Nurse_B

I also had regrets the day I came home. I cried like a little baby saying "why did I do this to myself?" Nearly two weeks later I'm feeling 100x better and more confident in my decision. However, If I had to do it over again I would have spent a second night in the hospital. I definitely wasn't ready to go home the next day.

Hello everyone! My current numbers are:
HW: 290
CW: 268.4
Sleeved on December 2nd. I'm having a hard time getting all the Protein, but that should change on puréed food this Thursday. I am getting in my Water most days!

I was waiting for someone to point that out to me! My post was simply to show that this is hard work, these are the things we have to deal with, it's not all weight loss and wonderful feeling. She wanted to know my reality, this is what it is. I wanted to be brutally honest because people who want to know about surgery need to be prepared for all elements, this whole thing has a very important mental element.
Now let me be clear. I wake up and make the decisions I do because I am blessed to have this opportunity, and I understand how important my hard work is. Do I regret it, hell no I do not. This was the best decision for me completely, but it doesn't mean I can't be mad, angry, disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.
And that is what working with a professional has made me realize.

While I am not married, I will share my thoughts from the perspective of a child who had parents go through this very thing. This child was in their early 20's, and understood that marriages are not always happy ever after. Mom started to engage in what she would call an "emotional affair". Do not be fooled, not having sex with someone does not make an affair ANY easier on your spouse or children, in fact it can make it worse. Sex is an instinctive thing, an animalistic impulse we all share. Feelings, however, are something we nurture, build and change. Mom ended up leaving the marriage, and engaging in a relationship with a man who also left his marriage. What was left was two families in constant turmoil. Trust issues, hatred, and partners left to wonder, "what did I do? Why couldn't we work on things?". The new relationship triggered an absolute tailspin in the lives of so many who were considered collateral damage. I am not telling you what to do, or not to do. BUT if you want to take this further PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE consider all of the other options first, counseling, speaking with your husband, working on your issues. If you can look yourself in the mirror and say you gave it your all, 110% and you just aren't in love, then divorce him. BUT don't divorce him for another man. That isn't fair to yourself, your husband or your children. As someone speaking from experience, your actions could have devastating results for those around you, for someone who gives you attention and understands your humor. It can cause damage you can't even begin to understand. Best of luck to you.

Hello everyone! My current numbers are:
HW: 290
CW: 268.4
Sleeved on December 2nd. I'm having a hard time getting all the Protein, but that should change on puréed food this Thursday. I am getting in my Water most days!

Hello Hello!
Welcome to you, so glad you found us
My only trick during Pre-Op is to keep telling yourself, you will get through this!!!!!!!

Nurse B. I just wanna say.....I'm 19 months post op, and you just described me. I love my sleeve and I love my new life.
BUT....the road is not easy. Don't ever think you are the only one struggling with it. You're not alone. Sometimes I bite my tongue and try not to complain about the things that are hard....not because I'm so positive and optimistic, but because I'm trying to convince myself how much I'm loving it. But in reality, there are days I'd like to eat my weight in chocolate.

I was waiting for someone to point that out to me! My post was simply to show that this is hard work, these are the things we have to deal with, it's not all weight loss and wonderful feeling. She wanted to know my reality, this is what it is. I wanted to be brutally honest because people who want to know about surgery need to be prepared for all elements, this whole thing has a very important mental element.
Now let me be clear. I wake up and make the decisions I do because I am blessed to have this opportunity, and I understand how important my hard work is. Do I regret it, hell no I do not. This was the best decision for me completely, but it doesn't mean I can't be mad, angry, disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.
And that is what working with a professional has made me realize.

