No, you are NOT crazy! I feel like I just read my life story. I am considerably larger that you were on your surgery day..heck....I am dreaming of the day that I weigh 261...I have always been the FAT child, the FAT teenager, the FAT adult. Kids in school would walk past me and sing that stupid 1-800-96-Jenny song from the Jenny Craig commercials. I have tried EVERY diet out there, pills, shots, drops, low calorie, no carb, Weight Watchers...I mean EVERYTHING. I would lose some...then gain it all back and then some. When I met my son's father, he was married, but he wanted me..I thought...wow..finally I have found someone that will love me even though I am HUGE. That didn't last long, I got pregnant, he cheated on me...we split up and I haven't been with anyone since. I focus my life on work and raising my son. I know that he loves me no matter what and doesn't care what I look like. He tells me Im pretty everyday. I am unfulfilled in my life though. I want to share my life with someone..I want to feel comfortable walking into a place with my friends and not have people staring at me and judging me. I take alot of my anger out on the world and those around me which then makes me feel like a crappy person...So yes I can relate...more than you will ever know.
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