CraftyChristie

yes exactly pnw218 .... and Phatcurves, just one more point... I want you to know that I don't say these things because I want to be right, or make some point, or tell you want to do... it is only that I care and I can tell you're struggling and I'd love to see you help yourself out of the situation and find more happiness. Big hugs to you.

OK firstly I am glad you are feeling a little bit better! I want to say one thing though. I totally understand your feeling that you are not strong enough to leave right now. And I won't harp on it but just want to put this out there - similar to what was said by someone else about the oily rag.... I know you feel your self esteem is low and you don't feel strong enough to be on your own but sometimes the truth it that it is the other person who takes away your strength. So although you feel that now, you would actually feel stronger without him in your life.

I'm no counselor or anything but I have seen friends in these situations. I know it's a hard thing to face so I would never try to push you, rather I am only trying to encourage you to see that you CAN do this on your own and that it may actually be easier, because you don't have to fight anyone.

We are all here for you if you need us!

Remember that dehydration does not always mean you only need Water to fix it. Although it would have carbs, I'd recommend drinking some pedialyte or gatorade just to help get all of your body's liquids back on track and see if it helps you feel better. Or you can go to the doc/hospital and have them put you on a hydrating IV but of course there is a lost of cost with that!! But water isn't always the only thing you need to rehydrate! Don't be afraid of trying those drinks and then getting back to mostly low carb stuff. You gotta be feeling strong

Thanks guys!! Any suggestions on a high Protein snack with lil to no carbs? Any suggestions on a coffee Creamer with low or no carbs?

Hi Lillie! I didn't read all the responses so sorry if this is a repeat. Have you ever tried meatless/soy items? I love the brand "Morningstar Farms", you'll find them in the freezer section and they come in green boxes. They have Breakfast sausage patties for example that are made mostly of soy and veggies. They are super low in carbs and have something like 15-20g of Protein for 2 patties. I know they may not be a "snack" food but just thought I'd throw this out there. The company makes soy/veggie based meatless products for vegetarians - I am NOT one and never would want to be personally, but I find the items tasty. I've had their burgers, chicken nuggets, etc. They also make "crumbles" which is like an equivelant of ground beef, which you could use in cooking other foods. They don't taste exactly like the food they are meant to replace, but they have a lot of flavor and I like them.

Soy nuts and other nuts make great high protein Snacks too!

Hi sweetie... first of all, I'd like to say that I think I understand some of how you are feeling. I don't have a surgery date yet, my consult is the 12th, but I am expecting to have surgery 3-4 weeks after that. Even just knowing that it is coming, I think I am starting to mourn the loss a bit - the loss of eating what I want, when I want. Even though I WANT this, that is a loss I have to mourn and I think I am doing that by eating junk and eating too much and feeling super full - because I won't want/be able to do that after surgery. I realize what's causing my behavior, but it still makes me feel depressed, sad, and mad at myself. I think it also gives me a fear of failure... like, if I can't have the right attitude right now, how do I know I can have the right attitude after surgery?? This might be where the depression is coming from. That fear of failure. But I have to realize this is a process, and mourning the loss is part of that process. I don't know if this is the same for you, but wanted to put that out there in case it is.

Also, quitting smoking is a REALLY big deal. I have never been a smoker, but I have seen how hard it is for people to quit. My parents smoked for 35+ years and they both quit in 2001. I am so proud of them and their lives have changed so much. I think all addictions have so much control over us - especially food. You are about to try to conquer TWO major addictions in your life at once - give yourself the credit and recognize that this is a big deal. It's a lot to take on at once, and you're doing it, and that is a struggle. You are not a failure if you feel like it's really hard to do both of these things at once - it IS hard! I know you can succeed though, and when you do, embrace the feeling of accomplishment because you deserve that.

I don't know anything about your boyfriend, your relationship, how you feel about him etc - but from a complete outside opinion based on what you wrote.... if he is a trigger for bad habits in your life, maybe it is time to let go. The things you have to take on are going to be difficult, and having support is great..... but better to be alone than to be with someone who makes it even harder. In yourself you can find support but if someone is pulling you down, that is an extra challenge that you just don't need right now - you are facing enough challenges as it is. Just my view from the outside.

I wish I could give you the hug that you need!! But I'm in Colorado By the way I am about 310lbs right now and it's also the highest for me, I was down in the 230's 3 years ago and missing that so much. Just so you know you look fantastic in your photos and I wish I looked as hot as you at this weight!!