Everything posted by tifferoni326
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Do we really forgive if we can't forget?
Ok so heres my deal.. When I was in kindergarden, I was molested by three of my male classmates during nap time. The teacher caught them and all of us were taken to the principal's office. Now I was..heck AM a good kid, and the principals office terrified me, and my teacher dragged me in there by my arm, I can still remember her fingernails diggin in my skin. Well the principal told all of us how bsd we were and how disappointed our parents would be..and then the big thing..this would go on your permenant record..this was absolutely terrifying to me..I sat there being lectured for something that was not my fault. Well I never spoke to my parents about this. I went through most of my life with this horrible thing in me. When my younger sister went to kindergarden and had the same teacher I begged my mom to get her out of there, when she asked why, I couldnt tell her, because I was too ashamed. My mom always told me the whole nine yards about if someone touchs you tell her etc etc, yet my principal tolf me it was my fault..I finally told my mom last year. She was so upset that it had been hidden. of the three boys, i graduated with one of them. He was in the prom court, star of the basketball team and one of the most popular kids in school. For years, I blocked out this incident, seriously from like 2nd-6th grade or so, but I always hated this boy, yet didnt know why, until I found my old kindergarden yearbook, and saw thier pictures and it came back to me. The thing is, even though now I remember the incident, I dont hate him any more. I realize that they probally didnt know what they were doing or whatever. I have forgiven them of the deed, but I never want to forget it. On a side note, I believe I am unable to forgive the teacher. Whenever I see her my face twists into this horrible scowl..not a good look. She on the other hand has no idea why Im mad. The principal was dismissed several years ago for misconduct Now I know what people say about childhood memories, and how often they are made up, but this really happened to me, and according to my therapists, it explains why for years after I wet my pants..anyways the point is, that while some might believe it would be easier to forgive if you forget, this was not the case for me, because only when I remembered could I remember to forgive, as much as I can
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Oh god.
I doubt that this will make you feel better, but I am so jealous of you right now!! I am hoping to start grad school in the fall 08..in biology. I graduate this december w a degree in Zoology/minor in biochemistry. Just remember that you know most of this stuff, if you can breathe during the test..if not, well when you pass out from lack of oxygen to brain, maybe he'll take it easy on you!!
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Imagine my surprise
Ok so I know you are just raving on here but I saw your post and it ticked me off. As a student I can not stand it when people do this. If you want the notes and stuff, get your ass to class like everyone else. I get people asking me for my notes all the time because I type mine up on my computer...and I laugh. Just laugh. Im sorry but do people just think they can skate through life? Im sorry that you are spoilt and dont believe in "hard work pays off" but I was raised to believe that if I work hard enough, it will show. O I hope he fails..infact I hope he gets a negative number on the test...can you accidently send him the wrong notes?! haha Im sorry, Ill have bad karma for the rest of the day cause of that ..o well worth it!
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Roux-En-Y or Lap Band
the surgeon who held the seminar i went to, not my doc but another, was pushing the R en Y route as well. Found out why at the end of the seminar. A lady asked straight up the cost of both surgeries, and he tried to back out of the question but the lady wouldnt let him...Lap band he said was 30-40,000..R en Y..70-90,000. I think this might be the reason they push it so much. My aunt had a by pass two years ago. She lost alot of weight very quickly, but was out of work for 2 weeks. Now shes gaining again bc she never learned how to eat properly and she got stretched out. Even when I am at my loose-est, I have gained enough through this experience to eat way better than I used to... However, as everyone else has said, it is a personal thing and everyone is different. I love my band and am so happy right now good luck either way you choose!
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banding over Thanksgiving week
Awesome way to spend a vacation! I too am in school ( Texas State) and had my surgery in the middle of the week during school. I had it on a wed, and i had a test I couldnt get out of on Friday..I remember however that the teacher did take pity on my grading a lil bit...I had one of those pouch things that delievers pain meds to the incision site. It was the size of a fist and had an IV line straight to my tummy. Of course, I did wear it outside my shirt to get the pity... Well this is one way to make sure you wont over eat this thanksgiving
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Shapewear! Anybody used these?
