PrettyLilButterfly

The portions are beyond ridiculous. I order Apps or A-la-cart most times. I tend to order alot of kids meals as well. I've only had 2 restaurants deny me. I do love the leftovers, but when you're out of town and don't have a refrigerator in your room, not so easy. In those cases, I find the smallest A-la-cart or app I can.

off the top of my head it's IM SEXY AND I KNOW IT......

I probably shouldn't be typing today. Yesterday was just an all around horrible day. I had it out with a co-worker. I really do try to bite my tongue and keep peace...but oh lord she just hit the wrong button. So we've agreed to just not speak to each other. I was going to ask my director to move my cubicle elsewhere (so very tired of the drama in this dept). However, I don't want to add to the drama and stress him out. So I just keep my headphones on and play my music all day while I work. Today I feel the need for 'angry' music. So worked sucked. Get home last night. I'm chilling with my kids then my g/f gets home...and...well.. of course she starts. Yells at my daughter because she left her bedroom light on (YES i agree, let's not waist energy, i'm big on that too) She then tells her to stay in her room the remainder of the night and takes her phone away. I realize my kids have been told more than once not to leave lights, but really? Then my g/f looks at the living room table and asks me "you couldn't clean it off?". Now keep in mind, I'm a super cleaning freak now. I keep that table SPOTLESS. However SOMEONE (who was not me) was in a rampage Sunday looking for one of her bills and a gift cert. Of course she had to take every document we had put away out to look for these papers. So...was I going to clean up her tantrum mess? OH HELL NO.. Then she looks over at the kitchen table and notices HER waffle from Saturday morning still there. And of course she asks why it's still there and why I didn't clear up her plate after breakfast when I cleared mine. I kindly reminded her she is an adult and can clear her own plate. I reminded her how she got up after breakfast and sat her @ss down on the couch. The 'rule' is who ever cooks, the other cleans..yet when I do cook (which isn't often, I hate cooking, always have) she NEVER cleans up after. Matter of a fact, she usually has the kids do it. I started to eplain to her she needs to help out more around the house. She went on and on about how she pays the bills and cooks.. Of course this didn't go over well with me since i pay MORE THAN HALF the mortgage (since my kids take up the 2 spare bedrooms) and how I pay MORE THAN HALF Of the utilities...we won't even go into how I buy all the toiletries (which is MY fault since I will only use Tide). So we begin yelling at each other...and I finally screamed out "since this is YOUR house and YOU pay all the bills, I'll just move out and get my own place". Yeah, that didn't go over well. She accused me of being a child and wanting to run out rather than deal with the relationship like an adult. I told her i'm tired of the nitpicking and the fighting. We basically yelled another 30 minutes then we both shut up and aren't talking to each other. This is the part where I was proud of myself. Rather than run to the fridge to attempt to stuff my face, I went to my room and began cleaning. I even cleaned the bathroom (ok so the bathroom in our room is 'our' bathroom. however, she NEVER cleans the damn thing, so i've stopped getting ready in there, I've stopped cleaning it. Thinking that just MAYBE she would get off her @ss and clean.. NOPE. it's a hot mess. Gross really). So I grabbed clorox and wiped down the whole damn thing. Did a load of laundry. So this shows me my old habits of using food as my comfort, I now use cleaning as it HAHA!! Much less self destructive. I did look for houses to rent online today. Ugh there is nothing in my price range (how the hell do people think we will pay more than $1000 for rent..seriously?) I don't know if this fight will blow over.. I don't know that I want it to. I do love her. I do. When it's good, it's great. When it's bad...ugh watch out world. Explosive. I don't feel it's a healthy relationship for either one of us..love or not. Blah, I just want to go home........so over today.

