your band gives you the signal toavoid pbing, gag, choke, get food stuck thus your not abusing the band and end up loosing it. (I CAN DO THAT..i prooved it long time now) THAT WILL Work! AND I CAN DO IT!! (i hope) I know its not the right thing to do..but i dont care! All i want is to NOT be 400 pounds, ready to die anymore! People dont have to eat solids to survive. I wont die, after 100 pounds,,,maybe, I'll get a new attitude. definately move more... you know. loves

Nykee.. Give me an example of what/when you eat throught the day. Maybe this will help me understand better. 9am ...one sip of juice.. its hurts alittle but I must do it. comes up often. 10 to 12.... I can drink my milk and juice on ice.. sip it to be able to get it down. Prolly 6 ounces of each. 12 to 3 tomatoe soup sipped.. with milk... maybe 1/2 can if lucky and 6 ounces of milk. OR 1/2 cup of KFC mash totaoed and gravy (nothing can be drank with a mushie..it hurts) OR 1/2 a baked potatoe with butter (nothing to drink) Plus I can tolerate about 10 cheetos and 2 Cookies... Plus I can drink milk and juice at about a cup an hour.. 3 to 7 or so I can have more of those things above... More in quantity.. cus its later.. But I still get paind of restriciton ya know 9pm to midnight I can take big drinks of milk and juice and can drink a 12 ounce cup in 10 minutes. I can eat a family size KFC mashed potatoe and gravy. (I get real FULL, but I dont feel the band pains) and a drink with it too. OR I will have a whole can of soup, I spit out the chicken or veggies or clams cuz I know what I can swallow without the pains... I can even eat a 99cent bag of cheatos and fell NO restrcion. I can have COOKIES with MILK it wont hurt at all.. I eat them till I am just full.. 5 or 10' I will sometimes take a bite of my kids food... like pizza or corn dog. I chew it till it cant be chewed anymore then I spit it out.. ONE bite only cus I always think I might get a pain, even if its night. I can have like a big bowl of sherbert till I am full. I dont eat all of that on the same night.. BUT I have a small vareity of foods i choose to eat I mostly eat soup or potaoes. drink milk and juice.. I eat chips and cookies and sherbeert (lol) I know theres lots of other mushies and drinks out there but this is what I want. ................. There.... obviously I can take in lots of calories with that crap I can eat at night when my restriction just opens right up for some reason. I will eat if can eat......and eat what I can eat.. MY BAND HAS TO DECIDE THAT FOR ME.. MY BAND IS REAL tight UNTIL ABOUT 9pm What you want doesn't exist. Your band will never be uniformly restricting. >>>>>>DO u know that for sure for sure???? MAYBE THERE IS SOMETHING I CAN DO.. to either loosing the day or tighten the night?!!!????? If you haven't moved on to normal food than you are not using your band as intended. >>>>>>>>>I KNOW THAT.. I understand you are scared, but you have to try real food. >>>>>I do! I am tight and will not have a PB or vomit ir get food stuck just cuz I want a food too much for my fill to tolerate. TRUST ME, I eat up until the moment it starts to hurt!!! thats what i need my band for.. <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

You can do this, we know you can. You have to believe you can !!!! >>>>>>>>I beleived I could for 20 years (convinced I could) and I was wrong.. so I dont reallt think its true that you have to beleive you can as much as you have to know if you actually can... How long have you believed you could do it?? If you can't change the amount you eat at night, you can most certainly change what your eating at night. >>>>>>>>>>>NO, I cant. I tried that. I cant resist eating the crap. I only say that cuz I HAVE NOT DONE IT.. (not cuz I am neggative and dont even try) Have you thought about maybe following Weight Watchers or something that will teach you good foods vs. frankenfoods ? >>>>>>>I have thought of EVERYTHING and tried it to.. TRUST ME. ( i dont lie) Another words, instead of eating a big bowl of Pasta at night, have a big bowl of veggie soup thats low in fat >>>>>>>WOOWOWOWOWO is it really that easy? I wonder why anyone would ever stay fat if it were that simple. And I will be having veggie soup, and spitting out the veggies so I dont get any gripes from my band. HUGS !!!! you too.. thanks <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

