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LifeLiver

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  1. I had my revision on Oct 22nd, 3 weeks post op I was down about 25lbs to 223. I am now 230. I am working out, about 4 times a week. Honestly, I feel like I can eat anything...and always hungry. I am eating around 1200 cal a day. I have my followup appt this week, and am embarrassed to go. I went though all this and feel like I should have had the bypass from band revision. I try to keep protien first, but can eat anything with no difficulty...and I am trying to be mindful and not eat Cookies which are everywhere due to the holiday. Went to a party sat and ate about 10 shrimp so I would not eat the other 100 items spread out...I am trying to keep my spirits up, but I am so sad, and then want to eat and say f-it...its not working. I am not drinking my Water enough...so today I am committing to that. Any advice? I dont want to be the big whinner...I am just scared, sad, and embarrassed.
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    Feeling like a faliure...

    Ahhhhhh I am still sitting at 230- I am being managed by two physicians for metabolic failure. Started on Synthroid, VB12 injections- am estrogen dominant and a slew of other messed up things...all from the Merina IUD. If you have one, get it out...and tell everyone you know never to get one. They are thinking my 2 year nightmare is from the Merina and not my lapband (my story is in my profile)...so I am trying to keep my head up, it is almost unbearable. 3 months out from my sleeve and I have lost 15 lbs...a joke, and have lost nothing since November 6th. They keep telling me it is not a nutritional issue but a hormonal/metabolic issue. I was restricted to not working out at all for the next two weeks to see if the added stress of working out was working against me. So...no change, still frustration...but I am not letting the fucking scale define me, I am so much more than that.
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    Valentine's Challenge

    230 goal 210! thanks!
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    Valentine's Challenge

    Am I too late? I have my weight from Friday and would like to join...let me know
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    Didn't work for me.

    I have continued to be worked up, and not sure if my situation is similar to yours but I will offer what I have been told. Because of the severe calorie restriction with the band for 9 years, on top of that I had a merina IUD placed two years ago...it has basically put me in a chemical hormone metabolic failure. My sleeve was evaluated, and I am rapidly dumping into my small bowel and my esophagus is stretched and large. SO...not sure if any of this is what could be happening to you...but I eat 1200 cal a day, work out 4 days a week...and have lost nothing in 2 months because my body will not release it. I now am on 150 Protein a day, low fat, high Fiber diet...Merina out, and on phentamine to try and get things moving.
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    Feeling like a faliure...

    that brought me to tears...thank you...your right. This is not the end...It is just so awful to not be loosing, and eating mindfully, not engaging in all the party food. AND have people around me see how heavy I still am 2 months after surgery. I am having my true metabolic rate tested on NYE in a lab...to find out if I am in metabolic failure or what is going on...thanks for your support...means more than you may ever know.
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    Feeling like a faliure...

    Checking in...I have stayed away from almost all christmas Cookies, any bad food...journaling and working out 4 times a week and yet I still have not lost. My OB thinks it was my IUD, took it out last week...we shall see...but I am not 9 weeks out, and sitting at 231. It is the most horrific nightmare ever.
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    Soup

    Yes, I test the waters. I have had PB with no trouble at all. Eoth was fine after 4 weeks...but I rarely drink so not a big deal for me.
  9. I was 4 years out when I was pregnant, gained 70lbs...took me 2 years after baby to loose 100, but I did it!
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    Soup

    I went from puree to soup in 10 days...15 days post op was eating normal food...including steak
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    Band to sleeve success question....

    Well...sounds like we can be sisters..I was banded in 2004, lost 190 lbs...had total body lift that I paid oop for. I puked my way down to 175...I started gaining in 2011..10lbs, then 15...then went in for evaluation and found out that I had completely occluded off and my esophagus was huge..opened up my band and I gained 27lbs in 5 days...of eating normal...not overeating. I had the sleeve on 10/22- never lost another pound after 11/6...and have slowly gained 10 lbs in the last month...even with working out and eating around 1200 cal a day. The doctors put me on fentermine 3 days ago to see if will jump start my metabolism. I am so sad, but wondering if my esoph is still huge...but physically it is not possible for me to be gaining...so I need to trust things will balance out...I am now up to 234.
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    Didn't work for me.

