My heart aches for you. You are a wonderful daughter and I am sure they know that. Whether you are spiritual or not, god has a plan for all of us. 84 years on earth so far to be with your parents. WOW! In the end you can say I had the privlidge of having the most loving and giving parents. When I read this it makes me want to call my folks and tell them I love them. Think I will just do that. Use your faith to get through and time will heal. Ask for help and go to support groups. Yes, that "C" word sucks. I have lost many loved ones to it and it just sucks. I will pray for you and your family. God Bless.