Me at 245 pounds 2 weeks and five days before surgery

This picture makes me cry. I was taken 2 days ago July 6 2009, and I was having such a great time and then I saw this picture... and it ruins everything... you know? My mood suddenly changes and I'm reminded that I'm huge. Not like I'm not remind every day of that. Stuff that happens to me: I get badly treated all the time. I don't get any respect anywhere. People moo at me. I've been called the DUFF (Designated Ugly Fat Friend). People laugh and point at me. I get told at stores that "we don't have anything for big people like you here! Please leave" even when I'm just looking a jewlery. I HATE IT!!!! I CRY ALL THE TIME BECAUSE IT's INSANE HOW PEOPLE TREAT ME. I really hope lap band helps me. I just want to be normal. You know??? Is that to much to ask??? I wish everyone luck! Wish me luck too! I'm getting banded on July 29 and hopefully it will help me look like the person I feel I am. :o) Cammy