awalsh45

I just keep making myself walk around the house, I can't count how many laps I've done around the dining room table....even at 4 am! lol, it absolutely gets better with each day...no doubt. =) good luck!!!

Ok today is the day that my relationship with food changes forever, my surgery is at 5 pm today

Ok today is the day that my relationship with food changes forever, my surgery is at 5 pm today

Ok today is the day that my relationship with food changes forever, my surgery is at 5 pm today

Ok today is the day that my relationship with food changes forever, my surgery is at 5 pm today

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Ok today is the day that my relationship with food changes forever, my surgery is at 5 pm today

Ok today is the day that my relationship with food changes forever, my surgery is at 5 pm today

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

Surgery tomorrow for me I am asking for anyone that can and would like to, to please pray, I am a little nervous!

At sticking to this pre-op diet. I'm seriously losing my mind over here. It's not necessarily the diet but it's all this **** I'm having to deal with right now on top of the diet (personal life issues, preparing for surgery, paying bills before surgery, etc.) I just keep cheating and feeling horrible, cheating and feeling horrible. I don't understand why I can't just stick to it! I crack under pressure a lot and the stress I'm having to deal with is really getting to me. Oh not to mention I'm PMSing. My boyfriend hates me right now, I've been such a b***h! I just want this surgery to be over with but then at the same time I'm having second thoughts. I'm worried I'm gonna be one of those people that just constantly pushes the limit on food. Ugh I shouldn't even be thinking like this. I DON'T want to be like this. I just have no willpower and it just makes me depressed. Honestly I don't care if I'm fat, I've never had a problem with how I look. I'm getting this surgery for my health. I feel like I should mean more to me and I should take this diet more seriously but yet I just ate fried rice on Sunday. I feel pathetic right now :/
Jeez that was long and I could just keep going! So many thoughts running through my head, May 28th can't come soon enough!
Thank you to anyone who actually takes the time to read this.