To answer your first question in the heading, no I am not happy I have the sleeve. Before people get upset by that, my meaning is I am mad and sad it had to come to this. I am mad that I can't control my weight on my own, can't control myself to eat normal portions. I am mad that I have to eat liquids only right now, that my stomach is sore, that I can't sleep very well at night. I am mad that when I sit down to dinner, I want so badly to eat what everyone else is having, I want TACO BELL. I know I sound whiny, but this is the truth. Every single day I have to wake up and make the decision to do what I can to make the best choices for myself. The surgery will help me to lose weight, but it doesn't fix why I eat or the fact that I want to eat SO BAD. Those things are right in my face every day since surgery and I have to deal with them. Cry at the dinner table like a 2 year old because I can't eat chicken and mashed potatoes. I mean I am 28 years old crying over food!!!! I am fortunate I was able to do this surgery, and I am thankful for the people who lift me up every single day to feel better. The sleeve will allow me to reach a weight goal. But one thing about the sleeve people don't realize until after you have the surgery...you have to deal with why you are obese and overweight. Those problems don't go away as the weight comes off, they only become more blinding. I am sorry to sound like a debbie downer tonight, but I am dealing with this stuff right now and it isn't fun! I wish you all of the best in your sleeve, and please don't let me scare you, that is not my purpose. I just wish I understood better the non weight loss part of this before hand. I wouldn't have changed getting the surgery, but I would have started to work on some of this stuff!

I feel that way about "putting it away", I just feel a ton of emotions about the sleeve. I wouldn't change it, I love the weight loss, I just wish I didn't miss food so bad. I think the biggest thing for me is finding out why I'm so attached to food, it's really making me see things differently. It can be freeing, and great to replace food with other things I enjoy, but then I get sad as well. I am learning so much about myself, so I have the sleeve to thank for that. I think we all could use a non biased third party to talk to, I know for me there isn't any hiding behind my humor or weight anymore when I need to deal with an issue. Thank you for opening up, and for allowing me to get my thoughts down. It feels glorious to be honest without the fear of judgement.

I also consider myself a food addict. I think about food constantly, before and after the sleeve. I feel lonely with the sleeve, because I can't come home pop open the fridge and binge my head off. I want to just go through the drive through, or eat a normal dinner. I sometimes feel bad that I have to count Water intake or Protein. I feel blessed to have the opportunity to lose weight, but this is hard. I actually get mad when I feel full and I can't eat anymore, my head is screaming that I am still hungry, it's not enough!! I am scared that once I am able to eat, I will fail at this. I feel like the only thing stopping me from eating poorly is the fear of harming my sleeve. I am working on these issues, but it is difficult sometimes to come on here and see so many people absolutely love their sleeve and love their lives, like their road is really easy. I do love the sleeve, and I do love my life. But sometimes I just want to say THIS SUCKS, but I fear people will dog on me for that. I'm not ungrateful, I am frustrated and yes, whiny, and being a baby about stupid things. Thank you for your post, it's nice to know other people feel the sleeve can be all encompassing. Also, if one more of my co workers ask if I can have this or that yet (all bad foods), I am going to scream.

I also consider myself a food addict. I think about food constantly, before and after the sleeve. I feel lonely with the sleeve, because I can't come home pop open the fridge and binge my head off. I want to just go through the drive through, or eat a normal dinner. I sometimes feel bad that I have to count Water intake or Protein. I feel blessed to have the opportunity to lose weight, but this is hard. I actually get mad when I feel full and I can't eat anymore, my head is screaming that I am still hungry, it's not enough!! I am scared that once I am able to eat, I will fail at this. I feel like the only thing stopping me from eating poorly is the fear of harming my sleeve. I am working on these issues, but it is difficult sometimes to come on here and see so many people absolutely love their sleeve and love their lives, like their road is really easy. I do love the sleeve, and I do love my life. But sometimes I just want to say THIS SUCKS, but I fear people will dog on me for that. I'm not ungrateful, I am frustrated and yes, whiny, and being a baby about stupid things. Thank you for your post, it's nice to know other people feel the sleeve can be all encompassing. Also, if one more of my co workers ask if I can have this or that yet (all bad foods), I am going to scream.

I also consider myself a food addict. I think about food constantly, before and after the sleeve. I feel lonely with the sleeve, because I can't come home pop open the fridge and binge my head off. I want to just go through the drive through, or eat a normal dinner. I sometimes feel bad that I have to count Water intake or Protein. I feel blessed to have the opportunity to lose weight, but this is hard. I actually get mad when I feel full and I can't eat anymore, my head is screaming that I am still hungry, it's not enough!! I am scared that once I am able to eat, I will fail at this. I feel like the only thing stopping me from eating poorly is the fear of harming my sleeve. I am working on these issues, but it is difficult sometimes to come on here and see so many people absolutely love their sleeve and love their lives, like their road is really easy. I do love the sleeve, and I do love my life. But sometimes I just want to say THIS SUCKS, but I fear people will dog on me for that. I'm not ungrateful, I am frustrated and yes, whiny, and being a baby about stupid things. Thank you for your post, it's nice to know other people feel the sleeve can be all encompassing. Also, if one more of my co workers ask if I can have this or that yet (all bad foods), I am going to scream.