    This hits home. I am 2 months out, struggle every day starving. Eating 1200 cal a day..I could eat 12000. I have gained 10 lbs in a month, even with low calories and exercising I am so sad...surgeons are perplexed why i am not loosing...logged all my food and staying away from carbs. I am distraught..
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    16 months after surgery

    I had a sleeve done 10/22, I am distraught, I am always hungry. I can eat alot, and take in about 1200 cal a day...being mindful and choosing wisely. I was down to 223 on 11/6 and since then have gained..up to 235 today. How is this even possible as 1lb is 3500 calories! I am working out...I am so sad. Sorry to bust in on your positive post, but looking for advice from you...
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    Christmas - New Year Challenge

    Is there a way to invite me to the next challenge so I dont miss it?
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    Christmas - New Year Challenge

    Is there a way to invite me to the next challenge so I dont miss it?
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    Feeling like a faliure...

    Thank you all for the time you took to respond. I am in the dumps..and wonder how much is self sabatage...I am a pro at it . I am going to focus on the good...one hour at a time.
  17. I am feeling very frustrated and scared that I will not loose the weight...I have been taking in around 1100 cal a day, excercising. I have not been totally compliant (like eating a homemade chocolate chip cookie) However, I need to LIVE and find quality of life. I am working on keeping my Water up, and in intense boot camps...so please tell me this is going to break soon? Down about 25 lbs in a month, but all of that was lost in 2.5 weeks from surg. I have not lost anything since 11/6 and had my sleeve on 10/22. So maybe I am just being crazy, but I feel like I am mindful of my food, Protein first...limited intake and still no change on the scale. Looking for advice from those who have been in my shoes...
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    Going On Week 3 Of A Stall...

    Thank you...I have been mindful of almost everything, and only thing is not getting in 100 oz of Water...about 60 a day. The scale is not moving, driving me absolutly insane. I do low carb because of eating basically Protein first. Yesterdays meals Loaded with veg one egg omlet String cheese Black Bean homemade Soup 8 mini shrimp grilled squash 3 ounces of meatloaf coffee water
  19. My journy started in 2004 with a Lap Band. I had great success...well vomitng all the way...loosing 190 lbs over 5 years. During the last three years I had real issues of severe left internal pain- transvaginal US showed nothing. Constipation with ribbon stools...colonoscopy- just increase my Fiber. Cardiac issues...I could go on and on...and always in the back of my mind I thought It was the band. Fast forward to June of 2013...slowly I was gaining weight, and my abdomen was distended and firm. I went to a new PCP who ordered an upper GI. My first ever. Well...my esophagus was completely occluded...and the doctors wondered how I was getting anything in. Emergently 3 ccs were removed from my band...and in 5 days I gained 30 lbs. The surgeon said my body was in starvation mode for so long, by liver was just shooting out fat cells like crazy. I waited for insurance approval for the sleeve, working out each day and keeping my calories around 1400. By the time surgery was scheduled Oct 22, I was up about 50lbs. Surgery...lets say my abdomen was a war zone. Severe inflamation, and acute allergic response obviously by body rejecting the band. It took the surgeon 5 hours to clear the adhesions,and work around the inflammation. My spleen was nicked...no big deal. 12 hours after surgery I was crashing, and brought back to surgery. 2 liters of liquid blood and large clots were found in my abdomen. 5 hours and 4 surgeons in my case examined each area of my battlezone belly...and the bleed was discovered under my liver- about a 50 cent peice of liver was lacerated. Turned out the band had grew into my liver (remember the pain I was having 3 years prior...yup) and when removed took out part of my liver. I will spare you the rest of the recovery details..but glad to be alive. I will be reporting my complications to the FDA. I cannot believe bands are still put in. I will also be publishing my case, eventually. I am down about 25 lbs, but have been at a stall for the last week...I hear this is common, and hoping each day it will pass. I am very happy with my sleeve. I am hungy, which I was hoping would go away. I have no difficulty eating anything, and as a risk vs. reward kind of girl..I have tested out bread, and yep no problem. I am so grateful to be alive, and my story will be told to stop the madness of the band. It is no way to live.
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    Dying To Be Thin...

