mendymayhem

Thank you!

It is a pulmonary test. For lung function.

Have to go get one in a few hours. I'm a little nervous about it. I think because I get conflicting info online, and don't know of anyone who has had this done. Any info would be great. Thanks

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. My mother was very abusive. Mostly emotional, I feel thats the worst. The scars of her cigarette burns healed years ago, but I still hear the words of cruelty. As a child I didn't realize this, but my mom was sick, mentally sick. I don't mean to imply that your mom is. my mom was also scared. Scared of my independence , of my having a life or activity that she was not the absolute center of. She would verbally humiliate me around new people in order to keep me from reaching out again and developing any sort of closeness. Enough, because I could go on and on, she had such a hold and it had nothing to do with my culture, just her power over me. One day I decided I would never let her hear me cry over her cruelty ( I cried in the shower ect instead), then one day I decided I would not react to her taunts anymore. This all took time, but it took all the power out of her hands. I was kind, respectful, helpful,and upbeat around her, regardless of her cruelty . Eventually, it worked. She didn't have that power over me anymore. I wanted desperately for a healthy relationship with her. I have finally learned that we can't force anyone to want or work for the relationship we desire. So she passed away living the way she wanted. And although I still miss not having a mother who nurtured me, I have a clean conscience about how I treated her. Please, if you have resources for support use them. And remember to look at yourself through our creators eyes, not your mothers. You are a beautiful person with beautiful qualities and of course flaws you can work on as well. This is a great place for encouragement so come here often! Thinking of you, mendymayhem. :-)

I meant 48.

Right now I'm often told I don't look my age (48). I'm afraid that once I'm sleeved and start losing weight, my face and neck will un- plump and I'll look so much older that my age!

Is Cigna an insurance company? And what do you mean by peer to peer? Thanks to all for support.

Thank you so much for including that form letter. It is very similar to the one my surgeon sent my pcp. We made an appointment and filled it out. I'm grateful that the woman who I deal with at the insurance co takes carefull notes. She is very familiar with my case and can't believe the vague records my pcp has kept. She is gonna go to her sup and fill him in. Hopefully her conversation with him and amended records will get me back on track.

So after almost two months, my pcp forwards my records to my surgeon who submitted them for vsg approval. Denied. Why? Because my pcp failed to note anything about my weight loss efforts between 1/27/12 to 6/04/12! Not a word! And we all know that six CONSECUTIVE months of pcp documentation is required. Arrrrgghhh! So I made an appointment for tomarrow to see if he will amend my file. And although I want to go in and give them a piece of my mind, I feel that's gonna work against me at this point. Worst case, my six months begin on 6/04/12. Did I mention that today was my tentative surgery date? Lovely.

The decision to proceed with any medical treatment is highly a highly personal one. As heavy people we are often judged based solely on our size.That's not to say we have no responsibility here. But making assumptions about someone is just plain wrong. I'm not ready ready to list my weight here, but it is unbelievable. But my blood pressure, cholesterol ,triglycerides are perfect. I am a type 2 diabetic with a currant A1c of 10.4. I'm on many meds including two insulins four times a day. You can understand why I am taking this route because in at least some small way, you can relate. Those who can't , can't . And I'm trying to learn to be okay with that. We don't fully understand what we've never lived. If we had a heart problem or cancer or kidney disease, a radical procedure to save our life would be expected. My close friends and family understand and support this. Those who aren't educatated in what we are about to do, don't get it . That's ok. Just be sure that you understand, and come to peace with whatever you decide.

Wel it's no wonder you can't sleep. I don't have a date yet. But when I think about having to get in the car and drive when it's time, I can't picture doing it! But I will. And so will you. As corny as it sounds, this will be the beginning of a wonderful chapter in your life. Once you get to the hospital,they will be just great with you ,you'll just go with flow and the next thing you know, this time tomarrow, it will be behind you and your new chapter begins! I hope you have a solid support team and use them often. Hopefully, one day soon I'll be asking you post- op questions. Now say a prayer, ask for peace of heart, and get some rest. Thinking of you...

That made no sense. I meant a sugar and fat filled frenzy! How did auto correct come up with language ?

