I just read your blog and giggled a little because I swear I could have written it. Other than telling my mom, I was in the same boat as you are three weeks ago. Here is my advice (for what it is worth).. .
1. As far as mom is concerned, she doesn't have to live in your body. She doesn't have to live with the constant thoughts about why you are overweight and the constant feelings of judgement. She doesn't have to feel the guilt you feel when you eat something you know you shouldn't or the defeat you feel when you give in. This is for you. Not mom. And as the saying goes, "sometimes it is better to ask forgiveness then it is permission."
2. My baby survived. He got to hang out with his grandparents and daddy for week and they are closer now than before. My feeling is he will not remember the few weeks I couldn't run to his side, but he will remember all the times I run with him because I have lost enough weight to be able to do it.
3. You are the only one that can decide if it is worth it. It is not easy. But, like I said, I am three weeks out and I am already wearing jeans that were stuffed in the back of my closet with dust on them. For me that is worth it.
Last. . .you wouldn't be human if you weren't scared. Especially knowing there is a little one involved. Put your faith in God or Allah and he will get you through it. It will be worth it in the end.
Good thoughts and prayers are coming your way. Let us know how you do.
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