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deedeemuffin

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  1. Good for you for sticking with it and not giving up. I am a slow loser as well. Often I have seen the rapid weight loss that others have had and felt discouraged with my own journey, but it is MY own journey. It doesn't matter if it takes me 3 1/2 years to get to my goal weight. The important thing is that we keep pushing ahead. Keep up the good work!


  2. @@MichiganChic Thank you for your honest post. I definitely have lost a significant amount of weight. I am so much happier and healthier now than where I was. My cholesterol and blood pressure are now normal. I have also adjusted my goals. I still have a goal that is less than I am now, but it's not an ideal BMI. That BMI number the charts dictate (I would have to weigh 173 lbs or less to be considered "normal") is honestly not realistic. At 5'10", with the amount of excess skin that I have it would be a never ending cycle of frustration. In high school I was 180 lbs., super active, a size 12 and not a bit pudgy. Anything under that and my bones literally started sticking out and I looked unhealthy. Let's face it. I'm not in high school, and I'm not going to expect my body to do something it was never built to do.

    I have been trying to measure my success by the activities that I am able to do that I couldn't at 418 lbs. and the fact that I was a size 34 and now I'm a very comfortable 18. Ideally where I would like to see myself is right under 200 and in a size 14. There is absolutely this idea that I have that if I don't at least get into the 100's then I'm not at my goal. More importantly, my husband and I are currently in the process of getting certified to become foster parents and also open to the possibility of having a biological child. So, my main focus points are being healthy enough to get pregnant and also being able to keep up with any age range of child that we might foster.

    I certainly won't be eating under 1,000 calories again. I average 1,200-1,400 a day which has led to the no loss no gain place where I am now. For now I need to focus on making Protein a higher percentage of my diet and getting in more exercise. Then maybe see where I am at my surgeversary in 5 months. Depending on where I am then, if I really make those efforts, I might need to reevaluate again.


  3. Hi Deedee, you have done great!! I hear you want to lose more, but congrats on not gaining. I am a veggie too. I think it is important for you to get in your Protein. That may be the primary reason you have gone into maintenance. The old story, Protein first is great advice. It is not always easy for vegetarians to get in enough protein without getting in carbs too. I have a list of go -tos and sometimes they are my medicine, to keep on track. Do your research, explore recipes, there are protein full pastas, do you eat dairy? I have problems getting in enough protein too, and carbs are my bad friend. Its a struggle, but we can do better. Stop turning up your nose at fake meat and tofu.... find a way to enjoy.

    Thanks for the input. It is a struggle being a vegetarian and losing, but I see that you've done it. I do eat dairy and eggs which help. I may just need more access to better recipes. Sometimes things get lost in typing translation. It's not that I turn my nose up at tofu and fake meat. Tofu has been my go to protein. It's like people who eat chicken every day. You just get tired of tofu, tofu, tofu. Again, maybe I just need a better recipe arsenal. I do eat fake meat too. I'm just concerned with the amount of sodium that comes with the territory of prepackaged food. My body definitely retains Water the more that I eat. So, more research it is. :)


  4. I am 2 1/2 years out. It will be 3 years at the end of November. I started out at 418. The first 100 lbs. just melted off. The next 50 lbs. were more of a struggle. I have found myself at the same weight for almost 9 months now. No gains. No losses. Just hanging at 268.

    I have a few issues that I struggle with. I am not interested in plastics, but the more I lose the more I just look like a deflated balloon. This is wreaking havoc on my self-esteem. I know that I am healthier. I have engaged in activities in the past year that I never thought that I would be able to do again...camping, hiking and canoeing to name a few. I just wonder how much more gross (this is my word for myself) that I'll look when I reach a truly healthy weight.

    I have never had one of those sleeves that make you vomit, but I have restriction and I respect it. I don't push my sleeve. I just make poor food choices. I have gone completely down the slope smack dab into carbs and sugar. Waffle for Breakfast. Veggie fried rice for lunch. Black Bean Burger with bun for dinner. A Pop-Tart and tea before bed. (Picking up on the vegetarian vibe?) I just can barely look at tofu and the premade veggie Protein products are so sodium laced.