I will of course post pics in the dress..as soon as i get it back from being altered..too big doncha know!
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Puppy Pics
Yes she is a bull terrier.. I call her an English Bull terrier because people hear bull terrier and think pit..how anyone could see her nose and think pit is beyond me..but... O and laurend for recognizing her as such!
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Any Younger Bansters Here?
Thanks for the congrats everyone, I still cant believe this is me sometimes! As I am typing this, I am wearing size 10 abercrombie jeans..before surgery, I doubt I wouldve been able to fit my calf in them!!
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Shapewear! Anybody used these?
I am going to be a bridesmaid soon and this last w/e tried on the dress...coming out of the dressingroom the last words you want to hear is " O well that looks fine.." Ive freakin lost almost 100 lbs, looking for a better compliment at this point..bought one of these..i looked freakin hott!
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Puppy Pics
<p>very cute.. if i could figure out how to put a pic in here i would show off my workout buddy...</p>
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A little disappointed
You know its funny, but 2-3 months ago, I felt the dame way as you. I wasn't losing quickly and was trying so hard. Then for some reason, my body figured out that this was not just another freak diet, but a real thing and i started losing weight quickly, in a month I went to skin tight 14s to comfortable 12s..it may be for you that your body is still fighting the weightloss. Dont give up and keep trying
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Lap Band and a Wicked Sweet Tooth
Its all in your head. before being banded, I used to love eating Italian food like fetticine and Sphaghetti (no clue if spelled right!) and all kinds of carbs, plus soda, o man I could drink like my weight in dr pepper. Post band: I cant handle Pasta of any kind. None. And I seriously thought that it would make me depressed and I would miss it, and sometimes, if some ones eating a mound of pasta infront of me, I do miss it. But most of the time, Im thankful that I no longer have that addiction hanging over my head. I dont drink soda anymore, and the sweet tooth cravings are easily satisfied. If I am dying for something sweet, I make cupcakes. If they are chocolate, I add i can of diet coke and the dry batter, mix and cook, cuts down ALOT of the cravings, if vanilla then diet sprite and strawberry diet big red etc. theres also low cal choc and sugar free candy. But honestly the first months are hardest, but then you'll soon find that food no longer has the same control over you it once did Also it can only ruin you if you let it. You can monitor how much you eat and make sure to balance it out with healhy things. Ive also taken to chewing gum and lolipops, they take longer to eat :eek: seriously though, a sweet tooth probally wont hold you back too much. any weight loss is better than none, and even if you are slower than some at losing, the point is you will lose! You have to learn that some foods aren't worth being fat over. Take it from me, you will get over the constant cravings and obession, and if you do slip up, the band will be there to help you recover good luck!
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Any Younger Bansters Here?
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Hey guys just wanted to say congrats to everyone recently banded or about to be. Im 22 in school, and my life has never been better since getting banded! Its amazing cause Ill hold up clothes to myself and be like those arent gonna fit..and they do. When I bought my first pair of jeans size 10, I wanted to leave the sticker on the leg saying the size because I was so proud of it!!- NSV (Non Scale Victories)
Ok so mine involves my little sister who has no idea what it is to be fat, and shes very happy for me and what not, but one day she walked into my room with a pair of jeans that she wanted me to go donate because they were too big for her. They were Abercrombie jeans, size 10. I tried them on just to see, knowing they wouldnt fit...They fit. Not only that but my little sister storme out of the house in a temper because she was afraid I would raid her closet...I have never been able to raid her closet for anything except socks..she came home later and i was raiding her closet!! oops Also another victory is that my doctor says I am one of his star paitents..they didnt recognize me last time I showed up One more.. I went out to a bar not long ago, and got carded, not a big deal, Im 22. They wouldnt serve me alcohol because I had lost so much weight and now dont look like my pic!! YAY:clap2: Since Feb 2007 Ive gone from a size 22/24 jeans to size 10 a 3x top to a large! Ive gone from a 44 DDD cup to a 32 C- How do you decide?