I feel that way about "putting it away", I just feel a ton of emotions about the sleeve. I wouldn't change it, I love the weight loss, I just wish I didn't miss food so bad. I think the biggest thing for me is finding out why I'm so attached to food, it's really making me see things differently. It can be freeing, and great to replace food with other things I enjoy, but then I get sad as well. I am learning so much about myself, so I have the sleeve to thank for that. I think we all could use a non biased third party to talk to, I know for me there isn't any hiding behind my humor or weight anymore when I need to deal with an issue. Thank you for opening up, and for allowing me to get my thoughts down. It feels glorious to be honest without the fear of judgement.

I also consider myself a food addict. I think about food constantly, before and after the sleeve. I feel lonely with the sleeve, because I can't come home pop open the fridge and binge my head off. I want to just go through the drive through, or eat a normal dinner. I sometimes feel bad that I have to count Water intake or Protein. I feel blessed to have the opportunity to lose weight, but this is hard. I actually get mad when I feel full and I can't eat anymore, my head is screaming that I am still hungry, it's not enough!! I am scared that once I am able to eat, I will fail at this. I feel like the only thing stopping me from eating poorly is the fear of harming my sleeve. I am working on these issues, but it is difficult sometimes to come on here and see so many people absolutely love their sleeve and love their lives, like their road is really easy. I do love the sleeve, and I do love my life. But sometimes I just want to say THIS SUCKS, but I fear people will dog on me for that. I'm not ungrateful, I am frustrated and yes, whiny, and being a baby about stupid things. Thank you for your post, it's nice to know other people feel the sleeve can be all encompassing. Also, if one more of my co workers ask if I can have this or that yet (all bad foods), I am going to scream.

I also consider myself a food addict. I think about food constantly, before and after the sleeve. I feel lonely with the sleeve, because I can't come home pop open the fridge and binge my head off. I want to just go through the drive through, or eat a normal dinner. I sometimes feel bad that I have to count Water intake or Protein. I feel blessed to have the opportunity to lose weight, but this is hard. I actually get mad when I feel full and I can't eat anymore, my head is screaming that I am still hungry, it's not enough!! I am scared that once I am able to eat, I will fail at this. I feel like the only thing stopping me from eating poorly is the fear of harming my sleeve. I am working on these issues, but it is difficult sometimes to come on here and see so many people absolutely love their sleeve and love their lives, like their road is really easy. I do love the sleeve, and I do love my life. But sometimes I just want to say THIS SUCKS, but I fear people will dog on me for that. I'm not ungrateful, I am frustrated and yes, whiny, and being a baby about stupid things. Thank you for your post, it's nice to know other people feel the sleeve can be all encompassing. Also, if one more of my co workers ask if I can have this or that yet (all bad foods), I am going to scream.

I feel that way about "putting it away", I just feel a ton of emotions about the sleeve. I wouldn't change it, I love the weight loss, I just wish I didn't miss food so bad. I think the biggest thing for me is finding out why I'm so attached to food, it's really making me see things differently. It can be freeing, and great to replace food with other things I enjoy, but then I get sad as well. I am learning so much about myself, so I have the sleeve to thank for that. I think we all could use a non biased third party to talk to, I know for me there isn't any hiding behind my humor or weight anymore when I need to deal with an issue. Thank you for opening up, and for allowing me to get my thoughts down. It feels glorious to be honest without the fear of judgement.

