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What happens at the Psych Evaluation?
Cleosan52 replied to daezeey's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
I met for 5 min with the psychologist and then answered at 560 question personality test. That's it. Suppose to take 2-3 hrs, I was out in 55 min :thumbup: -
If given the choice younger
Cleosan52 replied to mellifrits's topic in POST-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
I looked into WLS in my 20s before marriage and kids and such. But at the time RYN was my only option and I just wasn't ready for that change. I went through all the pre-op hoops, all I had to do was sign the surgery consent. But when the time came to sign, something stopped me. 5 yrs later I met hubby, he loved me plus size. After the kids and 5 yrs of marriage. The time is right. Even though he loves me plus size, he want me to be here for him and our children. It's time for me to start living for them. We tease that we just need to make it to our golden 50th but at my weight, I don't think I would. 10 yrs later, three kids later, the VGS is available to me and I'm grabbing it with both hands!!! -
surgery today, part two to my story
Cleosan52 replied to mp8btpc's topic in Tell Your Weight Loss Surgery Story
You are correct!!! Hugs and prayers for you, dear heart. Take care! -
Wow, it seems like you were in a whirlwind!!! Glad your doing good!
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Thank you for sharing! It's good to read about life afterwards. Did you get the plastic card for restruants from the doctor?
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Thank you! I am so glad to fins a group that I can relate too and the information/inspiration on here is great!
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I have about 140lbs to lose and that's going to my goal of 175lb. I meet with the dr on the 27th. If he wants me at 150, then I have about 165lbs to lose. Talk about carrying a person on my back!!! It seem so much, so far away, I could just cry at times. I don't know if I'll be able to handle losing all this weight. I've had another "person" attached to the "hip" for so long....
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I feel like I'm dying already but it is a slow, sad death. Its watching my babies grow up and knowing I can't take care of them properly because of my weight. I'm ready to live. I have total peace with this surgery. Know matter what happens, I know God is with me. I'm ready to start living :thumbup:
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Same here! My appt is the 27th and I'm trying to lose weight before hand. A lot of people tell me to eat like there is no tomorrow since my life will be changing soon. But I refuse to listen to that. This is no a lose weight quick scheme. So I start Aug 1st and lost 6 lbs so far. I'm trying to stay off the scale until Sat. On the down side, the nurse told me these pounds don't count towards the weight lost before surgery. But they count for me, KWIM? Even 6 lb down and I'm starting to feel better stick with it. Your doing great !!!
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Couldn't have said it better!
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What do you wish for?
Cleosan52 replied to Was a humpty dumpty's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
I made a huge list on my blog. I just want to be able to "live"! I want to enjoy life with my family and I can't wait! -
14 months out - with photos (you didn't expect there NOT to be pictures)
Cleosan52 replied to Tiffykins's topic in Weight Loss Surgery Success Stories
Thank you for posting. You look great and better yet I can tell you feel great and that is even better. Thanks for keeping it real for us newbies -
I just blogged about this. "Its a God thing" I never had peace about any WLS until now. I often asked God why is this my burden to carry? I placed blame on me, blame on my family, blame on Him. Like it was said on an earlier reply, Gluttony is a sin. No one forced me to get to 324 lbs. But God is faithful even through my screw ups. Do I feel guilt now? No, God has open doors for me, even at my heighest wt that seem unreal at times, esp at work. God has opened this door for me. I don't have to fight for this surgery with insurance, I don't have to jump through hoops with the dr, etc. I feel God's presence in all of this and this has given me a deep sense of peace. For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind (self-discipline/self-control/wise discretion). 2 Timothy 1:7
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where are the heavyweights?
