My story??? Oh God. I am pre op. I am looking at having the funds for the surgery in Jan of next year,barring any financial catastrophe!
I seem to be continually gaining. Perhaps it is the thought that once I have the surgery, life (eating) will never be the same!
I had picked up the 'pop habit' about 3 years ago...normally,I drank a lot of tea, milk, or coffee. Now, I seem to CRAVE one or two large sodas per day...very bad.
I've been diagnosed diabetic for about two years now...yet I always forget my half a pill.....
I had a weight loss from my then all time high of 272 down to 200. I had gained to 257 and then lost down to 197...staying under 200 lbs has always been such a challenge. I was walking EVERYWHERE,working a physical job and went dancing,to the gym,etc.
I had a problem with my rotator cuff,lost my job.My Mom's had a health crisis,requiring me to become her caregiver,driver,shopper,shower aide,etc. I also work about 70 hrs per week. I average 5 or 6 hours of sleep per night, often broken.
I no longer excercise. I am off work at 930 am and back to work at 230pm. I get my Mom breakfast,showered,mail,household chores,etc in those hours.
My Mom is extremely heavy as well. I dont want to be a whiner and sound as if I blame her for all my troubles. I will say that when I had to live with her in 2004, I was insane with fear and anger that I would again become fat. It is SOOOOO difficult to maintaing healthy eating patterns when you are submerged,thick and deep back into your childhood drama regarding food. My Mom is diabetic,and demands my purchasing ice creams,cakes,pastries,pies,etc.
I am angry that I am the one to shop for these items,as it sets me off. I dont want to even go to these sections at the grocery store, Now I have to bring the **** home??? I AM FEARFUL OF AFTER SURGERY. AS I WILL STILL BE REQUIRED TO PURCHASE AND HAVE THESE ITEMS IN MY HOME.
I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR CHANGING ME.....THERE IS NO CHANGING ANOTHER PERSON,ESPECIALLY ONE WHO HOLD NO HOPE OR DESIRE FOR IMPROVEMENT OF THEMSELVES.
So.......I am planning on having surgery, reducing my hours to only working nights and maybe two double shifts per week,so that I can have some EXERCISE TIME DAILY. I will NEED THIS in order to lose!!!
I AM FEARFUL,THAT IF I HAVE MORE HOURS AT HOME,I WILL HAVE MORE HOURS OF MY TIME BEING DEMANDED UPON AND TIME WITH THE DEMON FOODS!!! blahhhhH!!!!!
Just started therapy regarding this. This friday will be my second appointment.
Height: 5 feet 3 inches
Starting Weight: 320 lbs
Weight on Day of Surgery:
Current Weight: 320 lbs
Goal Weight: 150 lbs
Surgery: Gastric Sleeve
Surgery Status: Pre Surgery
First Dr. Visit:
Surgery Date: 02/10/2015
Hospital Stay: 4 Days
Surgery Funding: Self Paid
Insurance Outcome: Not covered