My family has been so supportive pre-op and post-op. But there are times that I feel...I don't know the word I'm looking for. Disjointed. Not complete.
We're not in sync as a family since I returned home from surgery. I feel disconnected - not only from meal times, but the family in general. This is all new and I'm trying to figure it out. That hasn't been easy along with the recovery from surgery. I can't eat what they are eating most of the time. When I put my husband in charge of their meal, he picks up a pizza. I'm pissed at that because, "Jesus, can't you put forth more effort than that?" But then I don't want to be Debbie Downer, because let's be honest, don't we all want pizza? My son was playing with the dog the other night and she jumped up on my stomach and it hurt because my incisions are still tender - yeah, fun time is over because mom's in pain!
Tonight we're back to having game night to try to get back to some kind of normalcy. As mentioned above...BALANCE.

Hello Hello!
Welcome to you, so glad you found us
My only trick during Pre-Op is to keep telling yourself, you will get through this!!!!!!!

Hello and Welcome!!
A very Merry Christmas to you, what a wonderful way to start out the new year .
I think you will be pleasantly suprised at how much your BP, Diabetes, etc, will change with the sleeve!

Hello Hello!
Welcome to you, so glad you found us
My only trick during Pre-Op is to keep telling yourself, you will get through this!!!!!!!

I was waiting for someone to point that out to me! My post was simply to show that this is hard work, these are the things we have to deal with, it's not all weight loss and wonderful feeling. She wanted to know my reality, this is what it is. I wanted to be brutally honest because people who want to know about surgery need to be prepared for all elements, this whole thing has a very important mental element.
Now let me be clear. I wake up and make the decisions I do because I am blessed to have this opportunity, and I understand how important my hard work is. Do I regret it, hell no I do not. This was the best decision for me completely, but it doesn't mean I can't be mad, angry, disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.
And that is what working with a professional has made me realize.

I was waiting for someone to point that out to me! My post was simply to show that this is hard work, these are the things we have to deal with, it's not all weight loss and wonderful feeling. She wanted to know my reality, this is what it is. I wanted to be brutally honest because people who want to know about surgery need to be prepared for all elements, this whole thing has a very important mental element.
Now let me be clear. I wake up and make the decisions I do because I am blessed to have this opportunity, and I understand how important my hard work is. Do I regret it, hell no I do not. This was the best decision for me completely, but it doesn't mean I can't be mad, angry, disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.
And that is what working with a professional has made me realize.

I was waiting for someone to point that out to me! My post was simply to show that this is hard work, these are the things we have to deal with, it's not all weight loss and wonderful feeling. She wanted to know my reality, this is what it is. I wanted to be brutally honest because people who want to know about surgery need to be prepared for all elements, this whole thing has a very important mental element.
Now let me be clear. I wake up and make the decisions I do because I am blessed to have this opportunity, and I understand how important my hard work is. Do I regret it, hell no I do not. This was the best decision for me completely, but it doesn't mean I can't be mad, angry, disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.
And that is what working with a professional has made me realize.

To answer your first question in the heading, no I am not happy I have the sleeve. Before people get upset by that, my meaning is I am mad and sad it had to come to this. I am mad that I can't control my weight on my own, can't control myself to eat normal portions. I am mad that I have to eat liquids only right now, that my stomach is sore, that I can't sleep very well at night. I am mad that when I sit down to dinner, I want so badly to eat what everyone else is having, I want TACO BELL. I know I sound whiny, but this is the truth. Every single day I have to wake up and make the decision to do what I can to make the best choices for myself. The surgery will help me to lose weight, but it doesn't fix why I eat or the fact that I want to eat SO BAD. Those things are right in my face every day since surgery and I have to deal with them. Cry at the dinner table like a 2 year old because I can't eat chicken and mashed potatoes. I mean I am 28 years old crying over food!!!! I am fortunate I was able to do this surgery, and I am thankful for the people who lift me up every single day to feel better. The sleeve will allow me to reach a weight goal. But one thing about the sleeve people don't realize until after you have the surgery...you have to deal with why you are obese and overweight. Those problems don't go away as the weight comes off, they only become more blinding. I am sorry to sound like a debbie downer tonight, but I am dealing with this stuff right now and it isn't fun! I wish you all of the best in your sleeve, and please don't let me scare you, that is not my purpose. I just wish I understood better the non weight loss part of this before hand. I wouldn't have changed getting the surgery, but I would have started to work on some of this stuff!