. You need to buck up, lill' camper. Knock it off. Grow up. Tell yourself whatever it takes to shake yourself out of this funk. >>>>>>>I am doing something most people would never consider doing, its more bucked up and doing what ever it takes than I think most people would even consider doing.... I cant really explain it all short and simple, I mean will try as I am here... But the jist of it is, I have been on liquids and mushies a long while (no intrest to eat again) AT night and its too much, I am not loosing weight. The calories in milk, juice, Soup and mashed potatoes,& cheatoo's my band allows at night is too much to cause weight loss In the day I am resricted on juice and milk and thin soup alone and if I could have that restricion be uniform...night and day.. THEN,, I would loose weight.. and thats all I care to do. I NEVER PB or any thing like that.. I stop drinking the momen th band feels funky... and It never bothers me.. I dont want any more food than my band allows. (It juts happened to me to think that, kinda lucky guess,, sure would suck to miss food or want food and coulndbt have it) Becasuse I never go past my bands first clue to stop.... I dont abuse my band and regardless of how tight I am, I am not abusubg it so I am not worried of it slipping or eroding. To loose the weight... I have to have the restriction I have in the day... to also be the restriction I need at night.. OR I have to watch what I eat at night.... I dont feel like taking the chace that I will try with all my might as I have done for 20 years and let another 2o years go by trying. I have decided to aslo.... try try try to fix my restriction prblem so its uniform. There HAS GOT TO BE A MEDICAL remedy to get my band more uniform in its tightness to be about the same all the time.. I mean my band isnt changing,,, its filled one way.. something in me is swelling or moving or ?????? AND I GOTTA see if I can get it to STOP There. lol My guess is that you are mad for many more reasons than that your band is too tight in the morning. You're probably experiencing emotions that you haven't allowed yourself in a long time (if ever). Run with it. Feel them. Get pissed. Yell, Scream. Whatever it takes. But don't you dare give up on your band. The bypass is no magic bullet either. There is only one thing in both of the surgery options that determine success and that's you. >>>>>>>>>i dont care.. I just want it uniform so I cant eat. I know what I sometimes say doesn't make me very popular...but know that I say things because I have been there. <<<<<<<I dont think you have ever been here... BUT THATS GOOD! <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

Nykee- Sorry to be the bearer of bad news but with this attitude, you are SOL before you even start. >>>>>>your not bearing bad news, I am fully aware... I do not fit what the band is about AT all... I KNOW I am incapible of doing it as its meant to be done..... BUT I do not KNOW I am incapable to finding a way to work it another way that wrks for me. So, I will be trying anythin to do so.. What you are experiencing is pretty typical. The band is only one part of the tools you have to lose weight. You know this. You are fighting it. >>>>>>>>>NOPE, I am not fighting it. I have tried for 20 years to control my eating habbits and I have failed.. and I KNOW I cant do it. I wont wast 20 more years thinking I can...... I am gonna try something else and really dont care this point what I do, as long as its not what I already know I cant do and thats control my eating habits in a way that leads to actual success. (I know what to do, I just dont, its a mental defect for sure, cuz common sense is that I could control it and suceed.) My guess is that if you put as much effort into creating new habits in the evening as you are in fighting yourself and beating yourself up and telling yourself you can't do it- that you would surely succeed. >>>>>>>>Thats a good guess... lots of the time thats the issue..I however am far far far beyond that.. I think I felt that way when I was about 20 yrs old and not really educated or self aware yet.. Why are you drinking juice? Why not just dissolve some sugar in a glass and drink it? >>>>>>>>>So.. You assume I dont know that juice is practically pure sugar, no better than POP or koolaid... I have know that a long long time. Better choice in the morning would be some milk...bring it to room tempature and it will loosen you up a little. Try some warm tea (decaf if you are prone to heartburn), or some yogurt brought up to room tempurature. Drinking/eating anything cold will only make it worse in the morning. >>>>>>>>>>>I tried warm liquids.. But its just too tight.. it really doesnt mattter... I dont drink or eat in the morning. I take one sip to wet my dry mouth.. sometimes it just comes right back out, no biggie.... Its 99% tighter than it is at night. Whats wrong with wanting a more uniform restrictioin.? Maybe you just don't eat until a little later in the day. I typically get up at 6 but don't eat breakfast until 9. >>>>>>>>>I eat what I can when I can. I dont care about that. I care that I need a fill ... and cuz this extreme restriction happens in the day.. If I were to get a fill, it would cause me to choke in the day on my saliva.. I hope theres some kinds of way to fix that is all. The night time thing is tough. >>>>>>>>>its not that its "night"... and night eating is an issue..I know what you mean thoug... Its that my band opens up as if unfills it self at night......then fills it self tight for the day.. I still struggle with it, and I'm 2 years out and pretty resticted. What I found that I had to do was change my habits. If I used to eat while I watched TV(Which I did!) I now do my nails, cross stich, don't watch tv, take a walk, do laundry, work on an project around the house. >>>>>>Greeat tips. Its really cool when those kinds of things work for people. I am glad it did for you. These things all seem very silly until you try. >>>>>Not silly... Silly NOT to try I would think. So maybe set a goal for just tonight. Tonight you will do _______instead of eating. >>>>>>>>Oh I will set the goal.. I always do..its a daily habit.. If you are still hungry after you do this thing, then have something to eat. >>>>>Hunger has nothing to do with my problems. Eat something that has lots of volume without a lot of calories- light popcorn or veggies for example. No one EVER overeats broccoli. >>>>>>>>>My cuppords full of those new mini bags of lite kettle korn..My kids pop them all the time. I might eat alittle. Most likely I will eat eat cheatos.. and I am affraid to swallow any veggibles, unless tomaotoe soup counts. You can do this. You are strong and have decided that you are worthwhile enough to have the surgery, now decide you are worthwhile enough to require more out of yourself. >>>I know I am worhwhile enough... but I have that litlle mental defect remember? I know how that must sound when I say it, but seriously there is no other reasonable explanation except its mentaly broken... and I may be worthwhile but I am not a brain surgeon or Magically able to heal mental illness. .........Thanks for saying all that to me me.... I respect you for it... Your an asset to anyones life who needs support and advice and in a real way (rare) especially in this subject..... Loves

