erikah81

About me. . .to sum it up?

I was born and raised in a small town in Western panhandle town in Nebraska. I was extremely active growing up; horse 4-H, livestock 4-H, Dance, Ballet, Piano, Pep band, Track, Volleyball, Basketball, Golf. Anything going on, I was in it. I've always been "BIGGER" than the skinny girls, but my Mom has always told me I can do anything they can. With that attitude in mind, I went on to get a full-ride scholarship on the Intercollegiate Horse Show Team in Cheyenne WY, competing on the horse show team and placing 1st in every show, except one! Taking on those skinny girls has always been a goal of mine, showing them that the big girl can work and beat them! I gained my two degrees in Equine science and training and management. I also competed on the rodeo team and obtained horse training degree and internship for Therapeutic horseback riding for handicapped children. I started an academy in Cheyenne, WY.

I am now married and have four boys now and am the biggest I've ever been and sooooooooooo uncomfortable with my body. I just had a baby 3 months ago and have struggled with my back aching, terrible sleeping at night and drowsiness at work, body aches, self-confidence issues, etc. Although my husband says he loves me any size I am, I do not love me right now and need to do something about it. I am doing the lap band for ME. I want to be able to play on the floor with my kids without hurting so badly, I wanna shop in a normal store, allow pictures being taken of me (which I hate now), I wanna get back into barrel racing and riding horses everyday, having energy that I am lacking so much of. I just want my LIFE back! Goal **To weigh 180** then go from there. Can't imagine me being smaller than that, but I'd love to comfortable with myself and body. If that's 180, I don't know. How can you tell what you'll feel or look like? Guess time will tell. But 180 is the first goal of mine!

Oct 29, 2010 Orientation Class (Omaha)

Nov 8, 2010 First Apt-bariatric - Review (Omaha)

Nov 16, 2010 Behaviour Therapist Apt (Lincoln)

Nov 30, 2010 Pulmonology apt (Lincoln)

Nov 19, 2010 Nutrition Class (Omaha)

Dec 12, 2010 Sleep study (Lincoln)

Dec 16, 2010 Behavior Therapist Apt#2 (Lincoln)

Dec 19, 2010 Sleep study #2 (Lincoln)

Jan 20, 2011 C-Pap

Jan 21, 2011 Nutrition Class #2 (Omaha)

Feb 22, 2011 Pulmonology apt#2 (Lincoln)

Mar 10, 2011 Complete physical & history (Omaha)

Mar 2, 2011 - START LIQUID DIET

Mar 16, 2011 - ***SURGERY DATE*** (Omaha)