    I also admit that I abhor exercise. I was going to yoga 3x per week. Then I started having serious back problems. A herniated L4 & L5 with nerve root compression that causes mobility problems with my left leg. I went for 3 different injections, steroids and other, with a minimum bed rest of a week after each one. I totally lost my yoga mojo.

    I did the 5 day pouch test. Yes, my sleeve still works. I lost 7 lbs., but I felt like I wanted to eat the arm off my couch. I get legitimately hungry now. Not head hungry. Like my sleeve growls at me hungry.

    I know that this is a long post. I'm hoping that there's someone out there with a similar experience or positive encouragement. I beat myself up enough. I've stayed away from the boards for a very long time feeling ashamed for not being at goal. I don't want to hide anymore. I just can't seem to kick myself back into gear. It's like starting from square one except I'm in the 200's instead of the 400's. :blush: Anyone? Thanks!


  5. I think this is harder than most people will admit to. I've lost 150 lbs and still have at least 70 to go. I am happy that I haven't gained weight. I will be 3 years out in November. I did the 5 day pouch reset. It semi-worked. I dropped 7 lbs in 5 days and regained some of that fullness feeling...like my sleeve actually still worked. It was a miserable 5 days. 6 months later I am still not back on track. I'm a vegetarian and got tired of my Protein choices. I can barely look at tofu and the premade items are so high in sodium. My portions are still small, but I think my body won't let go of any more weight because it's not getting the Protein that it needs.

    I remember how hard things were in the beginning, but I kind of miss those days. Once you've let the carbs and sugar creep back in they're absolute hell to get rid of. You get headaches. You feel sick. I've realized that if I ever want to get down to where I want to be there is going to have to be a radical shift in my eating and activity.

    We started this journey for a reason. I am astounded at what I can do now vs. 150 lbs ago. I can only imagine what I'd be able to do at a more healthy weight. It's going to be hard. We have to be brutally honest with ourselves, recognize what we've already accomplished, seek support and really see this as a path of self-care.

    I wish you all the best, and know that you're not alone.


  6. I can't seem to find where your MFP username is listed. I would love to add you since you've been so successful and eat vegetarian. :) My username is deedeemuffin. Thanks!

    I was on fitday for many years... just switched to MFP at the beginning of this year and like it so much better. My fitbit hooks up to MFP so I can keep track of my input and output and better balance them. LilMissDiva is there too FYI.


  7. I see that you did this about a month ago. I am starting Day 1 today. This is the first time that I'm trying it. I had my surgery a little over a year and a half ago. I'm half way to goal. I'm hoping this will lend to the feeling of restriction & eliminate a couple of bad habits that I've picked up. Were you able to stick through the 5 days? Did it help you get a feeling of more restriction back? Did it really help jump weight loss & reset your eating? I would love any feedback as I'm already dreading just 5 days & am so hoping that it's worth it. Thanks!

    I am on day 3 of the pouch test. The first two days of liquid diet were a lot harder than I remember the liquid diet being initially. I was a little light headed and weak by the end of day two. But this morning starts soft Protein so I had a hard boiled egg for breakfast and I definitely feel more restriction in my sleeve today. And the best part, I'm already down 3 pounds!


  8. Don't give in or give up! My weight loss came to a grinding halt & I had gained 10 pounds back as well. It's about finding what works for you. For me, I have to get in all my Water, be vigilant about getting in all my Protein, avoid carbs & sugars for the most part. I have now been losing slowly but steadily for a little over 2 months now. About 2 lbs. a week. It is possible to gain, get back on track and keep losing. I'm doing it & so can you. Hang in there!


