Laura-ven , I watch your posts too! Haha! It's so hard to know, and maybe i'll take a bit of time to think it over. I have a difficult time with big life decisions anyway, but you may know that I've gained and lost 500lbs, and have a binge eating issue, so my current BMI is not a true reflection of what I will Probably weigh in 6 months... and I don't want to have the surgery at a BMI of 40+. I KNOW I want this. I'm ready to lose the weight for good and change my life. I think I'm just scared about the actual surgery. Which was more difficult: the surgery itself and recovery, or making the permanent life change?