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castiel

Gastric Sleeve Patients
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  1. I'm having the same feelings because I'm not seeing the numbers I want. I found out from a family friend that their niece had this surgery a year ago and is only down 65 pounds and she started at 275. So, I guess I look at it as, I'm at least really close to 65 pounds. Everyone is different and as long as the scale moves, even if it's slowly, it's better than not at all. I'm also worried that what if I'm not meant to lose 100 pounds? And only make it to 200? I haven't seen 150 pounds since childhood. But things take time! We're probably losing it faster than it takes to put on :]
  2. castiel

    Easter Challenge

    Update: SW: 231 CW: 228 pounds to goal: 3 i haven't been drinking as much Water as i should, so i could be up in weight the next few days. one week at a time i guess!
  3. castiel

    Carbs vs fiber per day?

    I'm close to 11 weeks post op, and I've been using chia seeds since about week 7 or 8. I get mine from trader joe's. for 2 table spoons, it's only 2 carbs and 12g of fiber! I usually eat them in my chili, but I'm sure you could put them in your protein shake or anything else!
  4. you seem to be progressing quite well! I'm having a rough time with sleep and feeling miserable, but the scale is slowly moving.
  5. Scale finally moved slowly. Was ceeping up to 233 now I'm back down to 228.5

  6. I made an appointment with a counselor. Unfortunately, it's not until next Tuesday. I'm tired of feeling this way and I can barely function in society in anymore.

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    I'm gaining weight.

    I know I've been working out, and lifting a little bit of weights. So I was thinking I was putting on muscle mass, but I'm not losing inches. I have been meeting my protein requirements, but I'm thinking may I need to get in more. It's frustrating that the scale has gone up progressively as the days have passed. I just recently had my period, so I know it's not water weight. I don't really know what else to do I don't regret this surgery one bit, and even hitting a 40 pound weight loss, despite not being able to notice it too much. I guess I'm just impatient and dissatisfied that my body isn't losing the weight the way I want it to.
  8. castiel