I personally knew this was right for me because I was tired just sick and tired of being fat. I would lose weight and gain it back again and again. I got tired of having to not do things because I was fat, things skinny people dont appreciate, like going to a typical store and finding something to wear, or haveing someone hug you and they can wrap thier hands around you... As far as complications I've dealt with things one at a time, as they come As to being disappointed..No way. Absolutely its not exactly fun not being able to drown myself in food and eat whatever I want. Its a pain sometimes to plan out what I am going to eat...HOWEVER I am so much more comfortable with myself. I am happy and am doing things that I wouldve NEVER done before the surgery. I no longer look in the mirror and say to myself, "not bad with what you are working with", now its like "O yeah I look GOOOD!" :eek: I would honestly do this surgery again if I could go back a year..even if I had more complications and vomitting. I have so much more self respect for myself, and I had no idea I was so hard on myself. Every time I walked in the room I would play this lil mind game with myself..Whose the fattest one here...I always won, and sometimes even todayI catch myself playig that game..but I stop myself because Im not fat any more. I am a lil on the heavy side, but not fat. This is the first time in my life. I am 22 and now weigh the same amount as when I was in 6th grade and broke my leg. Thats amazing. I have two sisters, one of which is an Einstein and the other is the type that when she walks by, guys looks. I used to tell people one sister had the brains, the other the looks and I had the personality..well someone actually stopped me once and said Well Tiffaney, you know youre quite pretty too....Ive been saying that for at least 5-6 years, and No one has ever disagreed with me before. Do what you believe is right. Only you know yourself.- Movies that make fun of fat people
OMG if anyone told me i looked like the girl in Shallow Hal...I might, no i would go crazy on thier butt. Not that she wasnt pretty etc, but that whole movie was directed at emphasizing how fat she was... Anyone see the movie Summer Catch..Well in it this character is seeing this girl behind his friends back and he wont tell his friends bc shes "fat" ok whatever..well they show this girl..shes like a size 14 or so..not fat...just not freaking paris hilton thin. Made me so mad!! I would kill to b a 14..and according to the casting people shes fat...grr.. I cant watch anything that makes fun of fat people. of course I also dont watch movies and stuff that make fun of retarded people, deaf people, handicapped people...Im kinda a bleedin heart- Whats the worst you've heard?
Ok so I have two sisters, one older one younger. Now everyone that knows all of us has us stereotyped for ease of remembering..my older sister is the smart one, shes in dental school..nevermind that i am a senior getting a bio degree myslef..my younger sister has always been the pretty one..me Im the fat funny one. One day my aunt told me "I'm just not sure of how to think about you now that youve lost so much weight. " What like my weight was my defining characteristic! Say nothing about my Shirley temple like curly hair , sarcastic outlook or witty personality..What do you call the fat one when shes not fat... But really the worst was after my band I started losing weight (duh!)and went down to a size 18. Well my sister, whose college eating habits are catching up to her is a size 18. Well, I no longer am. Fact is, Im like a 15 now..Well I offered her my jeans. They were only worn for like a month or two, so still in good shape.."O, I wont wear your fat jeans!" and I was like Megan, if they fit you, then wear them..wouldnt even try them on..because her fitting into them would mean the sky would begin to fall apparently...bc theres no way in heck that she could be fatter than me!!- being fat is this whole stereotype
Grr. Ok so why it it that because you are fat you are supposed to o i dont know..STUFF your freaking face at the sight of food? I go out with a guy friend and I am not filled at the time we went out and I just order a side salad..mostly bc Im cheap, but also bc im on a diet..anyways he looks at me like Im crazy and is like arent you gonna order more, why arent you eating youre gonna get hungry in a while yada yada..Im like what bc I am fat I have to order a 3 course meal and than stab a hunk of food off your plate and stuff it down my throat? O I also have a ready supply of candy bars in my purse and 8 flavors of ice cream in my fridge. Give me a freaking break!!!! Excuse me while I order three cakes..grr.. Just cause im fat doesnt mean Im a freaking heifer!! I dont eat an insane amount of food, before or after my band... THEN another thing. Why are we defined by our weight...When people dont know your name or are talking to people who dont whys it always That big girl...why cant it be the girl with curly hair thats big..or the curly hair with glasses thats big..why does it always start with big? Like youve seen one big girl, Youve seen them all!! One last thing..why does it cost more to dress nice if youre big?! Im sorry but its not that much extra fabric! grr- Official Bitching thread.....
