Angie911

SELF SABATOGE. Ive been on both sides...and right now Im the biggest Ive ever been close to 300 lbs. 7 years ago I was 270 lbs and lost 70 lbs...the amount of attention was unbelievable. And like a couple of posters here I went back to my old eating. Now tho,,,I need to loose the weight,,,Im close to 40,,,my health is slipping,,,boarderline high BP, winded climbing stairs. I know Im going to benefit from councilling...as I have already in the past.

Mona I had to tell a couple of people at work about your story,,,they laughed. I have a couple of people at work I would like to have karma set straight....

omg Im gagging,,,but laughing...

Because this is a safe place...

Hi there,,,I did see Dr. McKenna about 2 years ago for about 6 months. The extra $150. is for a metabolic rate test. There is a tube that you keep for future metabolic tests. I found going to her good,,,I would have some great talks with her. My only problem is it was literally across the city from me and I couldn't get there after work in time for my appointments. There is no reason why you couldn't be going to her and waiting for the lap band.

Thanks Brandy...I am going to see if i can order it online.

jjsmiles when did you get banded?

hi Dan,,, know what you mean,,,my ducks are marching pretty good right now...wish my time was here so I can then just keep going. Angie

Brandy...what is the name of that book you are reading? I have a his hers and ours kinda family no true 100% sib,,,2 half bro and half sister,,,3 4 step brothers. Wasn't really raised with any of them and the times spent with them have been good too. BJean,,,ohh my you are so right cause I would of loved a book when we had our first,,,who is 20. I was the paranoid mom that boiled all the Water to rinse his soothers to faceclothes....*sigh I was a whole lot calmer with the second....ha ha

I so did like Dr. Church,,,and fingers crossed he becomes my Dr when the time comes for me. hope you find the right one for you Tyler and you too Dan... please keep us informed. Angie

Thanks Brandy...ya know I was just about to say if it wasn't such a health risk I would be happy the way I am...but I wouldn't be. I don't want to be fat. I wasn't always fat. I want to be healthier,,which would be about 100 lbs from here. Do I want to be prettier,,,ya my husband who is 170 lbs 5'10 didn't sign up for this,,,NOT that he has ever said anything about my weight. But if I was a decent weight,,,there are more things we can do,,,hiking,,scuba diving ( things we did in our early years,,,22 years later...the big hike is a lap around Walmart) Ive had my mom make some pretty rude comments about my weight,,,even when I was a size 8,,,*you know, no one will ever love you if you are fat* and if front of a room full of family and friends exclaiming,,*OMG you have gotten so big I thought you looked pregnant* and the usual *suck in your gut* I gave up...I decided over a year ago having any relationship with her was unhealthy so I informed her I was done. I should feel guilty,,,or sad or something. But I feel relief,,,no having to be her whipping girl..sad yes, wished I had a better mom. I have had (past tense) a rough life. As alot of people on here have. But as an adult no more will I subject myself to that kind of life. Does that mean I loose my family...the kind of family I have who needs enemies... so yes it means loosing my BLOOD relatives,,,and making my own family. Ive done well so far...surrounding myself with healthy supportive,,,and positive people.

I have been using food as my medication,,,my addiction,,,my escape. I started out writing about my history,,,my history sounds like a few of the other posts. Abuse,,,verbal, mental and sexual. Lack of food,,,scared of not knowing where the next meal would come. Family members and their addictions. Im the only one with food addictions...

Heather,,, Congrats on the surgery... Im in Calgary too...and waiting....*sigh

Oh My I do have to post ... I grew up in the NWT of Canada,,,and I remember I had the Billy Idol hair ( a perm gone bad) And to ad to the look a friend's cousin was in hair school and needed someone to do hair colors on,,,Hot Pink. I had think black eyeliner,,,and Madonna tees,,,with bracelets,,,black leather books over my skin tight jeans with the zipper starting in the back and coming under and over to the front...yup I was soooo hot. I did the Boy George faze...the long shirt and hat... Cyndi Lauper had nothing on me.... In a small town,,,this was strange. I remember my boss (pizza joint) asking me to keep doing things to my hair cause sales increased with people wanting to check out my newest look...ha

Oh Tyler,,,you are truly blessed. Im happy for you. This guy sounds like a good person. Angie

Ive always been indifferent to cosmetic surgeries...to each his/her own. I personally would... I know I will want me face done,,,looking at my mother,,,and pictures of my grandmother,,,I know I will want a tuck or two. There is a young woman I work with who has a mom who is adicted to face lifts and other cosmetic surgeries...she had her eye lids done,,her eyelids and eyebrows tattooed,,,lips injected and tattooed, breasts done, tummy tuck, chin, and a dimple...I learned how a dimple is made. It grossed me out.

Heather,,,wow that is a huge clothing change for you. I know of a owman who hasn't had a tummy tuck and I dont think shes interested in getting one. Looking at her,,,,you can see the loose skin,,,around her nexck area...and well if she wears cloth fitting pants,,,her front looks like a butt. All that loose skin stuffed inside I guess.

Susan..you too? Im starting to put my loonies aside for that...by the time I need to get it done I should have a good down payment for it. Angie

oh I know I wouldn't be NOT getting the TT...first priority is health,,,second yes I do want to look good too.

I know Alberta Health Care covers a tummy tuck...after a huge weight loss. Angie

Marie,,,thank you. Exactly what I had heard...dang dang double dang. I am orginally from Red Deer,,, I should ask my Dr. to referr me to him instead. Make a day of it. Visit family friends ,,Dr. visit. Thanks Marie,,, Got me some thinking to do. Angie

Tyler,,,having a tummy tuck isn't all about being vain..(yes I will stand up and admit I do want to look good in a pair of jeans with the shirt tucked in. But its also about all that loose skin,,,causing yeast infections,,,we don't want me to talk about this indepth...visualize...ha ha Doing the tummy tuck will that problem.... Angie

I wish I had gotten a tummy tuck and moved on,,,nope I filled in that belly and more,,,and 100 lbs later,,,waiting for surgery.

Tyler,,I always like to be informed,,so do alot of reading,,,researching before I attempt the first time. My family Dr. knows when I bring something up,,,I already know the whys and hows,,,just sticking out there for him to give me his imput. I went to Dr. McKenna first 2 years ago...this felt more like councilling,,,we talked about my food intake,,,work outs. Checked my metobolic rate...checked it again cause she had never seen one lower. We delved abit into my emotional eating. But the outcome was,,,I know right from wrong,,,I know the right foods...the exercises. Can talk circles around some trainers,,,,and yet I am obese. My fault. I even eat healthy,,,then I eat more,,,unhealthy stuff. So if I can stop after the first part I would not be where I am today. Waiting for my chance to have this surgery... I sure didn't get a helping of patience...more like a second helping of junk food...ha

Ah Mary! Hope your back is better soon,,,and yes lunges are great,,,so are just sqwats. I lost 67 lbs about 10 years ago,,,and my legs and arms were great,,,I got into power lifting and so they didn't really go down in size,,,but got really toned and defined with muscle. BUT OMG my belly was disgusting. It looked like a deflated balloon. Felt like one too,,,well one filled with some Water... And I did everything,,,I was doing power crunches on some horrible machine that you add weight...I figured if I could of gotten rid of all the skin,,,and more fat I would of had some muscle...ha ha ok everyone would or could say the same. I read alot on skin,,,and benefits of what works and doesn't. Grapeseed oil sticks out..