Bit of a Diva

Oh Lemon Drop I'm super excited for both of you!! I knew that pysch evaul would be a breeze and so will the case manager appt. It looks like both you and Amber are on your way to new baby stomaches before the New Year. I cant wait till the 16th myself!

Wow! Fantastic loss and amazing growth. Thank you for sharing this part of your journey too and can't wait for a post of some pics of the lovely new you!

You must certainly do rock! Stay strong and stay the course. Was the appointment with Dr Baggs this past Friday the 15th? Oh my you must tell me how it went!! xxooxx

Just like the "stall" I think this emotional break is typical for us sleevers and for some reason something we all go through it. I know I felt sad and slightly depressed a few weeks out, but it really did get better. These feelings of worry, doubt, disappointment, and maybe even a little regret will past. Just focus on letting your body heal and do what it needs to do to re-establish an equilibrium.Prayer and meditation may help or if that's not your thing dive into a good book, new video game, or try to figure out what makes women tick! LOL! I am a bit of an eternal optimist and can always find something good to say, but I'm not blowing smoke here... it really and truly gets better, in fact it gets pretty dam amazing! Congratulations on your new life and best of luck!!

Ok I'm totally lost with the changes and updates made to this site. There is no ease of use and it took far too long to even figure out how to post this. I definately don't think I'll be hanging out here as much.

You're the sweetest!! Thanks you for all your support.

I just wanted to add this as an addendum to my last blog post as I'm lurking on the site everyday and I see many people have reached this dark place too. I just wanted to say the feeling of sadness, confusion, anger, and yes even remorse will pass. Reviewing what I wrote I can see I was hurting and knee deep in a bad stall. Not understanding the stall and not being for warned about it inevitable happening really messed up my head. Now I know it passes and really can beyond my control. It's something this crazy body decides to do and I just have to continue to do what I know is right; eat well, drink plenty, a get some exercise in. At 3 and 1/2 months out down 30 pounds pre-op and and another 36 post-op I've never felt better in my life! So much energy and a little bit of pride I really couldn't ask for more. Remorse? No. Is it easy? No. Is it worth it? HELL YES!!!

Hi!! Good for you venturing out and congrats on your sleeve. So full liquid stage is pudding, soup, and yogurt right? I think it's the most challenging because you get tired of the sweet stuff pretty quick. For me trying different cream soups really helped because of their rich savory taste. Cream of wild mushroom, tomato bisque, cream of asparagus, and even cream of brocoli were all good to me. How much longer are you going to be at this stage? Just focus on how these lovely light meals are contributing to your weight loss and bringing you one step closer to goal. I don't feel I grasped this during the limited eating phases, but ultimately this is the time to get your mind to focus on the fact that food is primarily about nourishment. I wish you the best of luck and welcome to the loser's bench!!!

Way to go!! You can do this and the diet that Kaiser gives you really works. I swore by my food scale and really learned a great deal about portions thru that phase. I was the same weight starting out so I know its doable!!!! Best of luck to you and your mom.

Keep your eyes on the prize! Girl you know this isn't about "sucks" its about success so focus and get your mind right. I'm not quite 3 months post op, but I've discovered on this journey its all pretty much a mind game. Keep your thoughts and self talk positive, be your own cheerleader, and be kind to yourself. It will all be fine and you'll excel!

I'm sorry you feel this way. I know there is no amount of "chin up" talk that really helps, but I can suggest that you revel in the joy of not being able to turn to food. Yeah!!! Think how many pounds you WON'T gain cause you drowned your sorrows in a pint of icecream or a super size order of fries. Ok, so you have to face everything without the crutch of a food fix. Great! That's one less thing to worry about. No regret, no remorse, and no shame from comforting yourself with food. This time and moment will pass and you are never ever truly alone. A stranger reading your post wishes you happiness and health!!

I wish you much success on your journey! I think your off to a good start with not becoming a slave to the scale. Your absolutely right, your body is adjusting and in about a week you'll be surprised at what the old scale says. Be good to your self and wishing you a speedy recovery.