I never really took a lunch, have always eaten at my desk. So that stays the same. At home, I cook for the kids, then go on a cleaning frenzy. My laundry baskets are ALWAYS empty, my house is spotless. I've rearranged almost every room/closet. I decided just today I need to clean out my desk at work. It's filled with snacks (mostly healthy), but I just don't touch them. I'm looking at my desk now..and I have 1/2 a sandwhich I took 2 bites out of, half a protein bar I nibbled on and a few grapes. Food just doesn't matter. I LOVE IT! I no longer spend all my time wondering what I'm going to eat. Now I have to figure out what to feed the kids!!

Oh i do love this thread!! Best would maybe be this weekend. Saw an aunt/uncle of mine I haven't seen in a year. Ran up to them, threw my arms around them to hug me and they both stared. My aunt looks at my uncle and says "who's that".. haha.. Once I reminded them I'm their NEICE, she repeated over and over "OMG I didn't recoginze you, you look so beatiful". Worst thing I got was "wow, you look sick. Your face is all pale. You look like a cancer patient" (let me tell you, I was LIVID!!!!!!!!). Another bad one was when I took the kids to meet their dad for the weekend and he tells me "Hey i'm selling weight loss Protein shakes, did you want some".. umm.. hey jack@ss..i've lost 80 lbs..I dont need to buy your product! of course I love all the "hey skinny mini " and "hey skinny B!t..." or "hey sexy mama". I actually was called a milf the other day...(giggle). ME? What? aww shucks..

It was amazing! I had the greatest time ever!! the floors...well..umm..ahem...haha we haven't bought the wood yet. I'm putting it off. But we have a few more events the next 2 weekends. After that, I will buckle down and do it. Get it out of the way!

Another week has come and gone. Was supposed to go camping this weekend, but forgot I have a baby shower to attend (Gah). Upset my mom when I told her I couldn't pick her up for the shower because I really didn't plan on staying through the entire shower. I explained to her I do not like showers of any kind...yes i know, it's my cousin's wifes and we've waited forever for another baby...but ...games/food/chatter.. no thanks! Hell I would've missed my own baby showers if I could've.. I sound evil don't I? I'm just so non girly like. But I know I need to be there. My mom's family is extrememly small (me, my brother and 2 cousins). SO this is a huge event. There better be some good homemade potato salad to make this worth it! LOL.. Well my g/f was still quiet last night. I had to really push to get to her mom's house. I know her mom was happy we were there. She loves my kids even asked them to call her grandma. After we made her mom dinner my g/f informed me she was going to her friends house to watch the remainder of the game..I was not happy, but let it go. I did get a text an hour after saying "I love you sooo much". I guess that was her way of reminding me she needs me? I know she's going through alot of emotion. In all honesty, I had to remind myself how I would be if anything happened to my dad. How would I be? Exactly like her. I'd shut her out (not intending too of course). And hold all emotion inside. Me and my dad are so close that my brother has already prepared his fiance of his duties should anything happen to my dad. He knows he'd have to fly in from Cali to help me cope. Yes, true daddy's girl here and proud of it! Matter of a fact, we had a cancer scare last month with dad. God smiled upon us and he does not have cancer! Thank you Jesus!! We're not 100% out of the woods, but they did say once they remove his barrett's disease, he should be in the clear . Oh and I was a bad girl for lunch. I ate a burger. it was a kids burger, but a burger nonetheless. feel like poo now.. but i can't say i regret it. It was something I was craving and decided not to deny myself. I refuse to act like i can never eat certain things again... I won't eat them daily, but if i'm craving..im eating. Well time to finish up here and work and start my weekend! See you monday dearest diary

how are you able to live without CHILI?!! haha.. that's quite a change from NM to Michagan!!

I had lapband in 2011 and changed to the sleeve in December of 2012. How exciting!! it's creeping up for you!

I had my surgery in December..and go through phases when it comes to sleeping. I've always been a stomach sleeper. And was looking forward to sleeping on a SMALLER tummy! Once I was done healing (about a month out), I was more comfortable on my stomach again. However, I find I have switched to being a side sleeper. These days, that just feels right. I still sneak onto my tummy, but it just doesn't feel the same (go figure). i'm just SOOO glad I sleep through the night now (and with no snoring TYVM!). Before I had insomnia. Now, like a baby!! one of the beautiful NSV of the sleeve!