  9. Your pic was very inspiring for me. It looks like you had surgery 6 months before I did & we started out at almost identical weights. I am obviously losing more slowly. Did you go through any struggles? Is there anything that you did that helped you lose so quickly? I would love to hear how you were so successful. You look amazing. So inspiring! Thank you,

    heres mine me at my biggest of 425lbs, then a the full body was oct of 2013 and the head shot was new years eve


  10. Thank you to everyone who has responded to this post so far. It's funny, I noticed that a few people mentioned that I look so happy now. I looked at my pics & I DO look happier now! I am happier. It's nice to be able to do things that I couldn't do before. Like fit in a booth at a restaurant, or hike with my fiancé, or play in the pool with my nieces & nephew without being exhausted. So, yes, I'm happier & much healthier. I can't wait to see how much more I can do the smaller I get. :D


  11. I have never been successful long term either & I got very scared when I gained that 10 pounds back. I thought that my surgery had been "wasted". For me getting back on track was more of a change in my thought patterns. When I stopped beating myself up & focused on just being healthier in general the scale started moving again. Just surround yourself with as much support as possible. You'll do great!

    Congratulations! That is amazing. I'm so glad you shared this- especially about not doing everything perfect, and then doing the work to turn it around. For me, it's scary to go into this having never been long-term successful and to hear this story where you hit a bump and were able to correct course and then continue is very inspiring.

    You will be a beautiful bride! Congratulations and best of luck to you as you keep on going!


  12. Thanks, ho11ie. :) Stalls are very common. Especially in the beginning. I think almost every person has had a major stall shortly after surgery. In the beginning it's kind of like a roller coaster ride. You drop weight, drop weight, then nothing...even though you're following your plan. Just have faith in the process. Hang in there!

    Congratulations! Your story is very inspiring. I had surgery on June 16th and I've been at a stall for 2 weeks and I'm frustrated. Thank you for sharing and keep up the good work. You are going to be a beautiful bride!

    Holly


  13. What a LONG, strange trip this is that I'm on. I was sleeved on 11/27/12 at 418 pounds. I am now at 298. That's 120 pounds down & about 120 more to go. Being under 300 pounds is monumental for me, though. I honestly wasn't sure that it was ever going to happen.

    I am obviously not one of those uber success stories that took off all their weight in one year & I am learning to be okay with that,

    My experience was that for the for 6 months after my vsg it was like the weight melted off. 100 lbs. in 6 months. I thought that I would be to my goal weight in no time. Then it was like I hit a wall. Now if you look at my other posts you will see that I struggled. Struggled with getting in Protein. Struggled with avoiding carbs. Struggled with exercise. Struggled with what a drastically different lifestyle being sleeved is. I even gained back about 10 pounds. I did not do "everything right".

    It took me about a year to really revamp my lifestyle and find out what works for me to lose weight but feel balanced. I have now losing consistently at about 2 lbs a week for the past 12 weeks. It appears that I have found my groove. I have no doubt that I will get to my goal weight. It might not be as quickly as other people have, but I will still get there.

    It might be literally 3 years after my surgery before I get to goal, but so what? Even if I was not still losing weight, the weight that I have lost already has changed my life. My health has improved dramatically. I actually went hiking last weekend! I'm going camping in a month. That's something that I've missed doing for years.

    Getting sleeved is not a magic bullet. Losing weight is still hard. I still struggle with my self-esteem. I truly miss eating the way I used to, and sometimes I literally feel sad that I can't eat more. I still don't like exercising. I have come to see it as a necessary evil. I might never like exercising, This is just the truth.

    I'm getting married at the end of September. After we got engaged in January, I spent months beating myself up that I am still so heavy. I thought if only I had tried harder then I could have been a thin, beautiful bride. That may be true. It may not be. What is true is that I am certainly more ready to walk down an aisle in front of 100 people now than I was at 418 pounds.

    I have not given up. I am still moving and look forward to someday posting that I'm at my goal. I hope that this post is helpful to someone. You might be considering surgery. Maybe you're newly sleeved. Maybe you're where I was 6 months ago...gained back 10 lbs & not moving. You can do it! I can do it! Just don't give up.

    Here are a couple before & after shots at this stage.

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  14. Everyone truly loses differently. A lot of the posts that you see on the boards are from people who have had above average success rates. I would say that I am someone who is a little more average. I am a year and a half out from surgery & have taken off 50% of my excess body weight so far. As you can see by my stats & ticker I was at a higher starting weight than a lot of people as well.