Please don't eat that candy bar! If your like me, it would only trigger a language and fat filled frenzy.

On June 5th my surgeons office said it was now time to submit to my insurance for authorization . It's now mid July and my primary still has not sent my needed records. End of June he had me come in so we could fill out surgeon forms together , and that is the only thing he has sent. They need the last six months of records. The girl in his office told the surgeons office, "if it's in his basket, he'll get to it when he gets to it". Can you believe it.? Meanwhile although my pcp more than doubled my lantus, and now has me shooting up humalog three times a day , my a1c is still climbing and has gone from 5.7 to 10.4 in the last year, my body is covered in injection bruises, I'm hot and cranky, and I'm scared. Sure I want to be thin and look good, but what I really want is to avoid kidney damage, heart damage, nerve damage. I want a decent quality of life and a healthy measure of self esteem. I feel stuck in the middle of two dr offices who are supposed to know what they're doing. I've done my homework, jumped through the hoops. I want this to go to the insurance company. And I realize that it may not be approved this time, but at least I can go on from there. Right now I'm stuck on the phone encouraging people to do their jobs. Arrrrrgh!

On June 5th my surgeons office said it was now time to submit to my insurance for authorization . It's now mid July and my primary still has not sent my needed records. End of June he had me come in so we could fill out surgeon forms together , and that is the only thing he has sent. They need the last six months of records. The girl in his office told the surgeons office, "if it's in his basket, he'll get to it when he gets to it". Can you believe it.? Meanwhile although my pcp more than doubled my lantus, and now has me shooting up humalog three times a day , my a1c is still climbing and has gone from 5.7 to 10.4 in the last year, my body is covered in injection bruises, I'm hot and cranky, and I'm scared. Sure I want to be thin and look good, but what I really want is to avoid kidney damage, heart damage, nerve damage. I want a decent quality of life and a healthy measure of self esteem. I feel stuck in the middle of two dr offices who are supposed to know what they're doing. I've done my homework, jumped through the hoops. I want this to go to the insurance company. And I realize that it may not be approved this time, but at least I can go on from there. Right now I'm stuck on the phone encouraging people to do their jobs. Arrrrrgh!

On June 5th my surgeons office said it was now time to submit to my insurance for authorization . It's now mid July and my primary still has not sent my needed records. End of June he had me come in so we could fill out surgeon forms together , and that is the only thing he has sent. They need the last six months of records. The girl in his office told the surgeons office, "if it's in his basket, he'll get to it when he gets to it". Can you believe it.? Meanwhile although my pcp more than doubled my lantus, and now has me shooting up humalog three times a day , my a1c is still climbing and has gone from 5.7 to 10.4 in the last year, my body is covered in injection bruises, I'm hot and cranky, and I'm scared. Sure I want to be thin and look good, but what I really want is to avoid kidney damage, heart damage, nerve damage. I want a decent quality of life and a healthy measure of self esteem. I feel stuck in the middle of two dr offices who are supposed to know what they're doing. I've done my homework, jumped through the hoops. I want this to go to the insurance company. And I realize that it may not be approved this time, but at least I can go on from there. Right now I'm stuck on the phone encouraging people to do their jobs. Arrrrrgh!

I have a tentative date of July 30. Waiting for approval. But for the last several weeks heres what I've been doing. And my reasoning. Soon I'll face that 2 week liquid diet without choice. Right now the choice is mine. Somehow that makes me feel better. I bought a protein powder at Walmart, BodyFortress whey protein. Been using it for years. 26 pro,140 cal, 2 suger. I always buy vanilla so I can add flavoring. I love banana and coconut. I replace as many meals as I can manage right now. Right now I feel like I want something more solid so I'll put in Greek yogurt and frozen berries. ( I always add at least ice because I like the shake like feel.) When I want something more foodish, I add hot water to a Swanson broth packet and try that.( never thought I'd drink broth!). And because I can right now, if none of the above gets it for me, I eat something reasonable. I'm hoping this makes the two liquid diet easier. This is my first post. Can someone tell me how to edit my profile? I'm a rookie.