    An Update

    It feels like it's been ages since I last updated. Some of this stuff is boring, aka talking about clothes shopping/dropping pant sizes, and also there is some talk about depression. ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ These past two weeks have been rough. Not because of my sleeve, just life in general. When I visited my surgeon's partner last month, I mentioned feeling depressed. He just said it was because I relied on food as an emotional crutch, but pre-op I would never eat when I was depressed. I haven't been depressed since my junior year of high school. I was a stress eater, and I ate when I was really happy/excited or as rewards. It's just gotten worse since I've seen him . I'm terribly depressed. I'm really burnt out of school. I'm having A LOT of sleeping issues. I'm talking like, not being able to sleep until 6am, having to wake up for class at 8:30am and go all day until 4pm. There have been days where I'm so tired from lack of sleep, I just don't go to class for an entire day and it's affecting my grades. There are days where I wake up and think "I can't do this today" so I don't. I lack motivation for anything except going to the gym when I have enough sleep. I cry sometimes, in the wee hours of the morning. It's usually because I'm sad, or I'm so upset that I can't sleep and I know how awful my day is going to be because I can't get to bed on time. I feel trapped at school, despite being so happy with my major. I feel a little lonely even, which rarely happens because I enjoy being alone to wind down, and I have plenty of friends. It's just this cycle I'm trapped in that makes me so unhappy. I'm unhappy. This feeling of unhappiness led me to sort of running away from college for 4 days. I talked to my instructor on Wednesday for my Thursday class and let her know I was having sleep issues. She said she completely understood, and let me miss class. Cue me leaving Wednesday afternoon, not even saying a word to my roommates, and spending Wed night, Thurs, Fri, Sat and today at home. I needed to escape, to get out of my toxic and entrapping environment. I had an appointment Thursday afternoon with my GP. He gave me ambien. It didn't do diddly squat for me falling asleep. I've had sleeping problems ever since I got to college. Last semester they were manageable. I've tried Lunesta my sophomore year of college and trazodone my junior year as well. I have symptoms that mimic DSPD. For all I know, it could be DSPD. But it only seems to act up when I'm at school and in a perpetual state of stress. During the summer, when I work, I find that I'm pretty stress free and I can sleep normal hours. I actually like working more than school haha. I'm thinking about making an appointment with psychological services at my school to help me. I've been taking St. John's wort for almost 4 weeks, 3x a day, and it hasn't really helped with these feelings or improvement of my mood. I'm also looking into switching to 5-HTP to see if that can help with my mood and sleep. I need to do something, because I can't keep living like this. _______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ On a more positive note, I've had a wonderful time being home. It's nice seeing my puppy and playing with her, talking to my parents, even my annoying little bro. After my doctor's appointment, I went to my local Y where I took my first spin class!!!!! Talk about difficult! I didn't have muscle fatigue in my legs, but geez my heart is in poor shape. I had to sit down during climbs and jumping because my heart was pounding so hard, I thought it was going to burst out of my chest. MY CHEST HURT! I needed time to catch my breath and slow my heart rate down. It made me frustrated I couldn't keep going because of cardio difficulties. I wanted to really up that resistance to get some real muscle fatigue, but the higher the resistance, the harder my heart pumped Can I just say, those little seats hurt the nether regions!!! I even had padded biking shorts on. I would rather spend the entire class climbing and jumping than sit on that seat for an hour. I could feel immense pressure and pain on my urethra and other parts. It burned to use the toilet for hours afterwards, and it hurt to sit in a chair lol. But besides the chest pains and private area pain ( AND WRIST PAIN), that was the challenge I needed! I can't wait to register for spin classes on campus. They start at the end of march, so I know what I need to work on before then for cardio conditioning. I'm excited for spin class! Friday evening, I decided to go to the mall. I needed some retail therapy. I went to JC Penney, but didn't find much in the plus size department. I went over to Deb, where I found out I'm down almost 2 pant sizes!!!! THAT WAS AN AMAZING FEELING! Instead of buying their stuff in 3x, which is supposed to fit a 24 (I actually think they're stuff is a little snug seeing as how I couldn't wear some of their 3x at a 22). I bought a dress in a 2x and a pair of blue jeans in a 20! I also picked up some belts in a 1x as well as a top in a 3x because it was really short. I walked over to Forever 21, and I nearly screamed in the dressing room jumping up and down. I picked up jeans in a 18 just to see if they would fit, and HOLY COW, THEY FIT!!!!!!!! Ever since F21 introduced their plus size line, I've always worn a 3x, and even then a lot of their shirts didn't fit right. But I bought ALL of my stuff in a 2x! I bought 2 dresses, 3 pairs of denim jeans, one pair of black jeans (size 20 because they didn't have any other size besides 14/16, so I'll just use a belt as needed), 3 tops, and a pair of tights. I WENT A LITTLE CRAZY WITH SHOPPING. All these pieces however, will look fine as I lose weight, so I expect them to help me get through spring. I don't feel that bad about spending all that money because I haven't bought myself new clothes in, I don't know 8 months or more? I'm pretty much broke now, and patiently waiting for a tax return haha. Shopping was a great feeling. It did make me feel better about my weight loss because I wasn't ecstatic about the numbers on the scale. It showed I was actually making progress. Being home, I'm in such a great mood. I'm happy and content. I'm calling it "The Eye of the Storm" for when I have to go back to class Monday, and I bet those sad feelings will creep back into my life. I also bought a new pair of leather boots that will go with my dresses nicely Also, I'm down 3 pounds this week! That's the most I've lost since my first 2 weeks post-op. Maybe the stall is broken?? I can't believe I'll be 9-weeks post op on Monday. I'm almost down 40 pounds! That's very exciting. Recently, I've had a little bit of pain while eating any solid foods. Sometimes even drinking muscle milk will cause me pain, but I hope it goes away soon. I've been doing well with getting all my stuff in, except for my vitamins. I skip days, but when I remember I take them. It sucks that it's Sunday, because that means I have to drive back to school. I hope this week goes better than the last 2! I guess this sums up my long winded blog post. xx
  9. castiel

    Christmas Day

    From the album: My Journey

    8-days post op
  10. castiel

    Liquid diet help! Eggs?

    what about taking foods and pureeing them? i did that with an omelette my third week and it was like a full liquid
  11. I'm also having issues with insomnia! For the past few weeks, I'm so tired I cry because I just can't sleep. I sleep in 4 hour intervals. Even when I don't set an alarm, I just wake up around the 4 hour mark, and then I can't back to sleep. I'm taking ambien right now, but it's doing nothing for me. It's very frustrating because it's affecting my life and my school work. So I definitely feel your pain!
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    Does anyone still feels hungry?

