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yep, I've got the squishy tummy, too, along with wrinkly thighs and amazing batwing arms. I do believe I can fly.

Or in a candle lit room after downing a bottle of wine

So, I've rode a total of 25 miles this week which I think brings me up to 30 for the month. I also did the first day of the C25K app yesterday and I lived to tell about it!

5 miles this morning, for a total of 35 for the month.

According to the chart at my doctor's office, a 10 year old should weigh about 70 pounds. That's how much I've lost this year, 25 of it since my surgery 9/16. I'm feeling pretty good about that right now!
Had my one month follow up appointment this afternoon and I had prepared myself to be lectured by the surgeon about not having lost enough weight. Surprisingly, he was happy with my progress as well. Of course he couldn't let me enjoy it for long, because he made sure to remind me that 25 pounds,considering what I have to lose, is just a drop in the bucket. Wants me to lose 90 pounds in the next five months, and I honestly have no idea if that's doable or not but I'm just gonna keep doing what I'm doing since apparently it's working!
I'm having a lot of people come up to me at work now commenting on the fact that I'm losing weight, funny how that happens. Nobody goes up to a coworker and says, "hey man, looks like you've aired up that old spare tire". I don't mind the questions, just don't understand why people care so much about someone else's body. /shrug
I looked in the mirror today and I saw a real difference in my appearance, talk about surreal! I'm really looking forward to seeing what I look like in another 70 pounds! And collar bones, I wanna see my collar bones!!

You both look awesome, congratulations!

I love that you are finding your voice! I wrote in another post that my fat was a barrier between me and the world - it allowed me to justify uncaring behaviour in others towards me and stopped me from expecting more. But no longer...
You have had a tough time but if you are finding your voice, only good can come if it. Congratulations on your amazing weight loss to date!!!!

I don’t think I’m a food addict, but it’s early yet so maybe I’ll change my mind as time goes on. I do know without a shadow of a doubt that I had/have some VERY disordered eating habits.
My father grew up very poor, in a house where wasting food was something that didn’t happen. If it was on your plate, you ate it. My mother grew up as the care giver, food preparer for a super morbidly obese father, who liked everything fried in lard and topped with gravy. These were the eating habits that were passed on to me as a child. Every meal had bread, most had gravy, and lots of it was fried. My mother never did learn how to serve normal sized portions so our plates were heaped full of food and my father insisted that it was finished.
Needless to say I was a chubby kid, and once puberty hit and I realized that boys didn’t like fat girls, I purposely tried to get fat. It worked…
Fast forward to my early 20’s, had a baby, married a guy who had to have rice at every meal and also insisted if we cooked it we ate it. That relationship ended, and eventually I ended up in a very bad relationship for 8 years with someone who used food to say I’m sorry. There were a lot of fights, so there was a lot of food. I surrounded myself with friends, all of whom were fat, and every get together was about food.
Thankfully, three years ago I finally worked up the courage to walk away from that relationship and this summer I decided that I needed to put me first, and do the things I needed to do for myself. It hasn’t been easy, these past two months, changing habits that I built up over a life time. I find that I always have to measure my food out, if I don’t I will eat too much every time. This makes eating at a restaurant very difficult for me so I try to avoid them. I eat too fast and there have been more than a couple of times that I’ve taken a bite or two even after I felt full. Then I get sick and say I won’t do it again, but old habits are hard to break.
So I don’t think I’m an addict, I don’t miss not being able to eat (maybe once I feel hunger again that will change) but I need to learn how to kick the very bad habits that I’ve learned over the past 38 years. It’s kind of weird; I’ve lost 90 pounds this year, half before and half after surgery and I’m finding my voice now. I don’t have my shield of fat to hide behind anymore so I’m having to find a way to be comfortable with attention, and learning to tell the toxic people in my life that it’s time to take a hike.
Probably way more here than anyone wanted to know about me, and I didn't stay completely on topic, but once I started it all came out! Thanks for starting this thread, very interesting and VERY informative!!

