When I started the process I was 237lbs, 39.5 BMI, apparently not enough to get approved from insurance. I knew I would be heavier in a matter of months because of the anti-depressents I am on due to post partum after having my daughter last November. I went back for a re-evaluation in October and I was 252, more than enough weight to be considered by my insurance company.
My dilemma: 1)scared of course of all the complications happening to me, 2)Been married for 3years and my husband thinks I don't need it, he loves me the way that I am, that this is too drastic, and I haven't really dedicated myself to an attempt to lose weight in the 3 years we have been married (I have, but he doesn't think it was fully committed). He really doesn't understand how many attempts I had prior to us getting married, starting from Phen Phen back in my late teens to early 20's. Then Yeduc bought in Mexico, all with working out, Nutri System, 6week body make over, HCG diet, and I lose weight, but then I find it again...lol. 4)Scared he won't be supportive, scared if I have any complications he will say I told you so 5) Scared to get pregnant again (They say I can safely try after 18mos of the banding), which I want to, but scared of those complications. 6)Just don't know if the good outweighs the bad enough.
I am not lazy at all, I definately let life catch up with me and get too busy to work out sometimes, but I feel like I would be more motivated if I got the banding, then my husband says if I don't make time for it now, what makes me think I will once I am banded. Uggghhhh.
Ultimately, it's my body and my decision. But is this too drastic? Is there another way to lose it and keep it off? I think I know the answers, but need some reassurance from people who have had the same issues or feelings.
Surgery date set for Dec.12. I had to take 3 months of nutrition classes, I already had Weight watchers for 5months, so now is countdown, and time to back out.
Please help, all comments welcomed.
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