Cleosan52 replied to Globetrotter's topic in Gastric Sleeve Surgery Forums
5' 4" here and I'm at 317 now. I have my appt end of the month and I have to lose 10% of my excess wt before surgery I'm a newbie on the board too -
I am a Christian and my faith has played a big role in this decision. I prayed about WLS. The Lord guided me through His Word. Phillipians 4: 6-7 6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. I know he was going to give me peace about WLS but I wasn't there yet. I've researched online, talked with patients and nurses. I thought the Lap band was the weigh to go. I refused to do anything drastic like Gastric Bypass ( talk about naive). But I still did not have peace. A co-worked that had the band told me she wishes she had the sleeve and to look into it. I though NO (drastic, remember!) A nurse at the hosp told me that the Dr will suggest VGS or Bypass because my BMI is 55. I though NO (drastic, remember!) Meanwhile, I'm still praying for peace and what to do. I hook up on the Lapband forum, very active, excited, nervous and not 100% committed yet (still no peace). I see an ad for VGS so I click on it. This began weeks of research, prayer, research, prayer, research, prayer, support groups, prayer!!! Guess what PEACE!!!!! I should have listed months ago but I wasn't ready! So my husband is on this journey with me but he is heeby-jeeby with all this medical stuff, so I call my Mom who is a retired nurse. She became my go-to support! She researched, prayed and is going to my appt with me Aug 27th. The three of us decided to not share any of this with the rest of the family until after the appt. My sister is struggling with her weight too and a couple of months we were talking about it. She said she was thinking of WLS too (lap bad). Little did I know, she had an appt with the same Dr in Jan, cancelled, in April (when we talked) canceled and finally yesterday she went! She called me when she got home and spilled all the beans. She has great news and decided that VGS is the way to go but she's still nervous. I just started laughing and couldn't stop!!!! I told her that is the way I decided to go too! She admitted to telling her dr that her sister (me) was going to be each others support system (remember she didn't know about my appt at the end of the month!!!!) and that I was going to come and see him. What can I say? IT"S A GOD THING!!! PEACE THAT PASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING!!!:thumbup:
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What will power! I would have thrown a temper tantrum.. not really but I would be thinking bad thought about everyone who was eating there, lol. Good luck on the 17th. It's getting close!
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Yes Emmy, that is what mama thinks when taking pictures!!!!
Cleosan52 posted a gallery image in Member Photo Gallery
From the album: Pre-op
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My battle with weight, diets, failures, successes started as a little girls. By the age of 4, I was a chunky little girl. I was one of the biggest kids in the class. At one point in high school, I lost the pounds by exercise, I still "felt" like I was the biggest. So my battle has not been only the physical weight but the mental and emotional weight. I've never know what it is to be thin and that scares me a little. I have been married for almost 6 years to a wonderful man. He loves me, the whole me. He likes me plus size, but he wants me to be happy and spend many many many years together. We tease that we'll put up with each other so we can have a golden 50th anniversary. My biggest fear is that I won't make it. We have 3 beautiful children, ages 5, 3 and 2, a wonderful home and a great family/church. Life is good on all fronts. Yes, we have our ups and downs, it's called life, but I am blessed in the fact that we have many more ups that downs. After our youngest child (Sept 08), I knew I had to get control of the weight. I was at 320lb, after the baby I went to 312 at the hospital. I decided I was going to try WW. I won a 3 mo. free online membership, yeah!!! From Sept 08 to May 09, I lost 70 lbs. I went from 320 to 250 and even for a couple of days, flirted with 240s. I blogged about it, I was excited about it, I did it on my own, logging everything I ate, counted points and exercise! I could do this!!! At the end of May 09, my sciatic pain flared up. I was discouraged and depressed. All this hard work and I still have pain!!!! What the heck!!! I kill my self, deny myself and still have pain! So I did the best thing... I ignored going to the doctor and getting help, I decided to go to the fridge instead. Gained 5 lbs that week, lost it, gained, 10lbs, lost it, gained 15lbs. Guess what by May 10, I am now back to 320lbs! I am my biggest now at 322 lbs (7-31-10) at age of 35. What is going to make this time different in losing the weight? ... WLS. I know I can lose the weight but now I can keep it off. The other big factor is that I am not doing this alone. I am going through this journey with my baby sister. I have 3 toddlers that I can't take care of. I need to lose this weight for them. I don't want to die at 40 and leave my family without me. I have this chance to change my life, for me, for them and I'm gonna take it! My insurance will pay for VGS. I have my doctor (highly recommended). My first appt is Aug 27th at 9pm ( my sister went July 29th, she gave me the heads up). My medical ness. form is sumitted. My psych eval is done. I even have my pre- cert referral number from the insurance! Ready to go!!!
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This is awesome! Thank You!
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From the album: Pre-op
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From the album: Pre-op