Gijane2012

Thanks Dooter, appreciate the support!!

Waiting for approval....

Said I was done with surgeries but four years of believing it was my fault I wasn't losing weight with the lapband.....I feel like I need to get in captain's chair and take control. I would go to have fills and really have no success. I would become depressed, then stop going...vicious cycle until this year. I should've been more proactive in the first place. Last month I went back to surgeon's office who performed my band surgery. I told them why I hadn't been there in over a year. It was like for the first time they listened...it was the first time I screamed (let my voice be heard instead of being a passive patient). I have a leak....all the internalizing I've done. Moving forward, they submitted paperwork to insurance company. I want to call the everyday (never been "that" type of person). I dont but I do every couple of days. I need to make this happen....and although this thread is titled patiently waiting......I am far from patient. I am not the obsessive type but this here.....I am obsessing on. I need to get my life back. I wrote in my first post on this site that I've seen the beauty of plus sized women. The fashionable one, confident....those who embrace their love of food.....it just has never been me....I applaud them. I have always seen myself small...I was before when I lost 100 pounds. I didn't want to have another surgery, but I need this. I pray first and foremost that I am approved, and I pray my approval is swift. Ready to live again.

Waiting for approval....

I am waiting insurance approval after failing with the lapband or as some posted on this site, the lapband failing me. I cannot wait to get to the other side of this....I am still that woman and I yearn to crossover to a new me. I lost weight before on my own and I remember experiencing those joyful things and not feeling like an outcast. I respect the plus sized women who have embraced themselves.....are fashionable...confident...it has never been me. This is about being comfortable in my skin and I am so far from that now.