Let me interpretate that for ya~ You cheated really means.........
I hate you, for the fact that you took a stance on your life and made that change that I sooooo desperatly Need! However since i'm soooo Pridefilled I will not allow myself to ask for assistance instead I thrive off attempting to making others such as yourself feel horrible about the choices I wish I would make for myself!!!! I deep down would LOVE to be in your shoes and have the confidence you have but I don't!
That's what she REALLY means when she says that~