    I still feel hunger, even when I'm taking Prevacid 2x a day. If I left it go for too long, the hunger gets so strong I can feel/hear noises into the back of my throat! it's very odd. Sometimes I don't feel anything at all, and I'm think: Oh man, I should eat something because I forget to eat. It's a nice change.
  13. I felt normal for the first 4 weeks, not tired, no sleeping problems. Almost 10 weeks post op, I'm exhausted all the time despite upping my carbs, and I'm having issues with insomnia.
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    I got the puppy!

    oh my gosh! how cute!!
  15. I'm currently working on a project at my university to spread contraceptive awareness. Of course, if you don't want to take any BC a condom is best. Here is a very informative chart about all of the different options that are out there. There's the ring, the shot, the rod, the patch, pills, seasonique, etc. http://www.ashastd.org/uploads/pdfs/ContraceptiveOptions.pdf I have PCOS, and I hate taking pills as it is because I'm forgetful, so the shot or the ring is the best option for me. Talk to your gyno about these options. I wouldn't suggest an IUD unless it's covered by insurance, because if you want to have children, you'd need to get it removed, and it'd just be a waste of money.
  16. castiel

    Easter Challenge

    Joining! CW: 231 GW: 225 6 to lose
  17. OFFICIALLY DOWN 40 POUNDS!!!! AHHH!!

  18. castiel

    21 and wanting a new me

    Welcome! How are you doing one week post op?
  19. I've been stalling for the past few weeks, this week I upped my carbs, and the scale finally moved 3 pounds. So maybe try what PDXMAN and lessofmeismore are saying. Complex/healthy carbs can be beneficial!
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    Items that Swell in your Stomach?

    I eat oatmeal at least once or twice a week. It was even on my soft foods/pureed stage. However, I find couscous makes me SUPER full with only a few bites
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    Any Jersey Sleevers?

    I was also sleeved by Dr. Noyan. My mother works for a local hospital, where her friend does quality ratings for doctors. My mother was nervous because her friend said she didn't hear good things. But my mom actually told me last night that her friend asked about me, and her friend had said his ratings were going up and she's hearing good things. Personally, loved Dr. Noyan. My recovery was 2 nights, and discharged the third morning at RWJ. I had vomiting after they tried giving me liquid tylenol. Dr. Noyan comes to visit you and let's you know if he thinks you should stay another day. I received excellent care through him, and I was worried about a leak because of the vomiting. He assured me that everything would be okay with the staple line. I'm almost 9 weeks post op, and I haven't had problems with my sleeve. My recovery was easy, and I've only had nausea maybe twice my whole journey. Also, I can't remember the name for a required test, but it's for pulmonary/breathing. I had Dr. Pacia from the list of recommended doctors he gives you. Dr. Pacia was so nice in the hospital! I was surprised he was there. I had no idea he was there to check up on my lungs the morning of the barium swallow. All the nurses love him, and he gives excellent care. Dr. Noyan is really understanding, and any questions you have, he's able to help answer them. However, I don't know if they've replaced their nutritionist yet. My next appointment is not until March. Best of luck!
  22. castiel

    Valentines Day Challenge!

    Missed my goal by 3 pounds, but I guess I can't complain!
  23. I was sleeved Dec 17th. At first, I had no acid issues. Then after a few weeks, I would wake up with a horribly sour stomach. And I could barely eat something in the morning except for a baby cow cheese wedge just to get things going. I also had a lot of gurgling every 2 hours and it drove me crazy because how could I be hungry all the time? My doctor made me up my Prevacid to 2x a day. So I'm taking 60mg daily. Gurgling has subsided and I don't wake up with a nauseous sour stomach anymore.
  24. castiel

    how do you start

    I have read that it's bad for your joints, but I've seen a lot of plus sized people run on the treadmills at the Y. I think people have this misconception that in order to lose weight you have to run. Even walking at a fast pace with a high incline might be better than running until you strengthen your heart. Have you thought about doing the couch to 5k program? You do little bursts of running and walking. Might be worth checking out.

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