You guys are making me sad. I know it's the truth but it's a hard decision. I took my vows serious for better or worst but it's just getting worst but I'm just holding on to a miracle. I have my mind set. This won't be till I'm 40 or till my small kids are teenagers. I want to try to make it on my own hold on just a little longer. My bills are very important to me. I work hard building my credit to let it get destroy over night. I want to save money so we have a bed to sleep on at least until I get a job or something to get furniture.
I know to everyone I'm making excuses,but I want to think & not make a mistake coming back crawling with my finger up my ass saying "I shouldn't had left" you understand what I mean? I want to be 100% sure if I can infact make it on my own. Will my kids be asking for him all day. Will they want to go with him. I want a supervisor there with visitation I don't trust him. Might put things in there mind like I found someone simply cuz I left. Talk about your low class no more Co-op apartment. Making my kids feel bad like they lost everything cuz parents aren't together.
It's hard when all you know is your husband & family. When all you have to do is ask or say I want this & you get it. When you don't have to work can nap when you want.
My only issue is verbal abuse. He does everything else a man should do but his verbal abuse is pushing me away & counseling isn't helping. We are getting another counselor after next week then maybe a family counselor cuz my teenager is being affected by all this. He got mad at me after section was over saying I talk to much & he doesn't have to tell me I'm sexy or anything. He works all day & don't have time for all this crap.