I don’t think I’m a food addict, but it’s early yet so maybe I’ll change my mind as time goes on. I do know without a shadow of a doubt that I had/have some VERY disordered eating habits.
My father grew up very poor, in a house where wasting food was something that didn’t happen. If it was on your plate, you ate it. My mother grew up as the care giver, food preparer for a super morbidly obese father, who liked everything fried in lard and topped with gravy. These were the eating habits that were passed on to me as a child. Every meal had bread, most had gravy, and lots of it was fried. My mother never did learn how to serve normal sized portions so our plates were heaped full of food and my father insisted that it was finished.
Needless to say I was a chubby kid, and once puberty hit and I realized that boys didn’t like fat girls, I purposely tried to get fat. It worked…
Fast forward to my early 20’s, had a baby, married a guy who had to have rice at every meal and also insisted if we cooked it we ate it. That relationship ended, and eventually I ended up in a very bad relationship for 8 years with someone who used food to say I’m sorry. There were a lot of fights, so there was a lot of food. I surrounded myself with friends, all of whom were fat, and every get together was about food.
Thankfully, three years ago I finally worked up the courage to walk away from that relationship and this summer I decided that I needed to put me first, and do the things I needed to do for myself. It hasn’t been easy, these past two months, changing habits that I built up over a life time. I find that I always have to measure my food out, if I don’t I will eat too much every time. This makes eating at a restaurant very difficult for me so I try to avoid them. I eat too fast and there have been more than a couple of times that I’ve taken a bite or two even after I felt full. Then I get sick and say I won’t do it again, but old habits are hard to break.
So I don’t think I’m an addict, I don’t miss not being able to eat (maybe once I feel hunger again that will change) but I need to learn how to kick the very bad habits that I’ve learned over the past 38 years. It’s kind of weird; I’ve lost 90 pounds this year, half before and half after surgery and I’m finding my voice now. I don’t have my shield of fat to hide behind anymore so I’m having to find a way to be comfortable with attention, and learning to tell the toxic people in my life that it’s time to take a hike.
Probably way more here than anyone wanted to know about me, and I didn't stay completely on topic, but once I started it all came out! Thanks for starting this thread, very interesting and VERY informative!!

I am not who you are looking for but I just have to give you a HUGE round of applause for your achievements pre-op! Congratulations on losing over 100 pounds already. What an amazing accomplishment!

I can't wait to hear about your progress after your surgery.

:wub:

So, I've rode a total of 25 miles this week which I think brings me up to 30 for the month. I also did the first day of the C25K app yesterday and I lived to tell about it!

Hmmm, if I did this right I'm at 42%
Not too shabby!
[84/(380-180)]*100

Ohh I've been thinking about getting one of those! That or a thigh master!

I confess that exercise is my crossover addiction. And now that I cannot exercise I have replaced it with shopping. When I max out my credit cards I may turn to Internet porn.
As of now the porn is just a hobby.

You need to repeat kindergarten.

5 miles this morning and turned up the resistance on the bike so my legs are feeling it!

Thought y'all would find this funny! Under my desk at work!!!! Peddling away!

5 miles this morning and turned up the resistance on the bike so my legs are feeling it!

5 miles this morning and turned up the resistance on the bike so my legs are feeling it!

5 miles this morning and turned up the resistance on the bike so my legs are feeling it!

5 miles this morning and turned up the resistance on the bike so my legs are feeling it!

5 miles this morning and turned up the resistance on the bike so my legs are feeling it!

That's because you are always stealing her panties and wearing them...

Do any of y'all - not quite at goal- find it difficult to buy clothing?? I've been shopping like crazy, but buying nothing. I finally cleaned out my closet last week (which was much more emotional than I thought it'd be), and I now have a grand total of 3 short sleeve shirts, one long sleeve shirt, and one jean (which is either being worn or washed).
Yesterday my husband brought me shopping and forced- yes, FORCED (LOL) me to buy clothing. I bought a total of 4 pieces of clothing- which somehow it still messed with my head. (One being a flattering pencil skirt from The Limited in size 12- 12!! I've never in my life seen that size in my closet!)
I guess at size 12, I shouldn't still be trying to wear 18s. LOL.

I will have my first post surgery date, in a couple of weeks. Guy knows about my surgery, he sent me flowers while I was in the hospital and talked to me on phone pre op to help me through jitters then talked to me immediately post op and through the night, making sure I was ok. We've been friends for over a year, if only he didn't live in Georgia... I will be 6 weeks out by time he visits so we will go to dinner and I'll watch him eat! Lol