Has anyone else noticed how much a pain in the behind they are..I am so freaking frusterated right now that I want to swear them all off and become a hermit with a bunch of cats!!! Ok so I am younger than many on here, being 22 and not married. Been talking to this guy for several months. I mean talking as we hang out every day together and text and call each other and do things together. Well last week he stopped returning my calls and wont text me back!!!! Not returning a call is a pet peeve of mine anyways, but the thing is I know him well enough to know hes not doing anything better. Hes sitting on his freaking couch watching tv..ya know being a productive human being ! ( Im sorry I tend to get sarcastic whenever Im mad!) Is it so hard to call me back. Im sorry I didnt know that it was difficult to answer a cell phone.Or maybe hes concerned about getting brain cancer..o wait that cant be it, bc texting a person doesnt require the phone to be held next to the ear. Maybe hes found someone better to talk to. FINE WHATEVER. Answer the ***** phone and say that youre busy. Totally fine. Grr. So A huge portion of me wants to drive to his house and pull crazy on him by poundin on his door like a freakin stalker and seeing whats up..another part of me wants to so run off my frustrations and get super hot and skinny and then accidentally run into him. Even thinking about this whole situation pisses me off!! I realize to those of you that are married this might seem juvenile, but really all Im asking of the man is to pick up the phone when it rings..in my book this should not require an act of GOD! hmm..seriously I think being a hermit with a lot of pets might b the life for me- Feb'07 Bandsters: August Exercise Challenge
Quick intro ..never saw this on here before..22 yo female in Tx in school. 1st time to do a challenge...I actually decided that I was gonna be in a size 12 or less for my sisters wedding in Dec, so I have decided to get my butt in gear!! I am currently in a 14/16 down from a 22/24...but formal dresses run small..Also, bc of my age I was never put on a pre op diet, so all my weight loss is due to the band anyways, I actually just changed my fall schedule. I decided to take several gym classes to help me get in gear... I will be taking self defense, aerobics (no clue on the spelling), karate and bowling (still exercising!lol) so al together that means Ill be an elite intermediate i think.. might be confused on the wording there . I am also raising a very active 6 mnth old puppy who requires walks everyday to prevent her from destroying my house, so hopefully this will work!!!:ranger:- February 07 Bandsters Pics
Me before with my sister.. me minus about 50 lbs..with my sister..people say you can really see it in my face- Protein Help
Ok so Im not a pill popper or suppliment mixer type of person. More power to those of you who are, but I can't remember to take them and then I have this mental block thing...ANYWAYS, so basically I have to do Peanut Butter. Low fat as possible just a spoonful on the way out the door...kinda feels "naughty" if ya know what i mean so it helps me crave less too..I also eat lots of tofu things and soy products that I can mix in with everything... O and of course cottage cheese, lowfat. Ill mix it in with yogurt and there ya go!- Mushie question
Technically yes I believe so, which is kinda the road I took! haha what can I say Im a rebel! But I have found out that no matter how much I chew..some things I can not keep down, like bread or chicken etc. Basically you know the foods the doc wants you on, try sticking to them as much as possible, but if that fails..Chew chew chew :0- WHAT FOODS GETS STUCK or give you problems?
I am totally random in what gets stuck for me! most meats do bread Pasta broc..which sucks cause I love it Yet I can eat freaking mexican tortia chips till my eyes bulge..alright like 5, yet I cant eat broc..grrr - Any Younger Bansters Here?