reignoftara

Okay so a month and a half after my surgery I found out my husband had been having an affair for 6 years. I was so depressed, angry, and my sleeve went on the backburner. I quit going on this website. I have been struggling just to get from day to day. I am so thankful that I had my sleeve as my confidence grew with every pound lost. Perfect timing. Now I am back a different person then before. I am going back to school, and am happy I have shown such strength. Yes we are still together and in therapy I don't know if we will survive this but I know I will. I am focused on me now, too long I focused on my husband that was lying to me for so long, now it's my turn to live a life i've been waiting for. World here I come!!!!!

Okay so a month and a half after my surgery I found out my husband had been having an affair for 6 years. I was so depressed, angry, and my sleeve went on the backburner. I quit going on this website. I have been struggling just to get from day to day. I am so thankful that I had my sleeve as my confidence grew with every pound lost. Perfect timing. Now I am back a different person then before. I am going back to school, and am happy I have shown such strength. Yes we are still together and in therapy I don't know if we will survive this but I know I will. I am focused on me now, too long I focused on my husband that was lying to me for so long, now it's my turn to live a life i've been waiting for. World here I come!!!!!

Today I started my preop diet, also am quitting smoking. It's tough but I know I can do it I just keep thinking about my future and the future for my kids. Wow I'm just so hungry but I get to eat a meal at dinner so that's good. I've never been so excited for salad and protein. I just keep reminding myself that I can do this, I am determined!!!!!

Okay so my surgery is 8/7/12 and it cannot come to soon. the longer I am this big the worse I feel. I wake up and my ankles hurt my body is sore I'm so sick of feeling this way I am bigger than I've ever been which is why I decided to have the surgery. I kinda wish I could have decided sooner so I could be having it now. I know it's not that long but every day has become a chore for me. Keep in mind I have 4 kids ages 8,6,3,and 2 so it's not lie I can just sit around all day if I could I would be much bigger I'm sure. I know this sounds like a gripe session and I guess it is but I don't want to let my husband know how much my excess weight is affecting me and I just needed to vent I feel like somethings gonna happen to stop me from my surgery and I'm terrified. I guess I just want it so bad and sometimes I stress myself out like that. I just feel ill almost all the time now , headaches which I'm pretty sure are because sleeping is so uncomfortable now I wake up in pain. Gosh August can't come too soon. I try to remind myself that there is now a light at the tunnel. The clock is just ticking so slowly! I'll be alright just had to get it out ok now I will continue looking forward and know that it will soon be worth all this pain.

So tomorrow I start my preop diet. I am scared this will be the hardest thing I've ever done. I am determined and I want and need this so bad. My surgery is in 2 weeks I am nervous but am ready to start a new life for my family and I. Here goes...............

3 weeks left omg it's going by fast. I am starting to get a little nervous about going to Mexico. I've done all my research and have chosen a great DR. but it's still scary. I'm trying to think only about the positive changes that are to come in my future. Start my preop diet in a week. 8/7/12 here I come!!!!!