Kekeboo

I am pre-op and this was really helpful. Sometimes you think your the only one that eats that way. That describes me to a T. I was concerned about what to expect afterwards especially since I don't wait for the "fullness" to set in. And WOW, 16 lbs...that is very encouraging.

I start my 2 week pre-op diet on July 2. I have my shakes ready, my freezer is full of chicken, fish and veggies. I started taking my multi-vitamin faithfully, post-op prescriptions are purchased. Phew, I am so ready for this. I went to the mall to buy my 10yr old new shoes. We spent less than hour and my knees and back are killing me. Some days I feel like I am carrying weights under my clothes, it's miserable and some days suffocating. I was not always a big girl. I was 130 lbs when i married 21 yrs ago. I never struggled with weight through high school or as a child. However, when i began having children my weight began to increase. I have blamed it on pregnancies for years and one day I noticed something very strange about my appearance. My face was swollen, my hair was falling out and my joints were becomeing increasingly painful. After many weeks of testing and different doctors, the end result came back as a form of Lupus. I had already had part of my throid removed, and just prior to getting my test results I had back surgery. This only impacted my weight gain...along with a lot of emotional eating. I am not completely innocent, I enjoy food and flavor. I enjoy trying new things to eat. I overindulged myself to 250 lbs. If I keep going, I will gain more weight. Somedays I would eat because it was the only thing to do. Somedays I would eat because I wanted to get the junk food out of my house and I felt guilty throwing it away. Somedays I would eat healthy and feel so good about not bloating and hurting...that didn't last long. So here I am...at the end of my rope grasping for life. I am so greatful to have this chance to find the old me again. I don't need a new me, I want that girl that used to walk with pride, cared about her appearance and new she could do anything I set my mind to. Look out world, she's coming back!

It's a choice only you can make...I agree about not watching You Tube. Research doctors in and out of your area, go to a seminar. I watched a bunch of You Tube videos, and became discouraged. So I said forget it, I am going to learn to live with my weight and become comfortable with it. I gasp for air walking upstairs in my house, my reflux makes me throw up often, my knees are so sore I can't walk or stand for more than 15 minutes at a time. I decided this isn't as comfortable as i thought it was. So, Lap Band here I come.

I was very fortunate that my insurance accepted the referall almost immediately. I was a little suprised since I am one of the smallest patients my doctor has. When he told me that I asked him to repeat himself...it's not often i get to hear a doctor tell me I am small. I went to my consult on May 22nd and surgery was scheduled that day for June 22nd. I ended up falling down a flight of stairs and got banged up pretty good, so we resceduled for July 16. I am so very excited. Preparing myself for the preop diet. Cant wait to see the progress. I posted on another forum that I plan to purchase a charm braclet and reward myself with a new charm at every goal met. Good luck to everyone!!

I am scheduled for my band on July 16th, I have a checklist of things I am looking forward to. I plan to purchase a charm bracelet and add a new charm at every goal I meet.

I spoke with my nurse yesterday and my surgical date has changed from July 12th to July16th. I am getting anxious on because I worry about my own personal will power. I eat whether I am hungry or not. I can tell myself over and over not to do it, but I love flavor. Notice I did say food. It's not that I need to fill up, I just cant get enough of the flavor of something good. Today is another new day. I know I have the choice to so what's right, I now need the will power.