Thanks.... your right... you make sence... But.. I am just mad mad mad.. I know its not gonna happen that I will control what I eat enough while band allows it.. to loose weight. I wont do it. I have tried that 10000 times, I cant, wont.. whatever.. Sooooooooo... if there no options to get my band to act uniform like... I wasted 12,000..$ (I lam dirt poor and 12,000$ coulda bought me a HOME!) and am done unless can get some insurence to pay for a bypass someday.

I got filled on wednesday, I am at 1.6 I have lots of pain everytime I try to sip any juice or milk or a popcycle. In fact its 1pm and I just slimed up after trying to get down 1/2 a popcycle. But around 8 to 10 pm I am able to drink some made with Water, tomatoe Soup (a 10 ounce can) and some milk. I think any thick Protein Drink would kill me so I am scared to even try. My instructions were 24 hour liquids, then mushies.. Its been 4 days and I can barely tolerate liquids and its HOT and its driving me mad.. lol My experience has been.. I was filled to 1.1 and it wasnt enough at all, I could still eat all kinds of junk and I didnt lose any weight. Then I got filled to 2.4 and I took two tiny pills and I ended up choking on them till they came up 7 hours later in tact.. it inflamed me so badly that I for like 30 more hours choked on my own saliva and had to have an emergency unfil in my ER.. (who had never done that before) NOW... I got the Fill.. 1.6 and I am sooooooooooooo happy that I am not choking on my saliva and I am not able to eat.. BUT it still sucks and I cant wait to open up to I can eat some mushies and such and start this thing. anyway... I had my band done in febuary and I have not lost any weight since (my weight loss was from pre sugery) and iI am so happy this is FINALLY on its way!!!

I am at the libary with 7 minutes before log off and wanted to tell ya all that I am doing well. I lost 18 pounds in a week and two days (havent weighed since) The swelling did go down Finally and now I can eat mushy foods and sometimes toast. I am prolly alittle too tight.. but as long as it isnt causing me to PB and gag and all that, than I was told its fine. If I were to be bad to it I would PB and all that, But I dont do it.. (hurts too much) I am able to get in calories at late night with mashed potatoes and soup and juice and its frusterating because I need self discpline that I am so affraid that I just dont have. Weird thing.. I miss salad the most. lol Loves to all. Kelly fitzpatrick did my fill I LOVE HER TO DEATH!!!!!!!!