SuperKen

I completely lost my way. Where to start

Dropwt4life: Everything you said I already know. I just needed to here it from others. Thank Man. And thanks for all the wonderful rapid responses I received from everyone. I had forgotten how essential the BariatricPal community is. [emoji1531][emoji1531][emoji1531]

I just had a revelation that I have fallen back to pre-surgery old/bad habits like: eating out in the car and throwing the evidence away so I don’t feel guilty. I have gained 40 lbs back from my lowest weight and tried to justify that by saying its all muscle weight since I weight train 4 days a week. Any advice or words of encouragement are welcome I’M STRUGGLING!

Up your water intake and walk walk walk.

I think I know why, but I'd like to know your thoughts After a while the excitement fades and then you're left to deal with the reality! Meaning the weight doesn't fall as easily or bad eating habits start to creep back in and your goal or manageable weight target gets further away. I wanted to be about 230 lbs now, but it didn't happen. I'm still proud of how I've changed my life for the better; however, I WANT IT ALL.

Thanks I have to admit I have mixed feelings about today marking the two years since surgery.

Well, I just hit my 2 year surgery anniversary! WOW! I thought I would be 200 lbs, but I weigh in at (wait for it) 262 lbs. My highest weight was 462 lowest point was September of 2013 243. This past year I've added 20+ lbs of muscle which I'm really happy with. Now I just have refocus on the cardio which is shall we say challenging.

I awoke this morning to a Facebook notification of a post from 6 years ago (evidently this is a new feature that Facebook has) of a pic I had posted. I literally do not remember myself looking that way. Here is the pic and a current one as well

I'm willing to give it a go.

I've experienced this issue as well.

This past week has been really stressful and I Find myself nibbling more often. I still weight train 5 days a week, but I seem to have lost my enthusiasm for cardio, walking. Need some Bariatricpal Advice and support!

You would think being 18 months post-op I would have learned not to take those last few bite. But no and I suffer for at least 30 min.

My highest was 66 waist now depending on the style and cut (meaning enough room for my thighs & glutes) I'm between 40 & 42. I want to be a 34-36 consistently.

Thanks everyone I just needed to get it off my mind.

I had a stressful situation that happened Wednesday afternoon dealing with a professor at a college I'm attending. It started with me asking at simple question and the Professor not listening and misunderstanding the my question and he the professor reading me the riot act and telling me how bad a student I am. Needless to say I went off on him and then asked my question again like he was a mentally ill 1 year old. He then said "oh I didn't realize you were asking about that!" He continued, "you can see why I misunderstood your question, so the next time you need to ask your question in a different way!" I thought to myself WHAT A F'n Idiot! This bothered me so badly that I began eating unconsciously and didn't notice it until the evening of the next day. Emotional trigger! God I'm so disappointed in myself for allowing someone to get to me and make me start harming myself again!!!

Wow I left out the story that later I realized that I went to KFC and ate that 10 piece with biscuits and apple pie to punish myself for being super obese and not being able to participate in life. Oh God that was truly one of the worst days in my life!

Thank you all for your encouraging and supporting comments. That picture really affected/effected (dang never get those two correct argh!) me. Funny how emotions and memories have a direct affect on our moods.

A good friend of mine sent anpicyure of me from a few years ago when about 10 of us decided to spend the day at Venice Beach, Ca. I remember the day so vividly. I could not walk because my back and knees were aching, do I told them to continue to walk and I'll catch up alter I rest: Dell, I never caught up and sneaked to my car which was 2 blocks away, but it felt like 20 blocks. I stopped by aF KFC AND ATE A 10 piece bucket of chicken in the car and cried!

Good for you Bigboy76. Stay focused and I'm 100% positive you will see your goal of no shirt hot guy at the pool come to fruition! GO GO GO! SuperKen

Man why are you so negative? Geez. There is no doubt that you have a strong opinion about weight training, but remember that not your opinion nor anyone else's opinion is gospel. Cardio, weight training, mental health and most importantly NUTRITION should be done in balance. I try to respect everyone's opinion on Bariatricpal, but when I run across a post like this I feel compelled to respond. I really hope you are successful in your weight loss and healthy living journey. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE respect other folks decisions and methods. SuperKen

Well the T range level are from 250 to 1500 when I was first checked and diagnosed with low T I was 158 ???? yes 158 my PCP joked with me that I was basically at a female level for testosterone. Now with I take a weekly injection. The reason I cycle on and off is to give my thyroid a reset if you will. Actually after loosing over 240 lbs pre and post op so far and along with my workout routine I feel ok during my off cycle. I should say this obviously T replacement therapy as well as any other hormone replacement therapy should be taken very seriously, so one should seek out medical advice from physicians who are experts in this particular area. SuperKen

I too had my surgery at Valley Hospital with Dr Bessler a year and 2 1/2 moths ago I just clicked with him. I also researched Bagloo who has outstanding reputation as well. She actually examined me the morning after my surgery and was very professional and personable. Good choice on your part. Have a successful surgery. SuperKen