jamiewilli

I just have to say that I'm so sacred this surgery isn't going to help me, I feel like I always try to eat right but with such a busy life it's so hard! My surgery date was 8/1/13 and I have only lost 35lbs. I'm just so scared all the time, like what if I'm not eating right, or what if I'm eating too much. Eating is very painful for me but I still eat, I live every day feeling nauseous and can't throw up no matter how hard I try. I started working out at curves and feel that that is a good thing, but feel like it's not enough. I am always scared I am stretching my stomach out. I really dont want to have gone through everything to fail again. Tonight I ate a little piece off thin pepperoni pizza & 2 little wings, then think to myself hhhuummm... should I be able to eat that much and as I am writing this wish so bad I could puke. I am writing this here cause I hope someone will get what I'm saying our understand, so please don't be mean or talk rude to me I do that enough to myself. Thank you for letting me vent!

8/1 is my sleeve date start weight 245, now weight 204!!! That's a 41lb loss in a little over 2 months!! :-)

First thing - u have done a great thing for urself - u took control by getting sleeved. It's a brave thing to do. So there's no need for u to be scared, u have shown courage so far, so breathe and look at what's bothering u...
Eating right comes from being organised, irrespective of being busy. I've worked 13 out of last 14 days, so I know where u r coming from but there's always time to shop for the right food.
If eating is painful, check out if u r eating bites that are too big, not chewing enough, eating too fast - or simply eating too much. Try changing how u eat and see if that helps.
Stop trying to throw up. If ur body won't give up the food, u will do damage if u try to make it....and it's unlikely u r stretching ur sleeve, u have to eat excessive amounts regularly over a long period
U r exercising - shut off the negative voice in ur head telling u it's not enough - it's enough for now. We may all want to aim for perfection, but doing the best we can is good enough....
As for failing many of us on here are past masters at that. But u now have ur sleeve. Work with it, let it do its job and u do yours - eat well, eat regularly, keep moving and drink ur liquids. Ur weight loss is great, give ur body - and urself - a chance before u right either off.
So in summary, don't give up, stick with the plan and stop beating urself up. And remember, u r not alone, we r all here for u and its ok to feel scared but push through it, u can do this!

jamiewilli how could i ever "yell" at someone as nice as you????
also - "we" never use the word "only"
you didn't only lose 35 lbs
YOU LOST 35 lbs!!!!
thats terrific
you are right on target with your weight loss
some people might have lost more than you, others less
the one thing we all have in common is that we're all different
you are sooooo early post op - your tummy is still healing
please only eat soft food, maybe some solids too per doc/NUT
you know you shouldn't be eating pizza, wings or stuff like that
so i won't mention it
the expression is.............
just because you can, doesn't mean you should
talk to your NUT/surgeon
go to a support group where you'll meet other sleevers
you know what to do and what NOT to do
this surgery will/does work, as long as you follow the rules
please don't sabatoge yourself now
thinking, you've never had success before, so why now????
the reason now, is you have a helper in the sleeve
your tummy is so little - its "supposed" to hold only a small amount of food
you don't vomit if you eat too much?????
many people don't
don't push yourself to get sick
i know you can do this - got to mentally tell yourself that "this time you will do it"
you can and will do it!!!!!
take care
good luck
kathy

If you believe it won't help you it won't. You have to have positive thoughts and faith that you can work it. It's a tool and the weight loss depends on your efforts, not on the sleeve.