Hopey

My surgery is Jan. 22! I am also guilty of eating whatever I can before jan. 8th. That's probably part of my anxiety. Ugh!

My birthday is Jan 7th! It will be my last birthday wearing size 22/24!!! Congrats to both of you!

I am beyond thrilled that I finally have a date set for my sleeve, January 22!!! It seems like such a long journey to this point. I remember always looking at before and after pictures of people and feeling happiness for them, jealousy, hopelessness, and that it was a dream. I finally believe I can be that person! I weight 282 right now. I made a decision to have the lap band at first, but I switched to the sleeve. I can't imagine what it will be like to shop in the sizes under 1x,3x...plus sizes! I refuse to walk in stores that I know only sell sizes under 16. I'm a size 22/24 at 5'6. I've been over a size 18 since I was 18 years old. All through my school years I thought I was fat. I wasn't fat at all. I was a nine year old in a sixteen year old body. I was made fun of, and I never liked myself. I've worked on the self esteem, but let's be real.... I don't like my 44H breasts that keep me from doing things. I hate feeling tired and too big to do things with my THREE young BOYS! I now have so many plans and a desire to do different things that don't work the best with this large body. I also see myself going down the same path of my mom and grandma. I don't want knee surgeries, or not being capable to play, shop, or travel with your grandchildren. So, that's why I'm here! I no longer want to be a 'stand by the side and smile for the people making changes!' I WILL be that person! In a year or less I plan on trying some rock climbing, long hiking, or maybe a marathon! I'll be looking to all of you for advice, support, and wonderful success stories! I will be doing the same too.

Amazing!!!!

You made me cry. I'm at the beginning of the journey. I'm about one month from my surgery. I am very motivated by you. You look amazing!