Mrs.FullerRN

Awesome!!! I can't wait to do this. I HATE my dl picture

G2 is on my acceptable list of clears

I'm scheduled 10/14 and I'm scared to death. Some people tell me it means I'm not ready but most say its totally normal

I recently tried advocare and it was good

Oh no' date=' I can see what the worry is.

The person above is right! Run don't walk to therapy.

Good luck dear![/quote']

I've seen the therapist. I didn't lie. She approved me.

Ok....

So I read some of the threads you have started' date=' and, well, most if them are full of doubts and fears.

At least three are about dying, and several about not being ready so...

My take away? My opinion?

Your not ready. Plain and simple you are going into this with too many doubts.

Now I'm not saying that all of us should just feel "hey no problem let me just take the leap".

But I measured the risks and in my case (yes I have children I adore) it was a death sentence to stay obese (serious health problems)

I really feel that in your heart of hearts you feel this is not a good move for you?

I don't know... But if you go to your profile and look at all your started threads and read them again you might figure out why this might be a mistake.

Going in with so many doubts, ends up in regrets most of the time.[/quote']

Well, idk. I would be terrified of dying if I was going in to have an exploded appendix removed or a cancerous tumor. I am scared of everything. My fears are irrational most of the time and I know this. I'm scared of living this life feeling like **** all the time. I'm scared of dying in surgery. Idk if that means I'm not ready. It could just mean I'm not ignorant.

After the episode I just had in my closet, I think I'm willing to risk it. My health IS bad. At preadmission testing the MD told me I'm basically a medical trainwreck waiting to happen. Pre diabetes, liver enzymes sky high, insulin resistance. I'm not sick now, but I could be soon.

We all fear the things we don't know about. And being in an operating Tom is something many people really do not know much about. I am a RN mad been in the operating room day after day. That fear isn't there for me. Others are tho. Put your self in Gods hands and all will be well. He has given our doctors the abilities and knowledge to do this door us. You will be fine!!!! And thin very soon!!!

Well, I am an RN too. Soooo I know too much, that's the problem.

I can spot someone in public who has had gastric bypass. They always look tired, anemic, have large calves and very saggy skin on their arms and neck. Maybe I'm nuts but I swear I see it all the time! I'm not bashing anyone who choses bypass, just noting my observations.

I think about 2 things all day, every day. What if I die and my kids don't have a mother? What if I don't die and my kids have a healthy, fun, thin, happy mom? My baby will never even know me.

It seems like either way I'm making the wrong decision. I know I'll never lose the weight without the surgery. But I would rather my kids have a fat mom than no mom.

I'm scheduled 10/14. Ahhhhh!

Seems like child abuse to me.

This is odd to me. After having 75% of your stomach removed to lose weight...you want to eat drive thru fried food?

Unless you're at goal, I think your surgeon would faint.

I'm getting sleeved 10/14 but have an appointment 10/2 with my surgeon because he at my initial consult I was planning on lap band and didn't ask much about the sleeve. My list is below. I would like to know what you asked or what you wish you would have asked before surgery.

1. What role do residents play in my surgery?

2. What size boogee do you use?

3. Do you use the tool that cuts and staples at the same time or do you cut and then staple?

4. Do you suture the sleeve to underlying fascia to prevent stricture, if not why?

5. How do you know if my sleeve is the right size and not too big or too small?

What else should I ask??

My surgery is 10/14 and sometimes I dream if awful things like mourning food and being in a lot of pain and not being able to work. But I also dream of amazing things like slipping into a pair of perfect curve hugging jeans or chasing my kids around. I dream of my sleeve almost nightly.

I am super apple shaped. I once lost about 50 lbs and I was looking pretty proportionate. My butt was more noticeable because it wasn't competing with back fat as much. I hope it's the same with the sleeve

I won't miss getting tired out just getting dressed for work. Squat, jump, tuck, suck in, lay down..blah

Let alone how tiring my job is at this weight

I do feel like I settled, yes. I am an educated, smart, classy woman with big goals. My husband is not a very motivated man. I love him and he's good to me and our kids. I do think that if I had had more self esteem I would have married someone who wasn't so stagnant.

At least he's good looking

I currently live in Plano' date=' Texas; but I'm from Grand Rapids, MI. I miss home so much.[/quote']

Flint is a **** hole. The west side of the state is pretty though

There is no harm in holding off. I am not sure that will change anything. It may be benfical to talked to a therapist about what mental blocks are occuring. I do not think we are meant to be miserable' date=' but happiness is not a number on a scale. Surgery only helps with the stomach. We have to do our own work on our head.

If I recall correctly, you struggle also about having to possibly stopping nursing. Maybe waiting until that is over to proceed.[/quote']

I guess I should clarify that. I'm happy. I have such a blessed life. Literally the only complaint I have is my weight. But it hangs over me like a black cloud, shadowing all my other happy things.

It was just a question' date=' not that it is relevant. I'm being sleeved in October on the 18th, 2013. Noticed you were an RN, so I'm I and just wondered who you were going with.[/quote']

Dr. Farhan in Flint, MI

Where are you having your surgery' date=' what doctor?[/quote']

Why is this relevant

I'm scheduled 10/14 for my sleeve. I just feel like what if I'm not ready? They said we have to change our habits before surgery. Well I have not. Tried the Atkins diet for 4 days before eating pizza in a carb-deprived craze.

Then again I feel like if my habits were changed, there would be no need for surgery. I know without surgery ill never change. I've been feeling like this is the tool I need but maybe I just am meant to be fat and miserable forever.

No it's not a blood thinner, it's basically Vicodin

Woowoo! Look at your curves! Amazing!

Me too!

I'm 10/14 toooo

10/14 by Dr. Farhan at Hurley Medical Center