Punkie

I hate to start a response to this, for fear it will be to long, so I'll try to make it short. I said try... I was banded 7/11. I have lost 36 lbs. so far, not complaining, just not excited. I only have 3cc in my band, and have had trouble! I woke up from surgery and I couldn't breathe. They took me back in there and removed the very little they put in for a jump start.I was fine that first month, basically felt that sweet spot then, I felt full all the time, and that was on liquids, and mashed potatoes. Then after my 1st fill, it was too tight, I stuck my finger down my throat after everything I ate, I thought it was my fault, cause I was eating too fast, swallowing too big a bite, but by doing this I was starving myself, and my stomach growled so loud! I waited til my next app, though and should have went in earlier, but I didn't , I had lost 8 lbs, so I was happy. The next month, was more of the same, tighter in the mornings, the only time I wouldn't have trouble eating much was around 8 at night.. I was still purging by way of finger. I had worked on slowing down on my eating too! so by then my body started hanging on to the fat thinking I was starving it, and weightloss has slowed down since, I went back every two weeks for a month or so, they would take some out , they would put some back. I have had 2 xrays during all of this and my band is fine. I am constantly starving! Then I purged and it was all mucus! Yes sorry I know it's gross, but I do have a lot of drainage. obviously more than I could of ever imagined, I didn't realize I swallowed so much and it was plugging up my band, causing food to get stuck, So I now drink hot coffee to dissolve it , before I eat anything, and it seems to help so much so that I can eat larger portions, of relatively soft foods, soups, which they don't like that cause they pass right through the band and leaves you hungry. So needless to say, I am now lost, I need to exercise for the most part to get another jump on losing again! I just feel like I've lost what was up, and I'm just reeling ! I just want someone to help with some advice or anything, I just need a pep talk. It seems like I have been eating the same things now for months, and I am so tired of them.Anyway, blah blah blah sorry it was long!