Hi Everyone,
This is my first post, so sorry if I don't get the lingo right. I am going through the process to get VSG for the 2nd time. Last year, I was diagnosed with pre-diabetes 3 months after being diagnosed with obstructive sleep apnea. So...I started to look into getting a band. I went to one orientation, saw the surgeon (Dr. Feng from Palo Alto Medical Foundation), attended 2 nutrition appointments. I also took a couple of classes for the pre-diabetes. Once I started doing the cutting back that I needed for the pre-diabetes, I dropped 40 lbs. and I stopped the surgery process. I figured I could do it on my own and I didn't like the idea of a foreign object in my body. So things happened (marriage drama, work changes, etc.) and I gained 20 lbs. back. Yay! (I am 5' 10 1/2" and 319 lbs--yowza, I've never told anyone that).
So now, I'm a year older, I am no longer pre-diabetic, but I don't want to have these problems anymore. I hate that I have to hold on to two things to stand up out of a restaurant booth or getting up off the floor. Now that my kids are getting older I'm so worried that their friends are going to make fun of me and be mean to them because I'm fat. So, I met with the surgeon again and we decided together to do VSG. Then I went to my second orientation, saw the nutritionist and had all my tests done (including the swallow test--that was fun). Now, I'm going back to the nutritionist next week and I'm worried that I've gained weight. I keep eating bad things (comforting things) even though I know I'm supposed to be losing weight. I don't know where to start. I need to walk and I can't find (make) the time. I have two kids and a dog, but I can't peel myself out of bed in the morning to go for a walk. I have had a cold the past 3 weeks so that's made it easy to lie in bed and veg, but I just don't know how to get motivated.
I want to do this so badly. I know I have several months to go because my insurance requries six months of nutrition (cumulative, 3 must be consecutive). How do I do this? How do I get my head in the right place?
Sorry to go on & on. I'm just frustrated.
Thanks to all of you for your advise. I love reading these boards. They're so helpful. Everyone is so inspiring and I know I'm making the right decision, I just need to motivate.
Thanks!