I'm sure the odds are slim, but anyone in NM? would love a buddy near me

Hello all New to this group. Brief history: I'm 40, had lap band placed in 9/2011, had lap band removed/hernia repair/sleeve done 12/2012. I've hit my goal of losing 100 lbs. Pretty happy with where I am I got my first tattoo about 6 years ago (A tribute to my grandmother). Sadly, didn't like what the artist did. Was gun shy after that, but had another artist add to the first tattoo. I was careful where to place my tattoos due to being 240 lbs. It was stupid, but i felt like i shouldn't get tattoos being my age and my weight. I got one on my ankle. Then made the leap to get one on the inside of each wrist to symbolize me and my 3 children. After my 1st surgery...it was time to stop being afraid. I worked with an artist and we spent a few months designing the tattoo i've always wanted, a Geisha. After the second surgery, I felt it was time to put my daily prayer on me. So I got the serenity prayer in a scroll placed on me. Now that I have a new and improved confidence, I am dying to get a back piece. It's something I've always wanted, but was too afraid to do.. At this point, it's just a matter of a good artist and well..the funds!! Anywhere, here are most of my tattos Look forward to meeting/chatting with you

I wore pants I didn't have to button! and if I had to button them, I looped a rubber band around the button and through the hole, this gave me an inch or 2 wiggle room. I really only felt pressure when i was sitting at my desk if the pants were too snug. By the 3rd week I was wearing my button up pants again As for laying down, I prefered the recliner. If I did make my way to my bed, I had a mountain of pillows around me. I sort of made a pyramid with the pillows so i was propped up rather than laying flat. And I kept one under my belly (i laid on my side for the most part) and one between my legs. I did have pain at night (I ended up having 4 procedures unexpectedly), so I would take my pain meds then to knock me out. Seemed to help me sleep better. Hope this helps a bit! good luck hun!!

I would agree with everyone, it's when YOU feel comfortable in them. I wore my girdles about 2 weeks out. Granted I don't do spanx. I Love the concept, dont' get me wrong..but umm a small hole at the bottom to attempt to pee out of? no thanks:) I have found some amazing alternatives at walmart & Ross where I can wear my own bra and still get the full effects of spanx i'm somewhat addicted to girdles!! Almost have as many as i do shirts! haha..but it boosts confidence and keeps my skin in control!

I felt it was for the best. Granted, my insurance required I see the dietician once a month for the 6 months. In all honestly, this HELPED! I had 6 months to prepare for my new life. She gave me a goal each month to help me get used to the new way of eating. First month was to cut out sodas, OH GOD!! In all honestly, I don't think I would've been as successful had I not been required to wait the 6 months. or have you already done everything else required by the clinic for the surgery?

so THATS what those little buggers look like! I've always wanted to know. I had to suffer through my pain when I had gallstones because I was 6 months pregnant, couldn't do a thing. And I wanted to know what the heck was giving me so much grief! Hope your recovery goes well take it easy.

It's always best to be open and honest with your PCP, they know you better than your surgeon does!! I told mine. And turns out it was the best thing ever. She did her clinicals in a bariatric clinc! So I can see her for most of my issues One stop shop!

CONGRATS!!!!!!! hitting the 100's is the best ever!!

