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Sounds like an awesome vacation! Glad you had a good time!!

I'm in Fresno too. No surgery yet but met my pre-op goal weight as of yesterday so hoping to be scheduled soon!

I have nothing really constructive to add but your post made me laugh out loud!

Isn't the shopping one crazy? I walk into a store I have never been able to buy from and I absolutely can not leave without buying something....

I'm sorry about your brother, Laura. I know all to well what kind of pain that leaves for people who were left behind.
My brother also took his own life twelve years ago and I've been angry with him since. I never really got to grieve for him because somebody needed to be the "strong one", and my parents (understandably) fell apart.
I'm sure that as I continue to work on all my crap, I'm going to go through that grieving process. It kind of scares me, to be totally honest, I'm comfortable with anger, I know anger.
Vulnerability freaks me the fucked out and makes me want to run and hide.

I'm sorry about your brother, Laura. I know all to well what kind of pain that leaves for people who were left behind.
My brother also took his own life twelve years ago and I've been angry with him since. I never really got to grieve for him because somebody needed to be the "strong one", and my parents (understandably) fell apart.
I'm sure that as I continue to work on all my crap, I'm going to go through that grieving process. It kind of scares me, to be totally honest, I'm comfortable with anger, I know anger.
Vulnerability freaks me the fucked out and makes me want to run and hide.

I'm sorry about your brother, Laura. I know all to well what kind of pain that leaves for people who were left behind.
My brother also took his own life twelve years ago and I've been angry with him since. I never really got to grieve for him because somebody needed to be the "strong one", and my parents (understandably) fell apart.
I'm sure that as I continue to work on all my crap, I'm going to go through that grieving process. It kind of scares me, to be totally honest, I'm comfortable with anger, I know anger.
Vulnerability freaks me the fucked out and makes me want to run and hide.

I'm sorry about your brother, Laura. I know all to well what kind of pain that leaves for people who were left behind.
My brother also took his own life twelve years ago and I've been angry with him since. I never really got to grieve for him because somebody needed to be the "strong one", and my parents (understandably) fell apart.
I'm sure that as I continue to work on all my crap, I'm going to go through that grieving process. It kind of scares me, to be totally honest, I'm comfortable with anger, I know anger.
Vulnerability freaks me the fucked out and makes me want to run and hide.

As of this morning, I am officially OVERWEIGHT!!
I started this journey almost 7 months ago (May 16 '13) at 263.8. I was a tight size 20 bottom, XXL top, 42DDD boobs and a BMI that labeled me morbidly obese. As of today, I am 168.8, only 8.8 pounds away from my original goal (which I've since lowered but...). I am in a loose size 12 but could move into 10s if I liked the pants tight look. I wear a size L top but everyone says a Medium looks better. My boobs are now a 36D and my BMI has finally hit OVERWEIGHT!!!
I am so freaking happy. I haven't been this size since college. I've lost exactly 95 pounds and my new mini goal is 100 pounds by Christmas!!

Being an assED holed teenager shows that you cared and felt safe with him..
At least that's what I tell myself when my 17 year old is acting that way

I don't think you're more fucked than the rest LV.
I don't post here a whole lot, mostly because I just don't feel like I fit in. I go to a support group once a month but keep coming back here because I feel like I need more.
Have shared a couple of times before why I'm fat, and what it basically boils down to is I am fat because I don't feel like I'm worthy of being loved. I ate to stay fat so nobody would want me. I'm working on that, and it's going to be a very long hard road to get where I want to be. Losing the weight isn't going to make those feelings go away, and I've already caught myself wanting to stuff my face more than once because I've been getting emotionally closer to someone. Its rough...

Oh yeah I still work on the physical stuff every day. I eat what I'm supposed to, get my protein, and try really hard to get all my Water in. The water seems to be what I struggle with most but I'm getting there :-)
I am still drinking one Protein Drink per day which is a little annoying because I'm really sick of them, but if I didn't drink one I fall short on my protein count.

More like, I've been married so long I know I'm not getting any anywhere else so why care?

You look amazing, and that's a really pretty dress!

I bought that book for my daughter a couple of years ago. There is a movie being made out of the story too if I'm remembering my movie previews right!

I also read a ton, and so do both of my kids. Another series of books that we enjoy (and I got my dad to read) was the Drizzt Do'Urden series by R. A. Salvatore.
Omg I love Wheel of time! One of my employees is very active in the forum/gathering of WoT events, organizes their conferences, has set up a charity for it, etc. She got us into it. My husband has read them all, I've read about 7 of them.

Game of thrones, I have to tell you, I read the first one and started the second. Then I realized that I pretty much didn't give a crap if any of those characters lived or died so I decided it was time to read something else it just didn't appeal and frankly I didn't find them well written.

Before I got addicted to this forum, I used to read for 3-4 hours a day, so I'd end up reading 2-3 books a week. Right now, I'm reading Allegiant, Amy Tan's new book, and good calories, bad calories.

But I spend too much time in here

Omg I love Wheel of time! One of my employees is very active in the forum/gathering of WoT events, organizes their conferences, has set up a charity for it, etc. She got us into it. My husband has read them all, I've read about 7 of them.
Game of thrones, I have to tell you, I read the first one and started the second. Then I realized that I pretty much didn't give a crap if any of those characters lived or died so I decided it was time to read something else it just didn't appeal and frankly I didn't find them well written.
Before I got addicted to this forum, I used to read for 3-4 hours a day, so I'd end up reading 2-3 books a week. Right now, I'm reading Allegiant, Amy Tan's new book, and good calories, bad calories.
But I spend too much time in here

I stall a LOT. I think I stall for half the time, and the other half of the time, I lose little bits. During my first 90 days, I spent 39 of those in sold stalls.
Despite that, I've gone from a size 18/20 in jeans to 12/14 and from a 2x to a L in tops in 4 months. So I guess it's going to come off, just not according to my preferred pace. The first two times I freaked even though I understood what was happening. Now I'm like, meh. Whatever.
I mean, what would I change anyway? I'm already doing what I should.

No, they really aren't.

The Wool series is great!
I'm in trashy fiction mode and reading the Sookie Stackhouse books that the TV series True Blood is based on. I haven't seen the tv shows. I actually read constantly and have read almost 70 books in 2013. A lot of them this year were about weight loss surgery and the sleeve and nutrition.
On my list for next year is to finally read the Game of Thrones books and the Wheel of Time books.

My 15 yo boy loves Michael Grant's "Gone" series - v scifi and a bit violent but in a Hunger Games kind of way. He asked his Dad and I to read them and we both have - great characters. He's written a new series, titled something like Bzkr (short version of Berzerker, I think). Tom has just read the first book of that and was right into it. Anything that gets a boy reading is a bonus IMO.
I think this thread really does have something for everyone. Wow.

She's 14, and I haven't read them so don't know if that's too old or not but she has them all and loves them!
Another series she likes is the Maximum Ride books by James Patterson, and he also has another series called Witch & Wizard that she likes a lot.

My daughter is sitting here (because I asked her about those other books that GG mentioned) raving about a book called The Fault In Our Stars by John Green.
I agree that teen fiction is a million times better than what was available when I was a kid. I pretty much didn't bother with reading books that I was a target audience for, instead I read Stephen King and Dean Koontz. Now I'm just as quick to read one of my daughter's books as I am one of my own!

The Book Thief was great. The Fault in Our Stars had so much hype that it didn't stand a chance to live up to it. I did like it, though.

I just asked my daughter if she'd heard of the Veronica Roth books and she got pretty excited saying yes LOL! Guess I'll have to borrow her books and read them myself!