Hi there! I posted this at the SCH lapband support group as well..
I haven't had my Psych evaluation yet, I am scheduled fore next Friday.
God gave me this blob of a body and I am finally going through the process to receive the tool to sculpt something out of it. I don't feel like a failure at all. I've dieted as far back as I remember and now realize that it wasn't the right tool for the job. My body is the (huge) block of clay, and the LapBand is the sculpting tool. We all live in our own little World,
but you DO have a choice what path to take, depression is something
that I haven't ever really had a problem with, aside from those
awkward teenage years... Be the Clay! Allow your tool to aid you in
scuplting a smaller you! I just found out that my PCP didn't
document which diet that he had me on when I came in monthly for the
weight appointments and now I am looking at doing the monthly visits
for another 6 months. I went to him every month for 8 months last
time and while he *asked* me how I was doing (he had me on the 1800
Calorie Diabetic Diet even though I am not diabetic,) apparently the
only thing that he documented in my chart was my weight. I asked him this last Friday to amend the notations or write up a letter stating what the diet was and how I did for each month and he stated that he won't do that because he cannot recollect my answers for each of those months. I felt like I had been punched in the Stomach. God I hope that Lola has some magic up her sleeve! It's tough to wait for my tool to be given to me because I ooooze potential, just like the rest of you do, but it's a tough pill to swallow to think that I may be stuck making 6 more monthly visits to my Doctor, who by the way, is Dr. Clarence Friend @ Hampton Careplex. I am considering changing PCP's after about 10 years with him.... I don't feel that I have failed or am inadequate because of my optimism, I hope that it may be contagious and help others.... I am looking forward to buying new clothes for my Sculpted body but I hope and pray that I don't have to wait another 6 months. I know, I know, I have been fat this long, what's another 6 months, right? LOL A FRICKIN' ETERNITY! ) Have a good weekend.
-Alison