So yesterday my g/f's mother is rushed to the ER wtih chest pains. We were told she had just had her 2nd heart attack. When she gets to the ER, they said that was incorrect and her heart was fine. Due to extreme deadlines at work I couldn't rush to the ER to be there. I also figured all her children were there so I would only be in the way. Once I knew I could leave work, I called my g/f and asked her if I could stop by her moms. She said her mom was tired and that she'd be heading home soon. I went home, fed the kids and text her letting her know I feel ridiculous being at home when I should be at her side. She finally gave in and said to come down. Just as I'm about to get on the freeway she sends a text telling me her mom is tired and she's putting her to bed and would be home soon. So I turned around and called it a night. This morning she woke up to take her mom to the doctor. I asked her to let me know when she got there so I could call her mom. I didn't want to call prior to just incase she wasn't awake. I sent 2 text messages asking her if she was there. Finally after an hour she responded that she was. So I called, she answered her mom's phone and I asked her why she didn't let me know. She said her mom was getting ready. I asked if I could briefly speak to her. I needed to send her my love and let her know I'm thinking of her. I know her mom would be SO hurt if I didn't call or go see her. This is why I was adament about wanting to see her. I can't help but feel like I'm being shut out. This is her mom, I'm her partner, she should be leaning on me. instead, she's pretty much ignoring me. I'm trying SO hard to be understanding and give her space... but I would like to feel needed by her. She can't do this journey alone. Her mom is on 10 different meds, has diabetets, high blood pressure and God knows what else. We NEED to change her eating habits and get her on some sort of exercise. Does she think she can spend everyday at her mom's alone and do this by herself? I can't make it more clear I AM HERE FOR YOU!!!! Ugh, I'm just sad..I know she's angry at me from the other night because I "didn't have her back" when she got upset with my son. Is that REALLY a reason to shut me out now? I mean really? She is pissed I asked her to drop it while we were fighting. And of course twice as angry that I didn't bring it up the next day. (she knows I hate arguing). So...here we go again. SSDD.. I know in my heart we're not meant to be, the love is there...but not much else.. IDK.

Thrift stores and clearance racks have become my new best friends! I don't think I've spent over $10 for anything lately! it's so nice to have a smorgashboard of items to choose from! Unlike the plus sized racks (damn you designers!). My biggest shocker was my shoes! I have been a size 8 forever, and just a few months ago, realized I'm now a 7.. That part I didn't like. I'm not much into shoes..so I hate shopping for them (prefer barefeet! ) And I am also curious how consignment shops work. I have a few very nice party dresses that I need to hand off.

I haven't lost friends..I told everyone and was blessed with support. but the ONE person who should support me the MOST, hasn't. My significant other just tosses out negative comments daily. "your legs look like chopsticks" "you look like a sick person" "ugh I can feel your bones when I hug you" WTF?? seriously? Oh and my favorite comment... wait for it.... wait for it... "you took the easy way out".. I'm sorry, how is this easy? I'm made to feel as if I just jumped on this bandwagon for sh!ts and giggles. Really? That was the most hurtful. Personally, she should've done it with me. She's larger than I was preop. She was just told she's diabetic. All it took me was being told I was prediabetic... ugh love sucks...

I've discovered I love to order food..but not eat it.. it's almost like shopping...it's a weird addiction.

WOOHOO!!!!! congrats!! it's a beautiful road ahead

I buy fresh fruit constantly, chop it up and keep baggies of it at work or in a small cooler in my truck. I also do alot of chopped veggies. I like celery with pb so i get in some protein! I also like the laughing cow cheese wedges, taste deslih with anything Hope this helps .

I did the same thing post op, though it wasn't soup..i was worse I did mashed potatoes.. God it sucked they tasted so good. I had to remind myself my stomach is still healing and to not push myself. Next time do your best to remove the bits from the soup, having been cooked with all the bits, the broth will still taste amazing!! you have to take this one day at a time.. and remember you did this to yourself to BE HEALTHY and BE HAPPY. Like KBurns said, once you get on that scale, you get so excited. I would step on mine almost daily..and each day a pound or 2..it made me want to do better.. First time I hit 199 (first time in 18 years I had been under 200!) I cried...and I Knew then, everything I had done and was doing was beyond worth it. I would never change my decision. I had 'buyers remorse' the first couple of months thinking of all the place I couldn't eat or buffets I wouldn't go to..but seriously? really? I would miss that? I THINK NOT! Hang in there and don't be so harsh on yourself!