JillianMarie73

Guys are so weird so I can only advise 2 things: 1) Stop playing games and call him, or 2) Ditch the tender immature ego and find a real man who is mature.

Bahahahahaha! Dont beat around the bush, tell me how you really feel! :Þ

We've talked, he's home... for now.

Sound to me like you are learning to live... we are all going to have to do it... and my goodness LOOK at you!! You look amazing... and you have something we all have now. Hope!

I had a few things too... but I put them on a list, and I ate them one day after another (one day was a pizza burger, the next day sausage gravy and biscuits, chocloate in the afternoon... etc). Packing it all in was a sure fire way of making me feel like crap and getting me ready to start gearing down for the pre op diet.

I chose to phase my foods out. The first week was junk food and coffee (TOUGH WEEK), the next week was complex carbs, this week I am dropping fat and eating even less, and starting friday my actual pre-op two shakes and a low carb dinner....(fish or chicken and either green beans, mushrooms or cauliflower).

Just remember, food is NOT going to leave the planet. We just have to learn like babies how to eat all over again, and once you hit goal, of course you can have a taste or a nibble of your favorites now and again... its what its all about right? Everything in moderation... with our new skinny stomachs and matching lean bodies!!

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I feel surprisingly better today. I still have a little anxious tugging feeling in my heart now and again, but after a good nights sleep (he still didnt show up or call or even text) I feel like I am seeing things more clearly. I am too old for this crap and I have a wonderful baby to think about. I wouldnt take this nonscense from my ex husband, I wont take it from Justin. You guys are right...

15 more days until my flight - pre-op diet starts tomorrow (just have to tweak what I am doing now)... so lots to focus on.

P.S. I want to reittereate, he is paying his support. If he wasnt I would kick him in the jacksee!

Well, here is what I now know. In our province, Ontario, if a payor fails to pay thier Child Support then first they have their drivers license suspended... and then thier passport (or right to one) is taken away. My guy's drivers license is just fine... so it is clearly an administrative error somewhere. That being said, we only have 23 days for two government offices to straighen things out. Those are not good odds!

However, that being said, I will remain positive and hope it gets sorted, but if in the end it deosnt it just means I am meant to go alone, and I am ok with that. Its just a small change in plans.

I had that epiphany too... I didnt buy it, but thought I could now, and guess what? The option expired yesterday!!!! >.<

Thank you ladies! Im getting nervous and excited all at once!! I have started to "detox" this week - from junk food and caffeine; and I am getting my water back in like a good girl... Not so much fun. But my body dropped 3.5 lbs of fluid as a result of only 3 days so far... any drop is a good one!!

P.S. Sharon... Oh gosh :">

I hear and feel you girl! I have all those fears too, but I take heart in the fact that when I was on the bernstien diet (VLCD with virtually no carb and no fat) I lost all of my cravings for food to the point where I had to set an alarm to remind myself to eat. My desire was just not there... and the motivation of the moving scale was phenominal... what wasnt was the price tag of $600.00 a month. You can do this.. .we will all be victorious!!

My surgury date is my Dad's Birthday!! (Although I am not telling him about it!! ahah) what he doesnt know wont make him wear down the carpet!