    My experience was that for the for 6 months after my vsg it was like the weight melted off. 100 lbs. in 6 months. I thought that I would be to my goal weight in no time. Then it was like I hit a wall. Now if you look at my other posts you will see that I struggled. Struggled with getting in Protein. Struggled with avoiding carbs. Struggled with exercise. Struggled with what a drastically different lifestyle being sleeved is. I even gained back about 10 pounds. I did not do "everything right".

    It took me about a year to really revamp my lifestyle and find out what works for me to lose weight but feel balanced. I am down 120 lbs with another 122 to go. I am now losing consistently at about 2 lbs a week for the past 12 weeks. I have no doubt that I will get to my goal weight. It might not be as quickly as other people have, but I will still get there.

    So, my 2 cents is that the sleeve is an invaluable tool. Even if I was not still losing weight, the weight that I have lost already has changed my life. My health has improved dramatically. I actually went hiking last weekend! It might be literally 3 years after my surgery before I get to goal, but so what?

    None of us gained our weight in a year. We're not all going to lose it in a year. Is it possible to lose all of your excess weight? Yes! Is it possible to lose it quickly? Maybe. Will you regret surgery if you ONLY lose 50-60% of your excess weight? I doubt it. It is sincerely life changing. Best wishes to you & I am sure that you will make the right decision for yourself.


  15. Well, I'm almost 2 weeks out from my original post & only down 3.2 lbs. At least it's in the right direction. :)

    The trip to the bridal expo didn't do so much for my motivation. The wedding dress models looked like they were 16 & had bones jutting out. How sad. I don't want to have my bones jutting out, but it was discouraging nonetheless. I thought, "I will never find a dress that looks good on my monstrous, fat body". I am not very nice to myself sometimes. :blush:

    Two days ago I actually went dress shopping. It was as insane as I imagined it to be. I actually did find a dress,though. I cried too. I felt beautiful, even at the size that I am now. I didn't expect to have that experience. The shop owner is wonderful & I know another sleever who went to the same shop & lost 90 lbs from dress purchase to wedding ate & they were able to alter it perfectly. I let them know my situation & made sure my dress could be taken in significantly.

    So, now I have about 9 months until our wedding day. The past 2 weeks has been a jumble of efforts. Buying all healthy food & then feeling anxiety about having nothing to "snack on". Starting out the day well, but crashing & burning by the end of the day, That just leads to me beating myself up & more very mean self-talk.

    I did join the Valentines Challenge. I think that my approach for now is going to be a little more simple. I was looking to just get back on track hard core & that's leading to failure & more negativity. For now I am going to concentrate on one thing at a time. Starting with Water. For a week I will get in ALL of my Water every day starting today. (of course I will continue to try to incorporate healthy eating). Next week I will start tracking every bite I put in my mouth on My Fitness Pal & making sure my Protein intake is where it needs to be. The week after that I will add in activity. I see this approach working for me. Within a month I should be right on track.

    Any thoughts on this approach or suggestions of what might be helpful in this slow & steady approach? Healthy snack ideas are always welcome. I still struggle with major carb/sugar cravings. :wacko:

    I feel like I'm heading down the right path. The scale is going down again. Even if it's in small increments. So, I'm just trying to keep calm & carry on! :D


  16. All great advice & encouragement. Thank you. I told my fiancé what I needed to do to get back on track, cleaned out anything that is a stumbling block for me from the fridge & cupboards and stocked up on healthy foods. These first couple days have been hard. My first day with my "dessert" of plain ff greek yogurt with PB2 & stevia I felt down right depressed. Today I am going to a bridal show & Wednesday I have my first 2 appointments to try on wedding dresses. That should kick my butt into high gear! :P


  17. Thanks, Bea. My starting weight as of yesterday morning is 316.8 I know it seems like a lot, but I'm just getting back on track so I'm going to set a goal of 299 by 02/14. We'll see next week if I need to readjust or not. Thanks!

    I haven't been on the boards in quite some time & someone let me know about this challenge today. I'm really struggling to get back on track & I think this would help. Any chance that I can still get in? I know that I'm getting a bit of a late start.

    Evolving is right...we'll be happy to add you. Just give us your current weight, your goal weight for Feb 14, and start posting your weights every Friday (or whatever works for you...we're really laid back here!) Welcome to the Challenge!

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