Hey, I just wanted to let you know one side of my stomach looked looked sunken in too right after surgery and I felt I had to hold it when I walked. I felt like I had to keep the stiches from pulling because it felt so tight and It looked like that side would never be the same. My Dr. said that was all because the stomach is stitched to the muscle and I guess it kinda puckers. Suffice it to say in a few weeks that side looked and felt fine. Give your body a chance to heal and help it along by walking as much as you can. It really does get better!

I appreciate you posting this too. Its great to know even very successful sleevers have a cheat now and then and don't workout like mad. I'm 7 weeks out tomorrow and really wondering when its all going to come together for me. Your post gave me some hope.

30 pounds is pretty awesome! Congrats and keep up the good work.:cool0:

Surviving cancer means there's a plan for you and seems God has a lot more for you to do! That's what it came down to for me. I knew I had a lot more to do on this earth and I wanted to be strong and healthy to do it. I want to run a mile with my son, see my grandchildren, grow old with my hub, and just live! Being obese wasn't going to let me do these things and the bottom line was I was more afraid of losing my life than I was of the surgery and everything that goes along with it. Your decision is not an easy one and I think its perfectly normal to have doubts. Just keep weighing your pros & cons, pray, and listen. Good luck to you!!!

Thanks so much for your support. I appreciate you even reading the rantings of a hungry diva! I'm going to work thru this and keep pushing. A word of advice to you as a pre op sleever... follow your dr's directions to the letter. Don't deviate and don't rush the post op diet. Oh and walk, walk, walk!

I was wondering if anyone can speak to it being normal to feel somewhat remorseful about choosing to have surgery? I'm 5 weeks post op, lost 30 pounds preop, and only 17 pounds since the surgery. Suffice it to say I'm so disappointed and am beginning to feel like this may have all been for not. Reading about everyone else's success had me hopeful that I'd be sitting pretty on the loser's bench by now, unfortunately I still feel like the fat girl that doesn't get invited to take a seat. Been in a stall for 19 days now and I've tried everything to stimulate some change. I really increased my protein for a week, I ate more calories for a few days, and now I'm on day 3 of the 5 day pouch test. The only difference I've seen is the scale shows I've actually gone up a pound or two then back down. Today I got to eat some eggs as part of the 5 day pouch test and they felt like a rock in my stomach. So uncomfortable and made me feel more miserable than every. I can't imagine that I'll feel like this for the rest of my life when interacting with food. I don't feel like this is normal and all the happiness about my decision is starting to drain away. Can this procedure actually not work? Can the body be so resistant to weight loss that it fights to hold on to it? Is there anyone out there who feels like they haven't made the best decision for themselves? Has anyone gone through a period like this and can speak to it actually getting better? I know it's too late and can't take it back now, but how do I live with it?

Full Steam Ahead! Isn't getting back to the routine kinda comforting? Glad you did ok with your food, but make sure you get on those fluids. The last thing you need is to get dehydrated.

It absolutely does get better soon! I think it took exactly 7 days before I felt just about 100% better. I thought I was pretty tough too, but being so uncomfortable made me wimper & cry uncle. One thing that helped with the gas was to have someone rub my back. Yep just like a baby the more my back was patted and rubbed the more the gas came up and out. Congrats on your new life and hang in there!

This is really inspiring to someone like me who has been in a stall for almost 3 weeks now. If feels like it's been forever since I've lost anything and I couldn't be more frustrated. You shown me there a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks and congrats on your success!

Best of luck with your surgery and recovery!

Wow! Great big pat on the back for you. 30 pnds is awesome! I'm so envious. I'm a day shy of my 5 week mark and have only lost 1/2 as much as you. What's your secret??

Not an expert but... My hub bought rotisserie chicken and I took slices off that to work for the last couple of days. Taste super yummy hot or cold. I made a very nice shrimp salad with canned shrimp that was divine. Make it just like tuna salad and maybe even throw in some avocado. I also did this with crab and it was just as good. I also found Parmesan chicken meatballs and breakfast link sausage that were easy to pack and heat. Definitely take a few tablespoons of peanut butter for emergencies. Try throwing your protein shakes in the freezer for bit so it gets slushy like a milkshake, that might make it more tolerable. I really wish you good luck. Being back at work is hard enough, but being miserable and hungry doesn't make it any better.

I'm so sorry that you're not feeling well. Better times are definately around the corner just keep drinking and swishing.