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I am having a time here lately with cravings and eating. I need to step back and remember to measure my food and take my time and convince myself that there are foods that are not good for me and that just are not my friend. I dont know what has caused me to be like this when I was doing so good before. I had surgery on August 1 and today is October 31 and I have lost 41 pounds. I want to continue to lose and I haven't been losing lately. I am having trouble taking my vitamins, they make me sick to my stomach and I am just really frustrated with myself. I dont know why I just cannot get a grip when it comes to freaking food. GRRRRRR it just pisses me off because I dont want to mess this up. I am scared I will over do it and then stretch my band and then boom I am right back where I was. I don't want to screw this up I want to get control and be healthy. I am just really aggravated. So if anyone reads this and if you have any help or ideas on getting a grip about things PLEASE let me know.

Here I am one month and 7 days since my surgery. I can say that there are days that I weigh myself and get aggravated because I havent lost or lost more and then realize that I am just a month into my surgery and to give myself a break. I went and got my hair cut into a new short cut and love it and like how I feel about myself with it. I decided that I needed to give myself something for doing so well the first month. I have a friend that is having the lapband surgery the end of this month and she has given me some great "positive" feed back and ideas. I wish she and I lived closer to each other so that we could work on exercise together. She is in Texas and I am in Colorado. She gave her band a name (its Sophie) and said that they are gonna be life long friends and she was going to appreciate it as a friend. I hadnt thought of it like that but she has a point. My band is my life long friend that is going to help me fight my weight battle and I should appreciate my friend and not take it for granted. So as silly as this sounds, I have named my band as well and her name is Gracie.
 
So I go to the doctor on Monday (the 10th) and I believe I will get my first fill. I feel like I need it because I have found that I get hungry more often now. I am working on drinking my water like I am suppose to and I have download the fitness pal ap and love it!!! HUGE help in keeping up with what I am eating and calories/protein. Great help. I worry about messing up but I dont make it my main focus. I do know that eating slower is harder than I thought it would be but I just have to take my time.
 
Hope everyone has a great week and I will get back after my docs appointment.

Here I am one month and 7 days since my surgery. I can say that there are days that I weigh myself and get aggravated because I havent lost or lost more and then realize that I am just a month into my surgery and to give myself a break. I went and got my hair cut into a new short cut and love it and like how I feel about myself with it. I decided that I needed to give myself something for doing so well the first month. I have a friend that is having the lapband surgery the end of this month and she has given me some great "positive" feed back and ideas. I wish she and I lived closer to each other so that we could work on exercise together. She is in Texas and I am in Colorado. She gave her band a name (its Sophie) and said that they are gonna be life long friends and she was going to appreciate it as a friend. I hadnt thought of it like that but she has a point. My band is my life long friend that is going to help me fight my weight battle and I should appreciate my friend and not take it for granted. So as silly as this sounds, I have named my band as well and her name is Gracie.
 
So I go to the doctor on Monday (the 10th) and I believe I will get my first fill. I feel like I need it because I have found that I get hungry more often now. I am working on drinking my water like I am suppose to and I have download the fitness pal ap and love it!!! HUGE help in keeping up with what I am eating and calories/protein. Great help. I worry about messing up but I dont make it my main focus. I do know that eating slower is harder than I thought it would be but I just have to take my time.
 
Hope everyone has a great week and I will get back after my docs appointment.

Here I am one month and 7 days since my surgery. I can say that there are days that I weigh myself and get aggravated because I havent lost or lost more and then realize that I am just a month into my surgery and to give myself a break. I went and got my hair cut into a new short cut and love it and like how I feel about myself with it. I decided that I needed to give myself something for doing so well the first month. I have a friend that is having the lapband surgery the end of this month and she has given me some great "positive" feed back and ideas. I wish she and I lived closer to each other so that we could work on exercise together. She is in Texas and I am in Colorado. She gave her band a name (its Sophie) and said that they are gonna be life long friends and she was going to appreciate it as a friend. I hadnt thought of it like that but she has a point. My band is my life long friend that is going to help me fight my weight battle and I should appreciate my friend and not take it for granted. So as silly as this sounds, I have named my band as well and her name is Gracie.
 
So I go to the doctor on Monday (the 10th) and I believe I will get my first fill. I feel like I need it because I have found that I get hungry more often now. I am working on drinking my water like I am suppose to and I have download the fitness pal ap and love it!!! HUGE help in keeping up with what I am eating and calories/protein. Great help. I worry about messing up but I dont make it my main focus. I do know that eating slower is harder than I thought it would be but I just have to take my time.
 
Hope everyone has a great week and I will get back after my docs appointment.

Here I am one month and 7 days since my surgery. I can say that there are days that I weigh myself and get aggravated because I havent lost or lost more and then realize that I am just a month into my surgery and to give myself a break. I went and got my hair cut into a new short cut and love it and like how I feel about myself with it. I decided that I needed to give myself something for doing so well the first month. I have a friend that is having the lapband surgery the end of this month and she has given me some great "positive" feed back and ideas. I wish she and I lived closer to each other so that we could work on exercise together. She is in Texas and I am in Colorado. She gave her band a name (its Sophie) and said that they are gonna be life long friends and she was going to appreciate it as a friend. I hadnt thought of it like that but she has a point. My band is my life long friend that is going to help me fight my weight battle and I should appreciate my friend and not take it for granted. So as silly as this sounds, I have named my band as well and her name is Gracie.
 
So I go to the doctor on Monday (the 10th) and I believe I will get my first fill. I feel like I need it because I have found that I get hungry more often now. I am working on drinking my water like I am suppose to and I have download the fitness pal ap and love it!!! HUGE help in keeping up with what I am eating and calories/protein. Great help. I worry about messing up but I dont make it my main focus. I do know that eating slower is harder than I thought it would be but I just have to take my time.
 
Hope everyone has a great week and I will get back after my docs appointment.

Well I am on day 6 post op. I have lost a total of 15 pounds and feeling pretty good. I am really tired all the time but I am sure that will change before long. School is starting next week and I am kind of bummed about that. I like having my daughter at home with me for company. I am kind of going through the gloomies. My oldest daughter moved back to Texas and it wasnt a happy moment. We had been fighting alot because of her boyfriend and I couldnt make her stay. Just some history, We moved to Colorado a year ago and its been a really hard move. I have two girls..... one is 19 the other is 12 and we moved them from where they had grown up their whole lives in Texas to the Denver area. My kids are my life and this last thing where my oldest moved had just been really hard on me. I would love to move back to Texas but I just dont see that happening anytime soon. So here I sit in Colorado with my family split apart, I am tired and honestly have no friends in the area, I am all of the sudden very unsure about my eating and if I am doing it right. I know.... I sound like a cry baby and I just need to re read things in my lap band book. I am so scared of screwing up that I am hyper sensitive . LOL I am working very hard to keep my liquids going and I have been eating jello, and I just started drinking a little bit of a protein shake, broth. I will get through my gloomies. I just needed somewhere to vent