    WOAH...who knew this much passion was behind the type of surgeries we have had. I stand by my statement, my truth. What sets me apart from any discussion of band vs. sleeve, is I have had BOTH. I was a SUCCESSFUL band patient, loosing 190 lbs. However that did come at a cost...if we really reflect on our lives and living with a band, I do not need to explain more. I was the biggest band promoter, until the complications started. Even with my constant vomiting, and hiding the fact I could not enjoy a meal...I am a master of denial and incognito. I will also say please be mindful of experience. My complications were very real, and very real for many. Look at Australlia studies...we new complications before bringing to the US. Risk vs. reward...and I will tell my story, I will publish in medical journals and I will be meeting with the FDA. IF you have a great band experience, that is great. May you take nuggets from my experience and just tuck them away to be aware if signs happen to you, it may be caught earlier. I also gave you a 5 minute snippet of the last 2 years, my story is much deeper and many providers missed open cues...so again, my point is not to say bands suck...but they are objects placed in our bodies, and at some point they are bound to be attacked upon. As a new sleeve patient, and experiencing both...I am super excited for my future, and last night enjoyed a meal with my fiance never once leaving the table because something was stuck. Beautiful, quality of life
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    Dying To Be Thin...

    Thanks for your thoughts Hazel. I like you, was very proud of my band...however I was on year 9...and complications are very real, and very under-reported to the FDA. Until about a year ago, I was supporting the band, and encouraging others. As a masters prepaired nurse, I am a patient advocate, and very involved in literature and evidence based practice. All I know is my acute allergic response at year nine, started about year 7...I need to make sure the public is informed of potential complications. As an advocate in healthcare, I was still lost in the system...until I knew I was dying on the inside..and indeed I was.
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    Dying To Be Thin...

    Thanks all! Today, 3 weeks out...I feel better So excited to start living again.
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    OCTOBER SLEEVERS- How Ya Doin'?

    Hi all, i am a fellow October gal...I had a band revision to sleeve...almost died due to complications with the band-but 2 surgeries later I am recovering. Surg Oct 22nd, spent 9 days in the hospital due to all the complications. I am relieved to see a 3 week stall is common, I have lost about 25lbs but nothing since 11/8...makes me sad! I am eating with no difficulty, about 800 cal a day. Please tell me this weight stall is going to go away soon...
  24. Ready for some RAW confessions-I have spent the last 8 years living (or dying to be thin) with my band. For the most part I have lived a life of chronic vomiting, severe restriction, with a trade off of loosing 190 lbs at one point. About two years ago, my weight has been creeping up, at 6ft tall I can hide pounds pretty easily...but after 20 lbs the battle was on. At 205 I started to panic and got a trainer, and really watched my food. For the most part, because I could not eat alot without vomiting...I was always eating. And because I was always vomiting, I thought I could eat whatever I wanted...because I would throw it up after all. On June 15th of this year, I managed to gain 10 lbs over a weekend. I thought this is crazy, what is happening with my body? I found a trainer, and began working out every day...still doing my daily gig of eating and vomiting. Well, I went to see a new PCP, and admitted to my band problems and concern with weight gain at very high rates. All labs have come out normal...and I thought this is it, I am going to eat well and get my life in control...so off I went for my first upper GI since banded...and guess what, total restriction, nothing getting through & my esophagous was 3 times the size it should be. The radiologist was wonderful, and being a Clinical Nurse Specialist I am pretty wise in medical stuff, and can talk my way (or manipulate) through most things. So I told him I would go get it assessed and unfilled. I did, I was following the rules to be healthy. I weighed in at 207 (working out, eating well) and was actually really excited to eat normal for the first time in 8 years. I felt like I was freed from survivor and off the island and could eat! I guzzled water, I ate...and did not binge but enjoyed every meal. On Monday getting ready for work, my pants were TIGHT...got on the scale and in FIVE days gained 23 lbs. I freaked, called my PCP, ran blood work, all normal. I had a theory my fat cells were trying to blow up again. Yesterday I met with a new surgeon and he confirmed that exactly that....that my body was trying like hell to reset to 360lbs. SO my question for you all, can you relate to anything I am saying? I am scared to death, crying, sobbing and grieving this weight nightmare. He has recommended a conversion to the sleeve...Please help me understand the good & the bad? He went ahead and filled me with 2.5 cc to stop the rapid weight gain...and so now my puking has resumed. I have never been so open about my experience, but I am ready to live again...and cannot believe I have destroyed my metabolism...I thank you in advance for your help.
  25. Thank you all for your support, means the world

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